Today is the day to catch up on my blogs. When I take a trillion pictures it takes awhile to go through them and add all the media to the blog. As you can tell I have been trying to be as thorough as I can with my daily activities. And there are some days I do nothing and have zero pictures.
This morning I woke up and was sleepy. I got out of bed and read my horoscopes for the day. I meditated for 10 mins to set the tone for the day. Then I did some planks and jumped in the pool to wake up so more. I watched one of the 3 cats play with a bug in the garden.
I made myself some eggs and toast; and for the record I only made 3 eggs and made a sandwich. It was so delicious but then I had to clean up immediately otherwise all the little baby ants would invade my space. Not cool. They are everywhere. When I made watermelon juice, I cleaned everything, or so I thought. I came back to wash my glass and there were ants everywhere…I would’ve taken a picture but I was pre-occupied freaking out!
I pulled out the little table from my room and placed it in front of the bench outside; So I could still enjoy the outdoors, aka pool and sun. I literally kept going back and forth with my laptop and pool all day. It was nice, until it started raining.
By the time evening came around I decided to go for a walk to see if anyone was open for food, I walked down the street, not too far away and found a little joint that only did take away. I ordered chicken satay and friend noodles with cap chay and took it home.
I sat outside, because I didn’t want any ants following me into my room. I was going to go out but decided I was tired and stayed in. I went in the room, laid down and watched Ozark’s. Went to bed after 2 episodes.
The most defining moment in my life that I can recall at this time is when I found my voice and stood up for myself. There are only 2 situations that I can recall that were the most profound.
There had been only one time previous that I can recall that I stood up for myself before I had this defining moment. I was working at a restaurant in New York and I was minding my own business. A new guy began working and he was kind of a bully. Every time I was at the computer he would touch the screen and order things and send them while I am trying to place the customers order. This had been going on for just over a week. Finally one day I couldn’t take it anymore. I decided at the end of the shift I was going to confront him. I walked into the back of the house and I saw my friend in the locker rooom area and then turned the corner and saw this guy clocking out.
I approached him with ease and grace and said, hey I just want you to know that I don’t appreciate you fucking with me.
He looks at me half smiling and half like omg, then says I was just joking around.
I told him, I don’t know you from a hole in the wall, you cannot joke with me like that because I don’t know you. Please stop. Are we good?
The look in his eyes, he was scared. He nodded and took off, fast.
I clocked out and my friend in the locker room heard everything and she started clapping and laughing. She looked at me with a huge smile and then we both started laughing. I walked back out to the dining area and the guy and I were walking towards each other and not on purpose. The moment he looked up from the floor and saw me, he took a quick turn and ran outta there.
Over the course of the week I hadn’t seen him anymore. He apparently quit. This seemed to be the first time I remember standing up for myself.
The next most defining moment was when I was breaking up with my ex. I had been manipulated and trapped. There was a point of awakening and I called it quits.
I came home from work at midnight, I knew I would be tired and calm. We went to the backyard and had the discussion. My ex asked if I was ready to work on us. My heart was pounding and my nerves were vibrating. My soul was screaming for me to speak my truth as I stuttered and focused on breathing. Finally it came out…. No, I’m done. I’m tired of trying.
In that moment, I realized my life was about to change dramatically. But my soul sang and my shoulders relaxed. In my head I kept saying, holy shit did I just say that… It was a major step into my authentic self. We had been together for just under 7 years I think.
My soul never felt so alive. I stayed the night and left the next day.
From that moment on, I would discover the Budderflie I am meant to be.
Everyday is a little different but I am 98% authentically myself daily. I say 98% because I am human and sometimes I get sucked into other peoples bullshit. But then I come out and breathe me back in. Trusting in self and believing in self are 2 key components to being authentically you, in my opinion.
I have so much gratitude for all my guides throughout these years. They have all helped me become the person I am meant to be. Thank you for your support in helping me find my voice and believing in me. Lots of love….
Today my mom and I had an appointment at the Singing Bowl. I personally have not had the opportunity to be bathed in sound for an hour with crystal bowls. I have my own and use them but this time I got to lay back and be immersed in sound. It was heavenly.
I am into all kinds of different healing modalities. I am open to most things, let me put this way; I have not come across something that I wasn’t willing to try. My mom isn’t versed in the metaphysical world. I try explaining some things and she shrugs, because she doesn’t understand what I am talking about.
She is working on opening her mind and spirit, little by little. She has been resistant to many things I offer to share with her. She saw her friend had runes and wanted a set of her own. I just happen to buy some on a trip and never really used them, so I gifted them to her for Christmas last year. She uses them occasionally. I’ve offered Reiki for her and she says she isn’t ready. I give Reiki to her pup all the time.
so now of course, I am leaving, she is wanting to experience things differently and with me. She found this lady and was so excited about it she scheduled the appointment for the sound bath.
We drove an hour and a half to Cornish Maine, a small quaint town. We go inside and it smells heavenly. She welcomes us in and offers us a rose and holy basil water that was simply divine. My mom lays on the massage table and I take a spot on the floor. She begins with the drum and a prayer. Then we move into our personal journey as she plays all the bowls.
Each bowl is a different note. Typically for a sound bath, people have bowls that coincide with each chakra. Each chakra has a different note.
