This past full moon took everyone for a ride, at least everyone I know. It was a full moon in Pisces and it brought much turmoil for many.
Over the course of my time herre in Bali I have had only 2 instances where my back went out on me. The first one was because I was in fear of other people opinions. This time which happened during the full moon energy, I was worried about my mom and my financial situation.
I had a guy come to my villa who is a physiotherapist. He was here for a total of 2 hours. My friend recommened this guy and I was willing to do anything because the guy I went to last time was not available as it was on a sunday. She forwarned me about how painful it will be. She was not exaggerating. She told me that she cried and bends you in all kinds of ways.
I have done many things since I’ve been here that were not comfortable at all, so I decided I can handle it. I laid across my bed and he began. Not a massage, it was more like a fascia blasting massage. OMG! I stuck my face in the pillow and screamed, sweat and cried. This went on for 2 hours! There were a few times that I just begged him to stop in tears. In the end it was exactly what I needed to release.
No better time to release old stuff than during the full moon. During which time I was super emotional and felt very insecure. At some point I wrote down all the things I was ready to release and sent it off to the Universe.
After the full moon energies cleared up, I felt a significant change within. I began to see more, I found myself to be more claircognizant, clairaudiant, and clairsentience. My awareness has heightened drastically since the full moon. I am so grateful to have had this experience, even though it was as painful as it was; physically, mentally, spiritually.
I have released so much that it has enabled more to come forward into my life. Even my daily life has changed from running around and meeting up with everyone all the time to me just focusing on what I am here to do. I stopped listening to others’ and what they think I need to do. We all get caught up in that occasionally and I felt like I was in that for at least a month. Which brought me to the full moon. I, again, turn around and do me. I have been having dreams and visions and seeing all the signs that I am on my path. So I continue to move forward.
I have been painting as of late and it’s been quite interesting to see what shows up within my paintings. All the emotions that I was growing through in each painting.
My goal now is to continue to paint waves and watch the progression of my waves and the mood behind each one.
Being here in Bali has shown me that I need to just do me at all costs. Since the beginning of this amazing adventure I was at the mercy of my own intuition…going on my first solo trip out of country and then this covid thing happened.
As I met new people and began hearing everyone’s concerns and situations I started getting wrapped up in their emotions and decisions.
I had taken a step back and realized that they weren’t mine to take on and so I left the emotions behind and continued on with my intuition.
Around this time August 11th, there has been a wide spread panic about everyone’s visa situation. The Indonesian government announced that everyone here in a free visa/ visa exempt needed to leave by August 10th. That was July 14th. Over the course of those weeks, more people stresses over the visas than anything else. Flights are still being cancelled and so many people have no way of leaving. And if they are like me, we don’t want to leave at all, especially to America at this time.
The last week of July the Indonesian government made a second announcement saying that the deadline has been pushed to August 20. All other visa holders just need to extend their visas with no problems.
I came here on the free visa/ visa exempt so I needed to figure out how to get on the social visa before it was too late. Everyone I spoke to had so many different ideas. I have no clue what I am doing and all I could do was listen to everyone.
Going through an agency is super challenging because who can you really trust. The prices were so high. It’s not cheap to go through an agency but I really needed assistance going through the process. I was going to wait for more information and nothing came. My friends kept saying they are gonna wait…and we were all gonna do it together.
Yesterday was the last day for free visa holders to handle their shenanigans. I finally stepped out of everyones energy surrounding the visa crisis and went last Friday and handled it. I went yesterday to pay for it. Most of my friends didn’t do anything. I was worried about them u til I realized that it’s not mine and let it go.
If they are meant to stay then Bali will keep them, but when Bali is ready for you to move on you will know it. That’s a fact!
So with that being said I am learning my lessons with ease and grace. My lessons in the past have been aggressive and abrasive. Some things you would think I would have learned them already but when it creeps in like this clearly I have not. But I feel that these things were just reminders for me to stay in me and continue to listen to my needs.
I am so blessed to be in this position and the ability to see clearly. Forever grateful to Bali, the island of gods, for accepting me and welcoming me with open arms…
I am so beyond grateful to have been able to take the ride to the East Coast. It takes approximately 2.5 hours to ride there via motorbike. I went with my friend Jason, whom I met in Ubud when I first got here. I left my home in Semyniak and we met in Canggu.
We left somewhere around 10.30-11. It was a hot morning. My first ride following for a long ride. I was excited to take it all. My friend likes to fly, I am so used to cruising; I did my best to keep up, because I most definitely didn’t want to lose him.
We rode through Denpasar and the last time I rode through there I was on a gojek and so glad I wasn’t driving. So today I went, surprisingly I was quite relaxed cruising through the heavy traffic of the city. It seemed like forever we were in city limits, but when we finally made it out I could breathe better.
We took the coastal route as it is less traffic and trucks. But there were still many and had to be careful of their presence. When we were finally able to see the coast the roads got smaller and moved to one lane of traffic. Some spots were open road and then there were congested areas. I have learned to pass vehicles when this happens, otherwise it will take you triple the time to get to where you are going. We stopped half way in a place called Candidasa. Beautiful place, we stopped at a little warung and had lunch. I had chicken satay with rice, the peanut sauce was sooo good! We sat there for probably about an hour, resting our rumps. That was a long hard ride. I had to figure out how to sit on the bike so that my butt didn’t hurt.
We headed out and continued our travels. We rode through small villages, mountains and rice fields on one side and ocean on the other. Breathtaking. I had to contain myself from looking in every which direction because I was still driving.
We pulled over at a temple and Jason pulled out his drone. He got some incredible footage of the temple. Where as all I could get was shots between trees. The Temple was closed, like everything else but you can still feel the presence of amazement. We were standing on the side of the road for probably 20 mins. Our feet were on fire from being in the sun. So we left.
We started riding through the mountains. Wow… I wish I had a go pro for riding because it was so beautiful. The whole ride. We rode through some very small villages, seeing dogs, chickens, cows, pigs, cats, and monkeys. Granted you see those animals almost everywhere but this was the first time I saw little piggies. It was fun to see the monkeys while riding on the bikes. Last time I saw monkeys I was in the monkey forest and in a car driving through the mountains up north.
We stopped at a little spot my friend knew about, a small temple that overlooks a little island. As we pulled into the area, there were people dressed for ceremony. I felt like we were intruding so we kind of stayed back and found another spot to gaze out. It was cool to watch everyone prepare. They were so kind and all smiles. I am absolutely in love with this place and the people and culture.
We didn’t want to disturb them so we left and continued our adventure… We rode through more windy roads and small villages and then we came across this…
We stopped at a few different places to see if any hotel/ bungalows/ homestays were open. The first several were closed. But this is the view from one of them..
We eventually came to one that was open, we just so happen to be the only guests. We had a nice little room and the place was on the beach. At this time the beaches were closed so we had to be aware of the times we went on the beach.
If you are a fisherman you are allowed. The authorities would come around and check in with places and make sure everything is in order.
We were lucky enough that the authorities already came by so we were able to go for a walk on the beach and watch sunset. So we took a walk and we went around the bend and there was Mount Agung…So beautiful..
So magnificent. We found a spot and hung out.
We walked back and the host made us fresh mahi mahi. OMG so good! We hung out for the rest of the evening star gazing. During this time I had come to the realization that what I truly want out of life is a simple life.
Through many conversations and observations I see the Balinese live in the moment. They are grounded and dedicated. Many only have what they need and don’t need more. After being here for as long as I have, living out of my bags, I don’t need much. All I really need is what I have with me. Of course I’ve picked up some things along the way, I have everything I need.
The next big question is what does that look like? What will fill my time? What is it that I want to do with this life? These are the next questions I have been asking myself.
As you know I am in Bali. I haven’t been doing too much because everything is closed down, tourist wise. My purpose of this trip was to visit six particular places and feel the energy vibes as they are sort of like vortex’s here in Bali; supposedly like Sedona Arizona. Universe clearly has other plans for me…
I have been getting all wrapped up in everyone else’s shenanigans and haven’t been focusing on mine. Sure I meditate and work out and eat better than I ever have before. I am doing much self care but I came here for the energy. I have been staying in and not going out very much except for the weekends. I have visited some new beautiful places but haven’t been sitting and feeling the energy as much as I would like.
A friend of mine, Kim, asked me if I have seen any healers yet. When I first got here I went straight to the mountains and it was heaven on earth. When I came down from the mountains I was to go to Cambodia and that got cancelled. I was ok with that, I had to be. But then I started thinking of my Visa and how I could extend my visa during this crisis. Everyone wanted me to come home, ok not everyone, just family. I understood why but my heart and soul said otherwise.
From that point till now, I had been not listening to my highest self. I have been listening to my intuition but that’s why we have amazing people in our lives to remind us why we are here. Thank you Kim for reminding me of what I needed to do.
