Today marks the end of my lessons in letting go. As a Taurus, I hold possessiveness to my belongs. Don’t touch my things, how dare you use my stuff and so on. If you are a Taurus or know a Taurus, you totally know what I mean.
I am in the middle of a major change in my life, which is 100% unknown. However I am moving out of my second apartment in a year after a break up and travelling back East for the summer to work.
While moving out of my ex’s home, I didn’t have time to go through everything, so I took everything. I made probably 5-6 trips total within several days for a couple of hours at a time, only when I was allowed to go over there.
When I moved into the new place, I basically moved into a bedroom but I had a backyard I could store things into. Mind you I love yard sales, so I was able to let go of things that no longer served me.
I stayed at this place of residence for just about 6 months before I had to move out. Due to unhealthy living circumstances, extremely toxic. I really never left my bedroom except to use the restroom and smoke, I always ate out.
I had 4 yard sales before I left. I was moving in with a friend who has her living space exactly the way she likes it. No clutter. No storage. Moving into another bedroom. I was totally ok with that as I was learning how to let go.
I packed my room to the best of my ability, I had space in the hall closet and the bathroom to store some small things. I had no space for all of my art and projects that truly brought me joy. I had to let go of so much. But I found friends that would allow me store my creative works at their houses. Blessed! I choose not to live without joy!
So now after 5 months of living at my friends house, I have been called to go somewhere else. I have been preparing my plate since February, what am I going to do, where am I going, how am I going to get there and so forth.
I have had the chance to slowly go through all of my personal items and slowly release all of my personal belongings including the emotional attachments. This has been the most liberating experience of letting go.
Letting go of personal things that have meaning and emotional ties is not something that comes so easily to the Taurus woman. But I did it.
Today I had my final yard sale. I didn’t sell everything but I was emotionally strong enough to bag and box it up to donate it. Today was really muggy and warm, rarely did the sun peak out and my ex and my roommate came to the yard sale at the end to say hi and deliver something to my friend I was having the yard sale with. It was very awkward for me to be selling things that “WE” had together and she bought. Very weird. But I did ok.
As I was boxing and bagging everything up, every box I picked up had a ton of pincher bugs in them. So weird. But my friend told me that they represent major change and that made so much sense.
I pull cards for myself occasionally and for the past several pulls, they have been talking about completion. My horoscope specifically talked about the end of a cycle on Saturday, meaning today.
This yard sale was my completion, letting go of absolutely everything I could. I then decided I couldn’t handle the heat and everything was picked up, so I was the first of the season to jump into my friends pool. It was freezing yet super refreshing.
Later this evening I was called to pull oracle cards, one in which said Water. It’s meaning, Cleansing yourself of the old for a new beginning. WTF
So awesome. What a day. Surrounded by people I love all day and blessed to have these people in my lives.
Thank you Leslie, Michael, Crystal, and especially my Dad. I look forward to this new chapter, my personal journey.
Love, Light and Healing