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Transition

I have been here in Florida for just about a month now. The first week was busy trying to prepare my new room and get comfy. Going out and buying things I didn’t know I needed till I got here. Exhausted from travel and wiped out from moving everything around my room 15 hundred times, I felt cozy enough to say I am done with my room.

The following week I went out to find a job and got one by the end of the week. I was ready to start working. I had spent most of my travel money and was ready to start bringing in some fresh new money. I started training the following week and had to work mornings. Mind you I was working at another restaurant at 11am, here I am working at 10:15am. An hour is a difference. So now I need to figure out timing without stress in the morning.

When I official started working it was right before Thanksgiving, I have yet to find a routine or any sort of consistency in my day to day life. Due to moving to a place I’ve never even seen or been to, moving in with my sister and her boyfriend, starting a new job, not knowing anyone besides my sister, my body started to react.

I have been bloated since after thanksgiving, I have been breaking out in hives on my face and my sleep has been greatly affected. All that boils down to is fear and resistance.

I have been through these emotions numerous times and I subconsciously know what to do. However in a state of panic from not sleeping well, thinking clearly has been quite challenging.

Since this new moon and the beginning of December, I have been able to slow down and sit with self. Before bed, I practiced deep breathing exercises and listened to binaural beats on youtube for releasing. That has helped with my sleep along with sleeping with my carnelian crystal sphere, which promotes de-bloating in your sacral chakra.

During the day I have been meditating on releasing old ideas and surrendering. I need to flow down stream and stop resisting. I have been resisting the change and transition and the only reason I can think of is fear. Am I going to make it down here? Am I going to make enough money? Can I afford to live in this type of area? There are so many things to do and place to go…

I am blocking myself and it’s uncomfortable, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I have been talking to self about why this is so different than everywhere else, when I realized it’s because I say I am only here till march 1st. Then I’m off on the trip of a lifetime. So now I have given myself, subconsciously a deadline to which, what if I fail….

No matter what life throws at us, as long as you try, there is no failing. You only die once and you live everyday…right?! So one foot in front of the other and let it all go….

Release and relax, these are all lessons that I need to grow through at this time. Quite honestly, all week I have been sleeping through the night. Sometimes I can figure out what is going on with me right away and heal it and then there are times when I am challenged with what is really going on.

This is all part of transitioning into a new book of my life and I am totally grateful for these uncomfortable moments; because I can learn from them and be done with them. It is just making me a stronger, more intuitive and a braver being.

Taking my power back, releasing resistance. Allowing the transition...
Feeling Confident and stepping back into my power
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Namastgo

Colby n Me

After leaving, yet again, another place I’ve called home for the past year, I had to say so long. I left my some friends that I will surely miss. Not to mention my mum’s pup. This was the last time I will ever see him again, in waking life.

Mr. Colby, is getting ready to leave this world and move on to another life. It’s sad to watch someone you love wither away. Knowing that he isn’t in pain, is a blessing. I pray that he just falls asleep peacefully.

My friend, Miss Margret and I had a connection. She is an 82 year old German lady, who loves going to yoga, loves her garden and has a wonderful group of friends whom she has dinner with 3x’s a week. Everyday I would go to her house before work and we would have a nice visit. We would sit outside and talk about what’s bothering us, what’s making us happy; sharing stories of the past and present. It’s been a wonderful venture. And now I told her I would send her selfies everyday before work and call her. We gave hugs and put our hands in prayer and we bow, she says “Namaste”, I say “Namastgo”. We both laugh and hug and I was off.

I really don’t believe in saying goodbye, because that just feels so final. And sometimes it is.

I am so grateful for the people that have come in and out of my life. There is always a reason and a lesson that comes with everyone encounter. I am blessed to understand this and I am capable of seeing both with each encounter. Although it’s often later than sooner, but that’s because there’s a lesson.

I wish everyone I have encountered, via any form of communication, the best and know that I have much gratitude for you.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Sound Bath

Today my mom and I had an appointment at the Singing Bowl. I personally have not had the opportunity to be bathed in sound for an hour with crystal bowls. I have my own and use them but this time I got to lay back and be immersed in sound. It was heavenly.

Mom and Me

I am into all kinds of different healing modalities. I am open to most things, let me put this way; I have not come across something that I wasn’t willing to try. My mom isn’t versed in the metaphysical world. I try explaining some things and she shrugs, because she doesn’t understand what I am talking about.

She is working on opening her mind and spirit, little by little. She has been resistant to many things I offer to share with her. She saw her friend had runes and wanted a set of her own. I just happen to buy some on a trip and never really used them, so I gifted them to her for Christmas last year. She uses them occasionally. I’ve offered Reiki for her and she says she isn’t ready. I give Reiki to her pup all the time.

so now of course, I am leaving, she is wanting to experience things differently and with me. She found this lady and was so excited about it she scheduled the appointment for the sound bath.

We drove an hour and a half to Cornish Maine, a small quaint town. We go inside and it smells heavenly. She welcomes us in and offers us a rose and holy basil water that was simply divine. My mom lays on the massage table and I take a spot on the floor. She begins with the drum and a prayer. Then we move into our personal journey as she plays all the bowls.

Each bowl is a different note. Typically for a sound bath, people have bowls that coincide with each chakra. Each chakra has a different note.

First Chakra, Root, the color is red and the vibration it gives is Note C

Second Chakra, Sacral, Orange, Note D

Third Chakra, Solar Plexus, Yellow, Note E

Fourth Chakra, Heart, Green, Note F

Fifth Chakra, Throat, Blue, Note G

Sixth Chakra, Third Eye, Indigo, Note A

Seventh Chakra, Crown, Violet, Note B

Everything is vibration and when the bowls are ringing, you can feel it’s vibration. As I sit here writing this my body is still physically vibrating. Not as much as I was directly after but I can still feel it. They say that you will feel the effects well up to 72 hours.

We laid there for an hour of high vibrations as she played each one and then simultaneously. It was awesome. She brought us back from our restful space with the drum at the end and a closing prayer. The minute she struck the drum, my body physically vibrated; because it was a different sound than than the crystal bowls. It was a much deeper vibration. In that moment I was wondering if I was in a body of water when she struck her drum in that moment, what would my vibration look like in the water.

My mom said she saw a white outline of light leave her body. Which is impressive, the fact that she was open enough to allow such things to release from her is so awesome. I am really proud of her. She is opening up. The lady pulled 1 tarot card for the each of us before we arrived. I didn’t look at the actual card till after. Mine said “Walking Away” the number on the card was 27. My mind was blown.

I am moving on the 27th, which was not planned due to the numbers or the moon. It just so happens that it will be the new moon that day and the number 2, 7 and 9 are my numbers in numerology. 2+7=9 and I have a double 1 (11) and 7 tattooed on my wrists.

On our way there I had just purchased Louise Hay’s “You can Heal your Life”. So we were listening to it on the way there. I figured what a great way for her to hear someone so well known in the metaphysical world in my car on the way to have a sound bath.

We were very hungry afterwards and had a nice late lunch early dinner. We were hungry before the session but starving after. I find that after I do any kind of healing work, I am usually VERY hungry after.

Our drive home consisted of pure joy, in my opinion. I had a great day with my mom and enjoyed the healing that today was. So much gratitude.

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Out with the Old and In with the New…

As I sit back and let nature takes its course, I find myself living in gratitude. September came and went with whirlwinds of “what am I’m going to do?”, to an amazing new opportunity. It’s mid October and I am now moving to Florida for the next 4 months to check it out and make extra money for my upcoming trip.  My sister called and offered me a chance to check out Florida. Not only will that be awesome but I can continue to build a stronger bond with her. We are 12 years apart. So we didn’t really grow up with each other and never really saw each other that often throughout the years. Although living with her full time isn’t the ideal situation, it’s temporary. Which makes us both feel excited. The full moon october 13th was super ideal for me to release everything that no longer serves my greatest and highest good. I had a theta healing session in which we cleared out so much that was weighing me down. It was awesome. I wasn’t planning this but my date to leave is october 27th which also happens to be the new moon. New moons are all about new beginnings and putting out intentions and goals. I am super stoked! I will be driving to Florida from maine and taking my time. Visiting with my chickadee (granma) for several days, then to my aunt and uncles in South Carolina, whom I haven’t seen in over 2 decades. Then off to Jacksonville where I will see a good friend of mine whom I also haven’t seen in 2 decades. Then to my godfathers in central Florida. Then to my new home. I am really excited for this adventure. Who knows where it’ll take me and I’m grateful for not knowing. A new beginning to a brand new book. All old books are finished, closed and packed away.

My home in Maine. The view I am leaving behind for the winter. Looking forward to seeing what my new view will look like!
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Moat Mountian

After Labor Day, working so hard, I needed to get away. Labor day in York Beach is a big weekend for restaurant servers. It’s loud, crazy busy and riddled with people from out of town. It was a rough weekend for us. I needed a getaway.

I found that hiking by myself was the key to freedom of self. So I booked a hotel and off I went to North Conway. I left right after my lunch shift and drove up. Beautiful drive. I haven’t been there since I was a kid. I did a little research before before going there specifically. I found a spot where I could mine for crystals. I was sold and very excited to go play in the mountains and dirt.

North Conway, straight ahead

I stayed at a hotel with a hot tub, because when travelling there is nothing like relaxing in a hot tub. I went out to eat and went back to the hotel where I just kicked back and relaxed. The next morning I ate breakfast and saw that it was raining lightly. That wasn’t going to stop me from my journey. I packed up my car and headed to the mountain.

I was driving down a very long dirt road and enjoyed being surrounded by all the trees. When I arrive, I was the only person there. So grateful.

I packed up my gear and headed in. It was quiet with the exception of the sound of my footsteps crackling over the forest floor. I kept a look out for anything out of the ordinary. It was about a mile or so in when I came upon the mining site.

You could see where people were mining. So I sat there on the ground for a bit and meditated. Then I asked my guides where I would find smokey quartz. I heard under the tree. Well I am surrounded by trees, so I stood up and felt the energy. I found a tree and carefully dug around the base. I did find a nice little piece of smokey quartz. I gently placed the dirt back around the base and thanked the tree for allowing me to do that.

Smokey Quartz

I continued to move around the site and look for more beautiful minerals. I have no idea how long I was out there for but I sat down again and meditated before leaving and The way it was, the rain subsided and the sun came through the trees and landed directly on me. It was magical.

I packed up my gear and thanked the land once again and headed back to my car.

When I made it back to my car, I wanted to change my clothes before driving back 2 hours to get home. As I was covered in dirt. I begin to change and then I hear something. I quickly finish changing and I see a mini van coming down the road. It was a family with 3 kids.

I was so beyond grateful that my journey through the woods was solo with no one around. Universe knew that I needed that time alone. And now it was time for others to enjoy.

Overall, it was a very relaxing and fun getaway. I truly needed that. Quiet time away from people. I was at peace and ready to go back to work lighter, emotionally and spiritually.