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Transition

I have been here in Florida for just about a month now. The first week was busy trying to prepare my new room and get comfy. Going out and buying things I didn’t know I needed till I got here. Exhausted from travel and wiped out from moving everything around my room 15 hundred times, I felt cozy enough to say I am done with my room.

The following week I went out to find a job and got one by the end of the week. I was ready to start working. I had spent most of my travel money and was ready to start bringing in some fresh new money. I started training the following week and had to work mornings. Mind you I was working at another restaurant at 11am, here I am working at 10:15am. An hour is a difference. So now I need to figure out timing without stress in the morning.

When I official started working it was right before Thanksgiving, I have yet to find a routine or any sort of consistency in my day to day life. Due to moving to a place I’ve never even seen or been to, moving in with my sister and her boyfriend, starting a new job, not knowing anyone besides my sister, my body started to react.

I have been bloated since after thanksgiving, I have been breaking out in hives on my face and my sleep has been greatly affected. All that boils down to is fear and resistance.

I have been through these emotions numerous times and I subconsciously know what to do. However in a state of panic from not sleeping well, thinking clearly has been quite challenging.

Since this new moon and the beginning of December, I have been able to slow down and sit with self. Before bed, I practiced deep breathing exercises and listened to binaural beats on youtube for releasing. That has helped with my sleep along with sleeping with my carnelian crystal sphere, which promotes de-bloating in your sacral chakra.

During the day I have been meditating on releasing old ideas and surrendering. I need to flow down stream and stop resisting. I have been resisting the change and transition and the only reason I can think of is fear. Am I going to make it down here? Am I going to make enough money? Can I afford to live in this type of area? There are so many things to do and place to go…

I am blocking myself and it’s uncomfortable, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I have been talking to self about why this is so different than everywhere else, when I realized it’s because I say I am only here till march 1st. Then I’m off on the trip of a lifetime. So now I have given myself, subconsciously a deadline to which, what if I fail….

No matter what life throws at us, as long as you try, there is no failing. You only die once and you live everyday…right?! So one foot in front of the other and let it all go….

Release and relax, these are all lessons that I need to grow through at this time. Quite honestly, all week I have been sleeping through the night. Sometimes I can figure out what is going on with me right away and heal it and then there are times when I am challenged with what is really going on.

This is all part of transitioning into a new book of my life and I am totally grateful for these uncomfortable moments; because I can learn from them and be done with them. It is just making me a stronger, more intuitive and a braver being.

Taking my power back, releasing resistance. Allowing the transition...
Feeling Confident and stepping back into my power
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Namastgo

Colby n Me

After leaving, yet again, another place I’ve called home for the past year, I had to say so long. I left my some friends that I will surely miss. Not to mention my mum’s pup. This was the last time I will ever see him again, in waking life.

Mr. Colby, is getting ready to leave this world and move on to another life. It’s sad to watch someone you love wither away. Knowing that he isn’t in pain, is a blessing. I pray that he just falls asleep peacefully.

My friend, Miss Margret and I had a connection. She is an 82 year old German lady, who loves going to yoga, loves her garden and has a wonderful group of friends whom she has dinner with 3x’s a week. Everyday I would go to her house before work and we would have a nice visit. We would sit outside and talk about what’s bothering us, what’s making us happy; sharing stories of the past and present. It’s been a wonderful venture. And now I told her I would send her selfies everyday before work and call her. We gave hugs and put our hands in prayer and we bow, she says “Namaste”, I say “Namastgo”. We both laugh and hug and I was off.

I really don’t believe in saying goodbye, because that just feels so final. And sometimes it is.

I am so grateful for the people that have come in and out of my life. There is always a reason and a lesson that comes with everyone encounter. I am blessed to understand this and I am capable of seeing both with each encounter. Although it’s often later than sooner, but that’s because there’s a lesson.