I found a Balinese healer named Cokorda Rai. I was doing some research and his name popped up a few times. They say he does not do appointments and he opens his doors at 9. People line up to see him and supposedly he only sees people for 2-5 minutes and moves on to the next. They said to get there early. I was so super excited.
As most of you know I am a Reiki master and understand how energy moves and works through the body. I immediately contacted my driver Rai and set it up with him to pick me up and take me there. Apparently, Rai lives 5 mins away from him in Ubud. I am in Seyminak which is about 1 hour away.
We made plans for him to pick me up at 8 am. I was so excited, Kim had sent me that morning a link to Gaia TV- 6th Floor: Expanding Possibility. It was 30 mins of amazing awareness. I watched it and knew I was on the right path. Ever more excited I attempted to go to sleep.
I don’t think I slept but for 4 hours, do to much excitement. I got up and got ready and met Rai outside for 8am. We were off.
When we pull in to the compound, there is only one woman doing morning offerings. Rai spoke with the young woman and showed us to an area. We walk up and sat down on the cement while we waited.
She came back out and asked me questions about my health and where I’ve been, she had told me to go wash my hands and wait. I did as told and nervous because Rai wasn’t even sure that he would do any healings because of corona. The young lady came back out and said we just have to make sure because my father is very old. I said absolutely.
Another woman helped Cokorda out to where we were sitting and helped him sit. Just the sight of him I felt overwhelmed with joy and gratitude. This amazing man whom I have never met is going to tell me whatever I need to know in this very moment and assist me in releasing it. Whether it’s actually him and his mudras or he is just a conduit, either way, WOW…
He calls me forward. I stand before him, he speaks ever so softly and he asks for my name. He asked me what I have a problem with, I told him nothing, that I was going to see what you thought. He told me to sit with my back against him and in front of him. So I did. He touch all over my head, shoulders and arms. He said in my right ear, pain. Left ear good. Right ear pain, no happiness. (thinking back as I write this maybe I was mistaking happiness for gratitude. I am very grateful for every moment I’m in but maybe not happy. Regardless it’s all been released and is gone now.)
He then told me to lay down on the ground. So I moved to the floor where I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. He moved his hands all over my body in motions as to unstick energy. Then he sits me up and shows me how to move. He guides me to do it myself and we sat there doing it together. He then whispers in my ear, love is coming, be patient.
We do several more rounds of releasing energy. When we were finished, he looks at me and says every time you look in the mirror, laugh and scoop up your laughter and eat it. You stay happy. I said easy, I can do that…I honestly loved the idea of that. So we practiced.
When finished he sits back down on his chair and asks me to come over. You come back again, love is on it’s way…
I stook up and thanked him for his service and Rai and I walked away. As we were walking Rai looked at me in disbelief. He said he never sits with people for that long, maybe 2-5 mins. You sat with him for 10-20 mins. I don’t recall because there was no such thing in those moments.
Rai then turned to me again and said you have good karma, they aren’t even open because of everything. But he was willing to see you. I had to sit for a minute before getting in the car because of the way my body felt and for the sheer fact of overwhelming gratitude.
The best way to describe the way my body felt was like my insides were vibrating at a very high level starting from my solar plexus and throughout the day went all the way up through my crown chakra. I felt light headed, dizzy, clear. It was the feeling I had after having my first Reiki session with my friend Cathy.
I needed time to feel and reflect. I was hoping there would be a space to do such things but I was with my driver Rai and I was an hour away from home. I wasn’t ready to go home either. Funny, as I sit here writing about it, I can feel the energies within and feel the way I did yesterday.
Rai drove me around, we stopped at a couple of temples and one I got to sit and be with for some time. So I did exactly that. I sat and felt and prayed in front of the temple. Not sure what I was praying for but I felt that, that’s what I needed to do. I took some pictures and we moved on.
The next Temple we stopped at is a famous Temple Batuan (sounds like batwan). I could only see so much as the gates were closed. But I took pictures anyways. It was beautiful and amazing. Just like all of them.
Rai decided we were gonna go check out the waterfall anyways. We knew it was closed but he thought that we might be able to actually see it anyways, even from a distance. So off we were. Sure enough we found it and we drove to as far as we could. Thankfully he is local, so we were able to walk down to where all the restaurants were. In that very moment I was sad that I never got a picture on a swing. When we got to the vista point I took some pictures and Rai called out to me and pointed…There was a wicker seat that is like the swings but stationary. I was totally stoked. I sat there and enjoyed the view in my little wicker seat. Took it all in.
