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Art Fort Lauderdale "Artfair on the Water"

I heard about this on the radio, which I hardly listen to, and said I need to go! I heard about it on the way home from work and when I got home immediately looked it up. You take a water taxi on the intracoastal and through some of the canals in Fort Laurderdale, FL and visit million dollar homes with art throughout the entire home. This year it ran from January 23-26th.

Tickets ranged from 115 (with tax) all the way to thousands. The coolest thing about this show was that not only the art was for sale but the homes were too. And all the artists, or most, were right there as well.

As soon as I found out about this I instantly knew it would bring my super amounts of joy and happiness. I LOVE art, in all forms. Art to me is inspiring and self preserving, it tells a story of an individual that is unique to that one being. I love it!

So I bought my ticket for Friday and my boat was departing at 2pm. When I arrived at the dock I seemed to be the first one there, I was so excited I got there an hour early just to be safe. It was amazing to see all these huge yachts that are singly owned that resembled mini cruise ships. There was one, no one could stop talking about, called Aurora. Owned by billionaire Andrey Molchanov from Russia. Quite impressive. His yacht costs over 100 million. https://www.superyachtfan.com/superyacht_aurora.html

As we departed from the dock in our little water taxi, we had a mini tour of the canals and all the rich and famous who lives in the homes along the way. Quite fascinating.

All Excited…

Here is where you can view the homes that we visited… https://www.artftlauderdale.com/2020-homes–pavilions.html

The fist one, The Royal Plaza, was grande! Both in size and architecture. It was the largest house that was show casing. We had 45 minutes in each location and for this particular one, I feel you needed more time. But All the artists were there and I was able to talk to some and learn more about their pieces and themselves. It was funtastic!

The second house we visited was Lucille Drive. The house was smaller but still amazing. I personally felt this was my favorite. The art in this house was up my alley. I was in heaven!

I felt so much love walking through these homes with everyone’s love of art and appreciation. It was magical.

The 3rd and last house on our journey was called Solar Isle Drive. Cute house on the water seemed very open and spacious. The art there was all artists from the Bahamas. Supposedly the first time they all came together under one roof outside the Bahamas.

The art was light and airy and beautiful like the home it was showcased in.

All in all it was an incredible day. I loved every second of it and I had so many feelings flowing through as I meandered around. It was so amazing to get to talk to all the artists, they were just as excited as I was and we fed off of each others energy… It was great.

If you are ever in Florida, near Fort Lauderdale in January, I highly recommend going to this event. One of the best art shows I have ever been too, hands down.

Having a funtastic day!
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Defining Moments…

The most defining moment in my life that I can recall at this time is when I found my voice and stood up for myself. There are only 2 situations that I can recall that were the most profound.

There had been only one time previous that I can recall that I stood up for myself before I had this defining moment. I was working at a restaurant in New York and I was minding my own business. A new guy began working and he was kind of a bully. Every time I was at the computer he would touch the screen and order things and send them while I am trying to place the customers order. This had been going on for just over a week. Finally one day I couldn’t take it anymore. I decided at the end of the shift I was going to confront him. I walked into the back of the house and I saw my friend in the locker rooom area and then turned the corner and saw this guy clocking out.

I approached him with ease and grace and said, hey I just want you to know that I don’t appreciate you fucking with me.

He looks at me half smiling and half like omg, then says I was just joking around.

I told him, I don’t know you from a hole in the wall, you cannot joke with me like that because I don’t know you. Please stop. Are we good?

The look in his eyes, he was scared. He nodded and took off, fast.

I clocked out and my friend in the locker room heard everything and she started clapping and laughing. She looked at me with a huge smile and then we both started laughing. I walked back out to the dining area and the guy and I were walking towards each other and not on purpose. The moment he looked up from the floor and saw me, he took a quick turn and ran outta there.

Over the course of the week I hadn’t seen him anymore. He apparently quit. This seemed to be the first time I remember standing up for myself.

The next most defining moment was when I was breaking up with my ex. I had been manipulated and trapped. There was a point of awakening and I called it quits.

I came home from work at midnight, I knew I would be tired and calm. We went to the backyard and had the discussion. My ex asked if I was ready to work on us. My heart was pounding and my nerves were vibrating. My soul was screaming for me to speak my truth as I stuttered and focused on breathing. Finally it came out…. No, I’m done. I’m tired of trying.

In that moment, I realized my life was about to change dramatically. But my soul sang and my shoulders relaxed. In my head I kept saying, holy shit did I just say that… It was a major step into my authentic self. We had been together for just under 7 years I think.

My soul never felt so alive. I stayed the night and left the next day.

From that moment on, I would discover the Budderflie I am meant to be.

Everyday is a little different but I am 98% authentically myself daily. I say 98% because I am human and sometimes I get sucked into other peoples bullshit. But then I come out and breathe me back in. Trusting in self and believing in self are 2 key components to being authentically you, in my opinion.

I have so much gratitude for all my guides throughout these years. They have all helped me become the person I am meant to be. Thank you for your support in helping me find my voice and believing in me. Lots of love….

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Heal Yourself…

When there is a physical issue with myself, I tend to sit in it and hope it goes away. However, when it doesn’t dissipate after 24 hours I dive into why this is happening to me. There is never any comfort in digging up the past and reliving painful circumstances but if it’s the way to heal, then we must grow through it.