I wish everyone I have encountered, via any form of communication, the best and know that I have much gratitude for you.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Out with the Old and In with the New…

As I sit back and let nature takes its course, I find myself living in gratitude. September came and went with whirlwinds of “what am I’m going to do?”, to an amazing new opportunity. It’s mid October and I am now moving to Florida for the next 4 months to check it out and make extra money for my upcoming trip.  My sister called and offered me a chance to check out Florida. Not only will that be awesome but I can continue to build a stronger bond with her. We are 12 years apart. So we didn’t really grow up with each other and never really saw each other that often throughout the years. Although living with her full time isn’t the ideal situation, it’s temporary. Which makes us both feel excited. The full moon october 13th was super ideal for me to release everything that no longer serves my greatest and highest good. I had a theta healing session in which we cleared out so much that was weighing me down. It was awesome. I wasn’t planning this but my date to leave is october 27th which also happens to be the new moon. New moons are all about new beginnings and putting out intentions and goals. I am super stoked! I will be driving to Florida from maine and taking my time. Visiting with my chickadee (granma) for several days, then to my aunt and uncles in South Carolina, whom I haven’t seen in over 2 decades. Then off to Jacksonville where I will see a good friend of mine whom I also haven’t seen in 2 decades. Then to my godfathers in central Florida. Then to my new home. I am really excited for this adventure. Who knows where it’ll take me and I’m grateful for not knowing. A new beginning to a brand new book. All old books are finished, closed and packed away.

My home in Maine. The view I am leaving behind for the winter. Looking forward to seeing what my new view will look like!
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Moat Mountian

After Labor Day, working so hard, I needed to get away. Labor day in York Beach is a big weekend for restaurant servers. It’s loud, crazy busy and riddled with people from out of town. It was a rough weekend for us. I needed a getaway.

I found that hiking by myself was the key to freedom of self. So I booked a hotel and off I went to North Conway. I left right after my lunch shift and drove up. Beautiful drive. I haven’t been there since I was a kid. I did a little research before before going there specifically. I found a spot where I could mine for crystals. I was sold and very excited to go play in the mountains and dirt.

North Conway, straight ahead

I stayed at a hotel with a hot tub, because when travelling there is nothing like relaxing in a hot tub. I went out to eat and went back to the hotel where I just kicked back and relaxed. The next morning I ate breakfast and saw that it was raining lightly. That wasn’t going to stop me from my journey. I packed up my car and headed to the mountain.

I was driving down a very long dirt road and enjoyed being surrounded by all the trees. When I arrive, I was the only person there. So grateful.

I packed up my gear and headed in. It was quiet with the exception of the sound of my footsteps crackling over the forest floor. I kept a look out for anything out of the ordinary. It was about a mile or so in when I came upon the mining site.

You could see where people were mining. So I sat there on the ground for a bit and meditated. Then I asked my guides where I would find smokey quartz. I heard under the tree. Well I am surrounded by trees, so I stood up and felt the energy. I found a tree and carefully dug around the base. I did find a nice little piece of smokey quartz. I gently placed the dirt back around the base and thanked the tree for allowing me to do that.

Smokey Quartz

I continued to move around the site and look for more beautiful minerals. I have no idea how long I was out there for but I sat down again and meditated before leaving and The way it was, the rain subsided and the sun came through the trees and landed directly on me. It was magical.

I packed up my gear and thanked the land once again and headed back to my car.

When I made it back to my car, I wanted to change my clothes before driving back 2 hours to get home. As I was covered in dirt. I begin to change and then I hear something. I quickly finish changing and I see a mini van coming down the road. It was a family with 3 kids.

I was so beyond grateful that my journey through the woods was solo with no one around. Universe knew that I needed that time alone. And now it was time for others to enjoy.

Overall, it was a very relaxing and fun getaway. I truly needed that. Quiet time away from people. I was at peace and ready to go back to work lighter, emotionally and spiritually.

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Mount Agamenticus

I had quite the adventure today as this was my first hiking adventure since Sedona last September. I recorded myself several times to document this but all I could seem to focus on was the MOSQUITOS!!!!

Mind you I have never put myself in front of the camera intending to post, this was just for me, initially. Then I decided that I am going to put myself out there just because. So here I am.

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