First Chakra, Root, the color is red and the vibration it gives is Note C
Second Chakra, Sacral, Orange, Note D
Third Chakra, Solar Plexus, Yellow, Note E
Fourth Chakra, Heart, Green, Note F
Fifth Chakra, Throat, Blue, Note G
Sixth Chakra, Third Eye, Indigo, Note A
Seventh Chakra, Crown, Violet, Note B
Everything is vibration and when the bowls are ringing, you can feel it’s vibration. As I sit here writing this my body is still physically vibrating. Not as much as I was directly after but I can still feel it. They say that you will feel the effects well up to 72 hours.
We laid there for an hour of high vibrations as she played each one and then simultaneously. It was awesome. She brought us back from our restful space with the drum at the end and a closing prayer. The minute she struck the drum, my body physically vibrated; because it was a different sound than than the crystal bowls. It was a much deeper vibration. In that moment I was wondering if I was in a body of water when she struck her drum in that moment, what would my vibration look like in the water.
My mom said she saw a white outline of light leave her body. Which is impressive, the fact that she was open enough to allow such things to release from her is so awesome. I am really proud of her. She is opening up. The lady pulled 1 tarot card for the each of us before we arrived. I didn’t look at the actual card till after. Mine said “Walking Away” the number on the card was 27. My mind was blown.
I am moving on the 27th, which was not planned due to the numbers or the moon. It just so happens that it will be the new moon that day and the number 2, 7 and 9 are my numbers in numerology. 2+7=9 and I have a double 1 (11) and 7 tattooed on my wrists.
On our way there I had just purchased Louise Hay’s “You can Heal your Life”. So we were listening to it on the way there. I figured what a great way for her to hear someone so well known in the metaphysical world in my car on the way to have a sound bath.
We were very hungry afterwards and had a nice late lunch early dinner. We were hungry before the session but starving after. I find that after I do any kind of healing work, I am usually VERY hungry after.
Our drive home consisted of pure joy, in my opinion. I had a great day with my mom and enjoyed the healing that today was. So much gratitude.
Sometime last week I had a facial, my friend mentioned it and we were gonna go together. Didn’t work out. So I scheduled one on my own. I went for an express facial, mind you I haven’t had a facial in over 5 years. I didn’t remember much of what they did but it felt good.
I have been tanning because I am in New England and there is no warmth from the sun and I just moved here from California. So tanning makes me feel really good. But after tanning a few days and several years of old skin, I was due for a facial. I could feel it.
I went to GLOW, here in York Maine. Amazing place. Everyone who works there is amazing and super friendly and kind. I went in and met Darcy. She gave me an express facial for 30 minutes which I feel was more like 45 mins. So as she is doing her thing I ask her a bunch of questions. https://glowbodywork.com/
I went back after the 4 days the lady said the enzyme mask would be there and it still wasn’t there. I had gone to TJ Maxx and Marshals to search for something similar and didn’t find anything, but I still bought a mask anyways. So several days later I go back to the natural food store and there still didn’t have the enzyme mask, so I bought the pumpkin cream. I figured I had a mask so might as well. I picked it up and took it to the counter. The dude rang it up and said aloud, $29.89. I made one of those you have got to be kidding me faces and said “whoa!” I never looked at the price. I looked down and said, “my face LOVES it, I must honor my face!”.
So I bought it happy joyous and free. My face is super happy and every time I put it on my face thanks me. Self Care…That’s what that’s about. Real Talk.
Moral of the story is, whenever my body wants or needs something, I will listen and take good care of her. Because we only have one body in this lifetime to have. And I am only getting younger!!!
Today is now the 21st day of the month. My last post, I had slipped and fell on the ice. The next day I woke up with a severe case of whiplash. So very painful. I couldn’t go to work and I couldn’t eat. I some how managed to get to the chiropractor and a 30 min massage.
Both allowing the healing process to begin. I relaxed in bed for the next couple of days listening to binaural beats and using my crystal bowl for sound healing on myself. I attempted to take 2 epsom salt baths only to find that there is a leak in the downstairs kitchen from the bath itself, oh boy.
After sitting in pain and meditating and healing for several days, I looked up a floating tanks. Now I can’t take baths at home and my neck needs to be free and released. I found a semi local place, Flote. In North Hampton, NH.
I make an appointment and didn’t realize I would be driving there in a blizzard, which made my neck and shoulders more tense. I make it there in one pc and head on in for my first floating experience.
They offer you a donut shaped foam ring to rest your head on or you can go without. I went for the first half with it under my head and decided to take it out. My head just need to be free. It felt so much better without.
What is flotation?
Floating (or floatation therapy) is a practice that involves a small room or pod filled with a foot of water and over a thousand pounds of epsom salt. The high salt content allows you to be completely buoyant as you lay in the water, and creates an experience of deep relaxation. The environment is quiet and dark, and sensory input is minimized, allowing one to experience a profound level of relaxation. It is a unique practice that provides a long list of mental, physical and spiritual benefits that compound over time with regular sessions.
I highly recommend it to anyone and everyone. I went from feeling like 65% to 85-90% after my session. It is an hour long at Seacoast Flote, not sure how others are working theres. I was able to work the next evening, although not to my full capacity, nonetheless, I did not need to call out, again.
I went one more time after and feel 95%. I have 2 more sessions I will be going to. If you are curious about it, check out this website…Although this is for my area, it will give you an idea. It’s worth trying, especially if you’ve exhausted all other options.