Louise Hay has a book called, Heal Your Body. It is one of the most used books in the metaphysical world. Look up the body part or pain you are having and it will give you what it is affecting and an affirmation to work with. This book I have been meaning to purchase over the years but it wasn’t until I moved to Florida that it was in my face. I finally bought it, just when I needed it the most.

Before I had the book, I would google search “spiritual meaning of…” and it would come up with all kinds of readings and posts from others. I would read more than a few and they would all basically say the same thing. Then I would sit and meditate on it and give myself some reiki love and work on releasing whatever is ailing me.

That is exactly what I did from my last post. Going through all the transitions and being uncomfortable; physically, emotionally, spiritually. I figured out the fears and meditated on them. And to add to the healing and releasing, I go to youtube and find some binaural beats to assist in releasing. Here is an example of what I was listening to when I went to sleep at night.

If your body, mind and spirit are unable to process everything that is involved, like when you meditate on something; you tend to fall asleep and your subconscious does all the heavy lifting. Just as in reiki, when my clients fall asleep during a session, it’s because they will benefit more when they consciousness is resting, it allows the subconscious to work.

This is why I listen to these binaural beats when I sleep at night, I am releasing control and allowing healing to happen through my subconsciousness. And my spirit and soul are super happy.

I wrote this up because I have been so blessed to have learned all of these different techniques over the years and have been realizing that not a lot of people know how to do such things. We all have the power to heal ourselves but it takes trusting in yourself and the willingness to do the work. And it is work. But if you want to lead a fabulous healthy long exciting life then maybe you’ll consider. It’s not an overnight thing, like we all wish it would be but it’s so worth it!

Love Yourself, Love Life, Love Everything….

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Transition

I have been here in Florida for just about a month now. The first week was busy trying to prepare my new room and get comfy. Going out and buying things I didn’t know I needed till I got here. Exhausted from travel and wiped out from moving everything around my room 15 hundred times, I felt cozy enough to say I am done with my room.

The following week I went out to find a job and got one by the end of the week. I was ready to start working. I had spent most of my travel money and was ready to start bringing in some fresh new money. I started training the following week and had to work mornings. Mind you I was working at another restaurant at 11am, here I am working at 10:15am. An hour is a difference. So now I need to figure out timing without stress in the morning.

When I official started working it was right before Thanksgiving, I have yet to find a routine or any sort of consistency in my day to day life. Due to moving to a place I’ve never even seen or been to, moving in with my sister and her boyfriend, starting a new job, not knowing anyone besides my sister, my body started to react.

I have been bloated since after thanksgiving, I have been breaking out in hives on my face and my sleep has been greatly affected. All that boils down to is fear and resistance.

I have been through these emotions numerous times and I subconsciously know what to do. However in a state of panic from not sleeping well, thinking clearly has been quite challenging.

Since this new moon and the beginning of December, I have been able to slow down and sit with self. Before bed, I practiced deep breathing exercises and listened to binaural beats on youtube for releasing. That has helped with my sleep along with sleeping with my carnelian crystal sphere, which promotes de-bloating in your sacral chakra.

During the day I have been meditating on releasing old ideas and surrendering. I need to flow down stream and stop resisting. I have been resisting the change and transition and the only reason I can think of is fear. Am I going to make it down here? Am I going to make enough money? Can I afford to live in this type of area? There are so many things to do and place to go…

I am blocking myself and it’s uncomfortable, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I have been talking to self about why this is so different than everywhere else, when I realized it’s because I say I am only here till march 1st. Then I’m off on the trip of a lifetime. So now I have given myself, subconsciously a deadline to which, what if I fail….

No matter what life throws at us, as long as you try, there is no failing. You only die once and you live everyday…right?! So one foot in front of the other and let it all go….

Release and relax, these are all lessons that I need to grow through at this time. Quite honestly, all week I have been sleeping through the night. Sometimes I can figure out what is going on with me right away and heal it and then there are times when I am challenged with what is really going on.

This is all part of transitioning into a new book of my life and I am totally grateful for these uncomfortable moments; because I can learn from them and be done with them. It is just making me a stronger, more intuitive and a braver being.

Taking my power back, releasing resistance. Allowing the transition...
Feeling Confident and stepping back into my power
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Namastgo

Colby n Me

After leaving, yet again, another place I’ve called home for the past year, I had to say so long. I left my some friends that I will surely miss. Not to mention my mum’s pup. This was the last time I will ever see him again, in waking life.

Mr. Colby, is getting ready to leave this world and move on to another life. It’s sad to watch someone you love wither away. Knowing that he isn’t in pain, is a blessing. I pray that he just falls asleep peacefully.

My friend, Miss Margret and I had a connection. She is an 82 year old German lady, who loves going to yoga, loves her garden and has a wonderful group of friends whom she has dinner with 3x’s a week. Everyday I would go to her house before work and we would have a nice visit. We would sit outside and talk about what’s bothering us, what’s making us happy; sharing stories of the past and present. It’s been a wonderful venture. And now I told her I would send her selfies everyday before work and call her. We gave hugs and put our hands in prayer and we bow, she says “Namaste”, I say “Namastgo”. We both laugh and hug and I was off.

I really don’t believe in saying goodbye, because that just feels so final. And sometimes it is.

I am so grateful for the people that have come in and out of my life. There is always a reason and a lesson that comes with everyone encounter. I am blessed to understand this and I am capable of seeing both with each encounter. Although it’s often later than sooner, but that’s because there’s a lesson.

I wish everyone I have encountered, via any form of communication, the best and know that I have much gratitude for you.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie