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Bali Day 2

Staying in Ubud (pronouced oo-bood) has been a beautiful experience. Waking up before the roosters around 5:30 was quite early, as I am still trying to catch up on rest. I went to bed at midnight just being overwhelmed with gratitude and trying to settle in.

When I woke up I went outside to see what it was like, temperature wise. It was humid as it had rained overnight. I went back inside and decided to shower and go for a walk. My mom bought me this citronella body wash and I swear by it. I haven’t had any bug bites since I’ve been here (Thanks Mom). I knew that I wouldn’t catch sunrise because I was slow at moving this morning but I was ok with that. I still wanted to go see a temple in town, called the Water Palace. I wore a long skirt, short sleeve nice shirt and flip flops; Grabbed my backpack and off I was.

Ubud, 630am

The streets of Ubud were silent as I made my way down the street. Women placing their offerings in front of stores or their temples, dogs meandering the streets, shop owners sweeping the store fronts. It was nice, no hustle and bustle yet. I made a few wrong turns, which I was ok with; sooner or later I would get back to where I was staying. I came upon the local farmers market, or just market. It was like what you see in movies (well everything here is like something from the movies, for me), the rain left the streets muddy and trucks and scooters, men and women running around buying selling trading. It was rather large, walking through a maze throughout a building. Some areas I didn’t feel I wanted to go because it looked creepy and dark and musty; so I stayed away. Fruits, vegetables, nuts, meats, flowers; the flowers smelled amazing. I found some watermelon and bought some, being my favorite fruit, for 3k rupiah (.21 USD). I wanted more veggies but I didn’t have a place for them and it was quite overwhelming. So I ate that and meandered.

I found the temple grounds but I am unable to find the entrance. So I walked down the street and found another one that I was able to walk right to. I walk in behind the store fronts and there it is…wow! Breathtaking. It just seemed so organic and unscathed by the world around it. Definitely a place of heaven on earth. I stood there in awe admiring it’s ancient beauty. You are unable to go into any temple without the proper attire. But you can go to the front of the outside of it…if that makes any sense.

I found the river next to this temple and followed it to the stair case that led me down to the river. The water is brown because well I don’t actually know but my guess its muddy and city. Either way, I wanted to walk down there, it looked like a jungle. It was so pretty with nature just pouring into it. I walked down the path for a few minutes when I saw a man doing his laundry in the water. So I turned around as I didn’t want to alarm him and headed back to the house.

Everything was still closed as far as shops and restaurants so it was nice to just window shop and see what everyone was selling without anyone trying to get you to come in. Not that I mind that, but I was really enjoying the stillness of the morning.

I made it back to the main street that the house was on and it looked like a building was on fire. I didn’t see anyone running to it or hear any sirens or anything which I thought was weird. Everyone seemed to think it was normal. It smelled horrible, I walked so fast to try to get away from it. It was coming from some sort of vent in the pavement into the street, I don’t recall if they were sewer drainage’s or something else, but it looked like something else. I make it back to the house and walked inside. Same thing was happening inside the courtyard…I saw Ketut and he tells me that they are fumigating for mosquitos. They do it every so often. I thought that was brilliant, however- doesn’t mean that they aren’t there, just not as many as there would be.

I made it back in time for breakfast. By that time I had sweat so bad that I was literally drenched. I sat down for an amazing breakfast which consisted of a banana pancake (organic)with coconut shaving on top and fruits. I ate everything, it was delicious and I’m not a banana eater.

I decided to jump in the pool to cool off. I meet two great people, Luca from Italy and Alice from Germany. We all hung out and learned about each other. Then went our separate ways. I wanted to take a nap but I had to make arrangements for my travels before I am off to Cambodia. So I figure that out and call my family and by the time that was all done. I was hungry again. So I made my way to the main area and found a place for some more delicious food.

Silver and Gold

I found a place and sat down. Ordered a chicken avocado salad with fruit, a watermelon water and a baby coconut. I wanted to hydrate as I had sweat out everything earlier in the day. Everything was amazing. As I sat there eating I was pondering what to do next. I had all these things to do back at the house but it was still so early and I had all the time in the world. When I left the restaurant I started the walk home and remembered to go look rings. I saw a shop that I wanted to go to so I went. I was looking for a couple of rings for a couple of fingers. What I found was, me walking out of there with four rings made in Bali by the owners of the store. I left there beaming as they were rings that I absolutely loved.

Walking out of there, now in the mood to shop; even though I need nothing, I went in and tried some clothes on in different places. I didn’t buy anything, I wanted to but I didn’t “love” anything as much as my rings. I’ve learned my lesson over the years to only purchase what you absolutely “love” and so I have been doing just that. I walk out of the last store and I see across the street the Monkey Forest. I laugh, roll my eyes and say, I’m here- lets do this.

Ubud

For the record, I am not up to par with my photo taking for others Instagram pages. This guy comes up to me and asks me to take a picture of him and his friends, 2 couples. I say sure and proceed to take a couple of pictures. The girls look at them and gave me a fake half smile- more like disgusted look on their faces. I laughed and walked on. Oh these little kids and their aspiring Instagram photos.

Walking through the forest, I was focused more on the architecture than the monkeys. Monkeys are cool until they are not. Gratefully I didn’t have any issues with them but I’ve heard all the stories. It was beautiful to walk through and I am glad I decided to go.

I get back to the house and proceed to get everything done and ready for tomorrow as I was leaving for the treehouse in the morning. That took some time. Trying to pack everything back up, I’m definitely learning what to bring and not to bring. By the time I finish all of that, I’m hungry again! hahaha. The food portions are small and so I eat more often.

