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Still learning lessons

Being here in Bali has shown me that I need to just do me at all costs. Since the beginning of this amazing adventure I was at the mercy of my own intuition…going on my first solo trip out of country and then this covid thing happened.

As I met new people and began hearing everyone’s concerns and situations I started getting wrapped up in their emotions and decisions.

I had taken a step back and realized that they weren’t mine to take on and so I left the emotions behind and continued on with my intuition.

Around this time August 11th, there has been a wide spread panic about everyone’s visa situation. The Indonesian government announced that everyone here in a free visa/ visa exempt needed to leave by August 10th. That was July 14th. Over the course of those weeks, more people stresses over the visas than anything else. Flights are still being cancelled and so many people have no way of leaving. And if they are like me, we don’t want to leave at all, especially to America at this time.

The last week of July the Indonesian government made a second announcement saying that the deadline has been pushed to August 20. All other visa holders just need to extend their visas with no problems.

I came here on the free visa/ visa exempt so I needed to figure out how to get on the social visa before it was too late. Everyone I spoke to had so many different ideas. I have no clue what I am doing and all I could do was listen to everyone.

Going through an agency is super challenging because who can you really trust. The prices were so high. It’s not cheap to go through an agency but I really needed assistance going through the process. I was going to wait for more information and nothing came. My friends kept saying they are gonna wait…and we were all gonna do it together.

Yesterday was the last day for free visa holders to handle their shenanigans. I finally stepped out of everyones energy surrounding the visa crisis and went last Friday and handled it. I went yesterday to pay for it. Most of my friends didn’t do anything. I was worried about them u til I realized that it’s not mine and let it go.

If they are meant to stay then Bali will keep them, but when Bali is ready for you to move on you will know it. That’s a fact!

So with that being said I am learning my lessons with ease and grace. My lessons in the past have been aggressive and abrasive. Some things you would think I would have learned them already but when it creeps in like this clearly I have not. But I feel that these things were just reminders for me to stay in me and continue to listen to my needs.

I am so blessed to be in this position and the ability to see clearly. Forever grateful to Bali, the island of gods, for accepting me and welcoming me with open arms…

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Facing Fears

As most of you know I have been in fear of riding the motorbike on main roads and going by myself anywhere far; on the bike. Some reasons for that fear is my phone not working, getting lost, not being able to find my way home, navigating around fast moving vehicles and other motorbikes.

I have my motorcycle license in the states, but I haven’t been on a motorcycle since I got it back in 2015. Sad, I know. Then some of you know my phone hasn’t been the most reliable as of late.

With that being said, I learned how to roam with Aric back in Saba. He did take me down the main road for a minute. I felt more comfortable riding on the side roads. As time has moved on, if anyone was going anywhere I would make sure I could tag along. More practice and getting to know roads and how to ride around cars and motorbikes in small doses.

In a week and half I have been riding on the main roads with my roommates to other towns. Mind you my roommates have motorbikes at home and have been riding since they were young. I have been able to keep up with them and been enjoying it.

Over the past weekend we took a road trip to Uluwatu and I followed along on my motor bike. (Side note- if you read my last blog, about the flat tires…I cannot believe I forgot to write that I had a flat tire before we even left the neighborhood that morning! Crazy town…) Anyways, so we went on their kinda highways and turned everywhere and crossed traffic from all directions. I was very aware of my every move and all my surroundings.

I made it safely through everything. So with that, I was ready. I decided it was time to ride to another town, alone. I was going to meet a friend in Canggu for sunset. I left way earlier so we could hang out poolside before.

I set out for the adventure. I had packed my bathing suit, sarong, extra shirt. The phone holder was attached to my mirror so I could see my phone, I had my earbuds in so I could hear the directions. I had my face mask on and then my helmet.

Off I went. I made it to the first light and my GPS hadn’t spoken to me not once. I pulled over to see which way to go and I went the wrong way anyways. So I made another turn and pulled over to check my GPS again. I knew the general direction so if I ever felt lost I just turned toward the general direction and hope for the best.

I left kinda early so that I could take my time and not rush. His place was about 3miles away; which if you were in the states would be like 5 minutes. Here its 22mins. All the roads look like back roads. There are no roads that go straight, everything curves off of each other and if you don’t know the area then you are just hoping for the best, like me.

I went through some major traffic centers and there was a certain point my phone began working. I was so grateful. I had already pulled over so many times it was nice to just listen and not pull over. I finally made it and I was so grateful and proud of myself.

My next challenge was going to be driving home after sunset.