We then decided it was time to head back. It was still morning time. Rai said he was going to take me through Kuta, so I asked him if this little spot in Sanur was on the way. He said sure, I wanted to pick up another sarong (which BTW is pronounced sa-roong). When we pull up to the spot, they were open.
I get out of the vehicle and I honestly have no idea how this happened but my right thumb got stuck in the door. I have no idea, I pulled it out and looked at it…It was getting creepier and creepier by the millisecond. I ran into the cafe and begged for ice. They brought some out and I was almost in tears. I stopped and practiced my breathing, but it didn’t help. I busted out some Reiki while standing there and held my thumb in between my hands. One of the guys was like omg, you need to go see the doctor, he’s next door. I looked at him and gave him a half laugh. Knowing they couldn’t do anything for me.
I then decided to hurry up and look for what I wanted. The young lady came over to help me open them up so I could see all the patterns. I ended up walking away with 2. I got back in the car and we drove home. Rai had no idea what happened. I was still in shock.
I get home and look up what that meant. I mean really I just saw the healer and this happens maybe an hour later???? I have mentioned in past blogs that when I have a situation I usually look it up by typing in, spiritual meaning of…
Short explanation: the will to receive something (help, favor, care, recognition, love, money…) is in a subtle way not allowed to be recognized or expressed
For a more detailed look..check out his link. Pretty on point. Jeez…
So, after reading that and trying to sit with self and assist in the healing of my thumb I realized that I need to be more assertive in my actions and become more aware of these particular aspects…the willingness to receive.
Ok, it’s still early in the day, time to nap on that…
But then a few days later, I stub my left big toe. Oh jeez…the Universe is really yelling at me. That means, sit and be still. It is your ether toe, you spiritual connection. Oh boy…
Ok, so now I have my work cut out for me, no pun intended. Today I sat woke up and watched a facebook live with my friend Cathy. She channels Rosemary. I was inspired by her words and actions so much so that I decided I would try channeling. I let her know what I was going to do and of course I had all the support.
After I texted her I went upstairs and sat upright, put my awesome headphones on and listened to some binaural beats for channeling on youtube. I was in it, I was told that I am not ready (sad face). Instead we talked and I asked some questions and after a while the Divine Consciousness told me to go buy a plant and come back later. I was like, ok.
I went out and found a plant at a place that translates to mighty flora. Flora is the name of my one of my higher aspects of self, pretty cool. Anyways, I ended up buying a Jasmine plant and it has 2 buds on it.
I brought it home and I decided to wait till sunset to meditate again. When I finally did, they told me that when the buds start to bloom I will be ready. Until then, come back every morning and evening. I got so excited so. I feel that my flowers will at least begin to bloom by the next full moon, which is the Flower SuperMoon; May 6th. We shall see.
Here’s a funny story about universe being literal. The beginning of this year I had made a vision board, the biggest one I’ve made since highschool. I had framed it and was hanging in front of my bed on the wall so I would see it when I wake up and when I go to bed.
I am a firm believer in the I AM affirmations. So I put $$$100 billion dollars on there with the affirmation that I am a billionaire. And if you can see there’s a line on my vision board that says ” It’s living the dream sooner rather than later”. And well you can see the board…
I have been manifesting living in another country by the end of this year and being a billionaire. And here I am, living in another country and technically I am a billionaire; at least here in Bali I am. 1 billion Rupiahs is equal to $64 USD. So here it is I am officially a billionaire. lol.
Basically everything on that board has come to fruition, although I am still waiting on my Black Card; but being a billionaire, I don’t really need it at this moment. Some things are coming and I can feel it. After all who really knows when I will be able to go home. I am not complaining.
Regardless of the global circumstances I am still able to discover new things, go on mini adventures and learn more about the culture. I am blessed. Everyday is new and everyday I have a choice. Stepping out of comfort zones and away from fear, trying new things. Seeing things in a different perspective. Doing things I wouldn’t normally do.
It seems weird now, but in the states I found it more challenging to do everything that I listed above. I feel more free and relaxed about it. Probably because I don’t know anyone; well now I do but they make me feel comfortable.
I just wanted to share the power of manifesting and vision boards…So cool. I have made visions boards most of my life and I have seen them all come to fruition but for some reason this time it’s different. A better different, awesome different, amazing!