About a week ago I was working, I am a server at a restaurant with seating upstairs as well as down. It was a Friday night and in the middle of a dinner rush. I was working upstairs and had to consistently go up and down for food and other things.
I was about to make a trip downstairs with a bus bucket full of dirty plates and glasses. I began my trek down the stairs with both hands full and side stepping so that I may see the stairs. My foot got too close to the edge half way down and as if in slow motion I started to fall. I let go of the bus bucket entirely to assure my safety and fell backwards. My foot slipped off the edge so my entire right side of my body was sliding down the stairs.
It was a real loud crash with all the dishes and glasses breaking at the base of the stairs and a thud thud thud as the side of my body kept sliding on the staircase. I laid there for a few moments in shock and looked at this little girl whose eyes were wide and mouth gaping open. She was scared, I was in pure shock. We stared at each other for what felt like eternity when my coworker asked me if I was ok. I stood up, unsure if my body was ok or not and continued as if nothing was wrong. I didn’t know what else to do.
Later that evening I made it home and checked out my body. I started to feel the pain, no bruising yet but I felt it coming. The next morning I was barely able to move. I iced my entire right side, and rubbed lemongrass all over my bruises and ate pineapples to assist my body with the bruising from the inside out.
The following day I was to return to work, I decided I was not going to make it. I was still in such pain. I was able to get my shift covered and went to Flote. Where, as I have mentioned before, I go and float in 1000lbs of epsom salt for an hour. I was still in pain but I felt that it was going to reveal how helpful that was later in the day.
I went home to be greeted by my best friend and for the first time in a long time, I had reiki done to me. It was so nice to be the recipient. I continued to ice for the remainder of the day and finished off my pineapples.
The next day I was going to go back to work regardless of what I was feeling; and after all the healing modalities I worked with since it happened, paid off. I was able to work pain free, as long as no one brushed up against my right side. I made sure to stay out of the way.
Multiple things about how and why this occurred. The right side of the body is your masculine side and your right side is your feminine side. Being that my entire right side had been laid out and bruised up, led me to believe that I am not in balance. I had been working on my feminine side, as in, feeding my inner goddess but seemed to have neglected the masculine side. Bringing them in balance involves me looking into what is going on, on an emotional level and in some cases subconsciously.
In my case, I learned for myself that I was lacking strength, not physical but emotional. Dominance and personal power, being assertive. For me this reflects all relationships I’ve had with men in the past and I’m not talking just about romantic relationships but ALL. I needed to build my strength and courage and release all past relations with men where I had been put down or taken advantage of.
I shared this information with a few of my close friends and Leslie replied back. “You need to get grounded. and you need to go back, way back, childhood, past lives. release, clear and heal the past….go deep Jen, deep into the past. There is something you are avoiding. You have to see it, heal it, clear it. Then you will be able to move forward. It’s dark…body wrenching tears…”
Who wants to go back and figure that out???? I certainly did not want to do such things. Especially the fact that its body wrenching tears. I told her, I will but today is not the day. lol. I honestly took it in and let it go. I would have liked to have said yes lets do this now and figure this out but I didn’t. I needed to heal my body first.
So I left it at that. My birthday was coming up and my best friend and I were going to PEI to get away and that’s when I was going to do it. Because that trip was going to be all about relaxing and healing for the both of us.