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Full Moon After Affects

This past full moon took everyone for a ride, at least everyone I know. It was a full moon in Pisces and it brought much turmoil for many.

Over the course of my time herre in Bali I have had only 2 instances where my back went out on me. The first one was because I was in fear of other people opinions. This time which happened during the full moon energy, I was worried about my mom and my financial situation.

I had a guy come to my villa who is a physiotherapist. He was here for a total of 2 hours. My friend recommened this guy and I was willing to do anything because the guy I went to last time was not available as it was on a sunday. She forwarned me about how painful it will be. She was not exaggerating. She told me that she cried and bends you in all kinds of ways.

I have done many things since I’ve been here that were not comfortable at all, so I decided I can handle it. I laid across my bed and he began. Not a massage, it was more like a fascia blasting massage. OMG! I stuck my face in the pillow and screamed, sweat and cried. This went on for 2 hours! There were a few times that I just begged him to stop in tears. In the end it was exactly what I needed to release.

No better time to release old stuff than during the full moon. During which time I was super emotional and felt very insecure. At some point I wrote down all the things I was ready to release and sent it off to the Universe.

After the full moon energies cleared up, I felt a significant change within. I began to see more, I found myself to be more claircognizant, clairaudiant, and clairsentience. My awareness has heightened drastically since the full moon. I am so grateful to have had this experience, even though it was as painful as it was; physically, mentally, spiritually.

I have released so much that it has enabled more to come forward into my life. Even my daily life has changed from running around and meeting up with everyone all the time to me just focusing on what I am here to do. I stopped listening to others’ and what they think I need to do. We all get caught up in that occasionally and I felt like I was in that for at least a month. Which brought me to the full moon. I, again, turn around and do me. I have been having dreams and visions and seeing all the signs that I am on my path. So I continue to move forward.

I have been painting as of late and it’s been quite interesting to see what shows up within my paintings. All the emotions that I was growing through in each painting.

My goal now is to continue to paint waves and watch the progression of my waves and the mood behind each one.

All part of the process, love and light to all.

~ Budderflie

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Bali Day 58

Amed

I am so beyond grateful to have been able to take the ride to the East Coast. It takes approximately 2.5 hours to ride there via motorbike. I went with my friend Jason, whom I met in Ubud when I first got here. I left my home in Semyniak and we met in Canggu.

We left somewhere around 10.30-11. It was a hot morning. My first ride following for a long ride. I was excited to take it all. My friend likes to fly, I am so used to cruising; I did my best to keep up, because I most definitely didn’t want to lose him.

We rode through Denpasar and the last time I rode through there I was on a gojek and so glad I wasn’t driving. So today I went, surprisingly I was quite relaxed cruising through the heavy traffic of the city. It seemed like forever we were in city limits, but when we finally made it out I could breathe better.

We took the coastal route as it is less traffic and trucks. But there were still many and had to be careful of their presence. When we were finally able to see the coast the roads got smaller and moved to one lane of traffic. Some spots were open road and then there were congested areas. I have learned to pass vehicles when this happens, otherwise it will take you triple the time to get to where you are going. We stopped half way in a place called Candidasa. Beautiful place, we stopped at a little warung and had lunch. I had chicken satay with rice, the peanut sauce was sooo good! We sat there for probably about an hour, resting our rumps. That was a long hard ride. I had to figure out how to sit on the bike so that my butt didn’t hurt.

We headed out and continued our travels. We rode through small villages, mountains and rice fields on one side and ocean on the other. Breathtaking. I had to contain myself from looking in every which direction because I was still driving.

We pulled over at a temple and Jason pulled out his drone. He got some incredible footage of the temple. Where as all I could get was shots between trees. The Temple was closed, like everything else but you can still feel the presence of amazement. We were standing on the side of the road for probably 20 mins. Our feet were on fire from being in the sun. So we left.

We started riding through the mountains. Wow… I wish I had a go pro for riding because it was so beautiful. The whole ride. We rode through some very small villages, seeing dogs, chickens, cows, pigs, cats, and monkeys. Granted you see those animals almost everywhere but this was the first time I saw little piggies. It was fun to see the monkeys while riding on the bikes. Last time I saw monkeys I was in the monkey forest and in a car driving through the mountains up north.

We stopped at a little spot my friend knew about, a small temple that overlooks a little island. As we pulled into the area, there were people dressed for ceremony. I felt like we were intruding so we kind of stayed back and found another spot to gaze out. It was cool to watch everyone prepare. They were so kind and all smiles. I am absolutely in love with this place and the people and culture.

We didn’t want to disturb them so we left and continued our adventure… We rode through more windy roads and small villages and then we came across this…

Breathtaking
View from a bridge

We stopped at a few different places to see if any hotel/ bungalows/ homestays were open. The first several were closed. But this is the view from one of them..

We eventually came to one that was open, we just so happen to be the only guests. We had a nice little room and the place was on the beach. At this time the beaches were closed so we had to be aware of the times we went on the beach.

Right where I’m supposed to be…

If you are a fisherman you are allowed. The authorities would come around and check in with places and make sure everything is in order.

We were lucky enough that the authorities already came by so we were able to go for a walk on the beach and watch sunset. So we took a walk and we went around the bend and there was Mount Agung…So beautiful..

So magnificent. We found a spot and hung out.

We walked back and the host made us fresh mahi mahi. OMG so good! We hung out for the rest of the evening star gazing. During this time I had come to the realization that what I truly want out of life is a simple life.

Through many conversations and observations I see the Balinese live in the moment. They are grounded and dedicated. Many only have what they need and don’t need more. After being here for as long as I have, living out of my bags, I don’t need much. All I really need is what I have with me. Of course I’ve picked up some things along the way, I have everything I need.

The next big question is what does that look like? What will fill my time? What is it that I want to do with this life? These are the next questions I have been asking myself.

Full Circle
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Visions to Fruition

Here’s a funny story about universe being literal. The beginning of this year I had made a vision board, the biggest one I’ve made since highschool. I had framed it and was hanging in front of my bed on the wall so I would see it when I wake up and when I go to bed.

Vision Board January 2020

I am a firm believer in the I AM affirmations. So I put $$$100 billion dollars on there with the affirmation that I am a billionaire. And if you can see there’s a line on my vision board that says ” It’s living the dream sooner rather than later”. And well you can see the board…

I have been manifesting living in another country by the end of this year and being a billionaire. And here I am, living in another country and technically I am a billionaire; at least here in Bali I am. 1 billion Rupiahs is equal to $64 USD. So here it is I am officially a billionaire. lol.

Basically everything on that board has come to fruition, although I am still waiting on my Black Card; but being a billionaire, I don’t really need it at this moment. Some things are coming and I can feel it. After all who really knows when I will be able to go home. I am not complaining.

Regardless of the global circumstances I am still able to discover new things, go on mini adventures and learn more about the culture. I am blessed. Everyday is new and everyday I have a choice. Stepping out of comfort zones and away from fear, trying new things. Seeing things in a different perspective. Doing things I wouldn’t normally do.

It seems weird now, but in the states I found it more challenging to do everything that I listed above. I feel more free and relaxed about it. Probably because I don’t know anyone; well now I do but they make me feel comfortable.

I just wanted to share the power of manifesting and vision boards…So cool. I have made visions boards most of my life and I have seen them all come to fruition but for some reason this time it’s different. A better different, awesome different, amazing!

Love, Light and Healing
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Bali Day 19

Today I got up and jumped in the refreshing pool. Made some breakfast with what we had left and decided to go check out the beach and go grocery shopping.

We rode the motor bikes to the beach and it was hot. We parked and meandered down what would be like a “boardwalk” if you will. It was cool, mostly everything was closed but a few warungs and restaurants. Aric had come down here the day before on his walk and found this place that serves smoothie bowls.

We finished up there and continued for about another 10 mins or so. All the resorts and hotels had beach front properties and the pools were huge and empty. Everywhere was empty. A handful of people were lounging on the beach chairs under the shade but only in one little section.

The local shops that were open had women outside trying to get anyone to go and buy anything. I have been analyzing what I have and I am kind of getting bored with the same clothes, but I don’t need anything yet. If I am here longer than we will see, for now, I stick with what I have.

The beach there was interesting, as the waves brake what seemed like a mile out. So the shore was more like lake water. Not something I would jump into because of my phobia of lakes. Lol. It was weird to see the waves break so far away, all the boats were parked close to shore so when the tide is out, the boats are stuck till the tide comes back.

We eventually made it to the grocery store and Aric had invited Eka and Ayu over for dinner this evening. So we made sure we had enough rice and what not to make fried rice with egg and pork belly.

Fried rice with pork belly, bacon, egg, onion, corn, green peppers

We got back chilled out for a while and kicked it poolside. We bought extra beers and I still had a bottle of wine. Eka and Ayu came by as the sun went down and brought a guitar. I think Ayu left around 9 to go pick up her roommate from work and brought her back over. When they arrived they picked up the guitar and sang, it was awesome. They were so good.

We planned our next adventure, which was to go to Mount Batur for sunrise. which meant we needed to leave at 130am. We planned to do that not tomorrow but the next day, because we would have to go to bed by 5pm or 6pm; well, so I could wake up at midnight.

We played in the pool, played the guitar, and drank until it was time to go. They all left at midnight and we went to bed.

Love, Light and Healing
xoxo
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Bali Day 12

I was feeling so much better. I didn’t have as many cramps but I was bloated. I took some Acidil and left it alone. I was still kinda nervous about leaving. I ate some toast and avocado and more fruit.

I hung out mostly in the pool and in the common area. It was around 1pm when I started to get real hungry and again I wasn’t ready to leave yet so I tried to order off of gojek food, basically like uber eats. I was able to order food from the first night I was here, Nonii’s. I was happy about that. I may have waited up to an hour or so which I was fine because it didn’t require me to leave.

As it arrives I get so excited and open it up straight away. Delicious chicken satay and a salad. I don’t know why but I feel like the salads here are so much better then the US. I rarely eat salads in the US but on occasion I will. I found myself eating more salads here for sure. Maybe it has to do with the temperature and no pesticides.

As I enjoy my delicious meal, a new face pops in. His name is Arik and he is from Hawaii. He is also on his first big solo trip, so we immediately hit it off. We made plans for dinner and went our separate ways. I continued with the pool and the common area all day.

7pm came around we decided to walk to a café that Phillip had told us about. It was quite the walk but it’s so much better to walk with someone at night. Up until this point the only place I’ve walked around at night was in Ubud, at the Gio Vanda house. I felt comfortable walking around by myself there. Not so much anywhere else I’ve landed thus far, at night. I did go to Kuta for dinner but I had a gojek drop me off where I was meeting my friend. Then we walked together back to the main road.

The café we were going to closed about 10 mins prior so we kept walking. The street was so dark, thanks mom…for my flashlight (that thing has come in handy everywhere I’ve stayed so far. I am really appreciative for it). We were able to see the dogs lying on the street so we could avoid them just in case. Then we had to walk through a dirt road so we were able to see all the puddles. We finally make it back to the main street and find an Italian restaurant that was open. It was the first spot. We decided to do it. We sat down outside and relaxed.

My stomach had been doing great all day, I was stoked. I ordered a salad because it sounded so good again, after all it had been so hot all day it seemed so refreshing especially paired with watermelon juice. He ordered a pasta dish that he said was really good.

This was taken on our way back from dinner. Neverland, club that was closed due to covid-19. So many awesome graffiti artists around Bali. This just happened to be all in the same place.

We got up to leave and not even a minute after we began our walk back it started pouring. Not really sure how far away we were but we passed the grocery store that I had gone to the other day. Crossing the streets were challenging on the main roads. It was like frogger trying to cross, but we made it unscathed. By the time we got back everything I was wearing was soaked. We stayed up for about 30 mins and went our separate ways once again; and to bed I went.