Here’s the kicker…we were leaving for sunset and we all took our own bikes. Before I even backed out all the way my friend says that I have a rear flat tire. WTF…ok whatever. LOL..just go with the flow. That makes it 2 days in a row with a flat. I decided to leave it till the next day, So I spent the night out.

Doesn’t look flat but totally is!

Never did get to ride home at night, But I am also not in fear of it anymore. Just one of those things I wanted to get over, but clearly in my time, lol. Cuz I totally took my time with that and that is fine by me.

More adventures await, fearlessly yet very aware and alert!

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Bali Day 5

Sun Rise

Today I woke up at 5am, seems to be a theme for me here. I stepped out onto the front triangle deck and pulled out the thai mat, meditated and did sun salutations as the sun rose. In the valley of the waterfall, which is beneath me, I can hear the sounds of a man singing somewhere along the valley lines. It was quite beautiful and tranquil.

Today was my day to just sit in peace and do me. I had no desire to go anywhere, as my legs are ridiculously sore from trek the previous day. Side note; I woke up at 2am and had to use the restroom which is downstairs. I cannot tell you how painful that was! So I took a shower and had some delicious breakfast and relaxed.

I opened all the doors and windows in my treehouse and let the air flow through. When the sun came out I would go and sit out there and bask in it. I spent most of my day going through all of my pictures from the waterfalls. It was so wonderful.

Lunch time came around and my new friend, Vipin, and I were to go have lunch; But then the rain came and it poured buckets…much like it is at this moment. And I ran downstairs and played in it…It was magical!

The rain finally came to a halt and we were set free. Vipin and I went to lunch at the koi pond. It was so pretty and green. The fish were happily fed as was Vipin and I. We hung out there for a bit and meandered back to the houses.

Vipin wanted to show me the other cottage in the rice fields so off we went on the motor bike. I enjoyed the ride, we are in a small village so there isn’t traffic everywhere like in Ubud. We drove country side and came to the property. It was quite amazing, staying in this little villa. The view was astounding. It was placed on the bottom of the fields, so all you see is rice fields- going up.

When we left we took a cruise through the rest of the village and came back. Where I picked up where I left off, on my computer. Just as dinner was being served, Vipin comes to me with a message talking about cancellations and such. So I start doing my research as I am eating. I am to go to Cambodia for 2 weeks on the 20th.

I find all my flight info and found that Cambodia closed it’s doors to tourists. So now I am in a panic, trying to figure out how to cancel my flight and get a refund; and then I realized I did not get a VOA when I arrived because I was going to Cambodia. VOA is visa on arrival. Which is if you want to stay past 30 days. Which now I will be. hahaha…nervous laughter at that time.

Have a Beautiful Day

I start calling my mom and emailing my dad and contacting the airline. Then I stopped.

I said to myself, “Self, what are you doing, this is why we didn’t plan anything. It’s all about the adventure, the journey, the excitement of what is going to happen next. Everything happens for a reason and it is ALWAYS for your greatest and highest good. You might not be able to see it but it’s a fact. You already trust the process, and this is no different.”

So with having that little chat with myself I was able to get some rest, with ease and grace.

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Mount Agamenticus

I had quite the adventure today as this was my first hiking adventure since Sedona last September. I recorded myself several times to document this but all I could seem to focus on was the MOSQUITOS!!!!

Mind you I have never put myself in front of the camera intending to post, this was just for me, initially. Then I decided that I am going to put myself out there just because. So here I am.

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Different perspective

I understand what I’ve done in my life and being who I am, I see many things I’ve done as not such a big deal. But when you encounter someone whom you have never met and somehow things come up in conversation… Beautiful things begin to unfold in the most peculiar places.

I was at the bank this morning and the topic of me moving to Maine from California came up. The young lady behind the counter remarked about how she wished she coukd just pick up and go somewhere. Its something shes always wanted,to do but has been to afraid to do such things.

I let her know, that its about facing your fears and walking through them. You do not want to look back at your life and say to yourself, man I wish I did that way back,when. Instead, follow your joy. That is who you are meant to be. By listening to your “gut” aka intuition, you can never go wrong. Because at least you tried!

The more often you follow your joy the more you will rcv bigger and better positive things, acts, love. All because you followed your joy. No matter how “scary” it was.

Everything turned out exactly the way it was supposed to. You are in control. Please do not live behind your fear…

I did for most of my life, I am beyond grateful that I can move and walk through my fear. No matter how uncomfortable it is, knowing that its for my greatest and highest good.