I decided to actually do my hair and go find some yummies, after all it is friday the 13th. I found a little spot right on the street and sat down. I ordered chicken curry with white rice and potato somas. Both delicious. While waiting for my food, dude rolls up and sits next to me at the bar. We start chatting it up and he shares his story and I share mine. He gave me plenty of advice about where to go what to do where to stay etc, I asked him a bunch of questions and he gave me a bunch of answers; grateful. We exchanged numbers and went our separate ways.

Yes I brought my own pillowcase. And yes it is batman…

I got home and everything was finished so I crawled into bed and called it a night around 9pm. I was so grateful to crawl into bed. when I jumped in, I look down and saw that under the sheet was the american flag. I found that to be quite funny and on that note, out I went.

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Epic Journey Abroad

I embark on the most epic journey of my lifetime thus far on Tuesday. I am going to Bali and Cambodia for 2 months for my first solo trip over seas. I bought my ticket last year maybe around September and have done zero planning of this trip for when I am over there.

I am going to Bali for a week and then to Cambodia, Siem Reap, for 2 weeks. Then back to Bali for the remainder of my time. I only set myself up in 3 places. The first week I am there I have found a nice AirBNB in Ubud, where I will spend the first 3 nights before I go all the way to the other side of the island to stay in a treehouse for several nights. And that’s all that I have booked in Bali. As for Cambodia I booked a hostel for the first 3 nights I am there and that’s it too. I figured everything will work out the way it’s supposed to when I get to these amazing places.

So the most planning I did for this trip was setting myself up for success at home. I have student loans, a car loan, bills etc. The one thing I am ever so grateful for is not having rent to pay for while I am away. I had just moved back from Florida and leaving my stuff at my parents while I am away. And I no longer have a job or incoming money and who knows what will happen when I get back. I have no clue what, when, where…

With all these loans and bills that I owe money to monthly, I started saving money to pay everything through August so I won’t have to worry so much when I get back, in May. Financially I am set and free to do whatever I need to do to enjoy my time abroad.

My original flight was flying through Sol Korea, due to Worldly events I had to change everything around. I am now flying through Australia there and back and for those of you who know me, I have more chances of “Gummy Bear” this way! hahaha

Ok so now comes the packing list. I have never done this before and thankfully I had my sister who has to give me tips. I am not a backpacker, although one day I would like to try, but I am only bringing 2 carry on bags. A backpack and a small standard suitcase.

Packing List:

  • 3 soxs
  • 7 underwear
  • 3 tshirts
  • 3 shorts- all for different purposes
  • 2 pants
  • 1 skirt
  • 1 long sleeve
  • bathing suit
  • 4 tank tops
  • rain jacket
  • bandana
  • 2 flipflops- 1 for bathroom
  • hiking shoes
  • everyday slip on shoes
  • band aids
  • toothbrush/ paste
  • deodorant
  • colloidal silver
  • protein bars
  • tissue packs
  • visine
  • my hair product
  • shampoo/ conditioner
  • Imodium, migraine pills, benedryl, vitamins
  • Journal
  • small journal
  • book
  • laptop
  • camera
  • headphones
  • travel battery pack
  • extra bags to shrink down stuff

That feels like a lot but I am going for 2 months so thats what I got.

I will let you know if that is too much or if I didn’t use anything, but I am happy with my decisions for each item I am bringing.

All in all I googled and read so many blogs and did a lot of research on everything that I feel confident in the non-planning. I have many ideas and listed them so I know where I definitely want to go. But I have no set time to do them. Just going with the flow.

I get asked a lot, are you scared? Are you nervous? How can you do something like that by yourself?

Bon Voyage

The answer is this, I am excited, my nerves are jumping around for sure but in the most positive way possible. This is my birthday trip that I have been talking about doing for the past 5 years, this was going to happen. Everything happens for a reason and in Universe’s time, I am beyond grateful for the opportunity to do this solo. It’s going to be a true adventure like none other. I see so many young women and men travelling solo worldwide, there is no reason I can’t do it either. So here I am… following my joy, my happiness and most importantly my authentic self.

I will see you in Bali…

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Bittersweet Endings

My time here in Florida has come to an end. I leave this beautiful state on Saturday. I have come to Florida with the intention on being here for only 4 months and reconnecting with my sister.

Girls Day

My time here was challenging and amazing. The first 2 months were just thinking too much and not living my life to the fullest. I had no routine and was all over the place. As time progressed I realized this and decided to let it all just be. That time was January. Funny, had to clear the year and decade to move forward.

As the new year began, everything literally began to change. Mostly due to perception and acceptance. I then began to live my life in pure gratitude, again. Work dynamics changed for the better, the people I surrounded myself with changed for the better, my thoughts have been consistently positive.

I started going out and letting loose, what a relief from the way I was feeling last year. And now here it is, I am leaving. My original intentions for moving down here was to build a relationship with my younger sister and work to make some extra cash for my upcoming trip; and to check out the area, as I haven’t yet found a place I would like to root down in.

I can tell you that I now have a fabulous relationship with my sister, I did make some money and I made some life long connections.

I do love the area I live in because it reminds me of Long Beach, CA. Everything about it is so similar. However, I don’t feel this is the place for me and I am ok with my continued search. I know deep down that I will be moving over seas somewhere before the end of the year.

I will miss my people here but once again, it’s time to move on. I made sure to take Thursday and Friday off for spending time with my sister and packing. Then Saturday morning I’m off, headed back to Maine before I jump on a plane for a 2 month trip.

I am so grateful for my time here, wouldn’t have changed anything except learning of publix subs and ordering online sooner!

The end of a beautiful chapter, just to start the biggest new beginning ever…

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Art Fort Lauderdale “Artfair on the Water”

I heard about this on the radio, which I hardly listen to, and said I need to go! I heard about it on the way home from work and when I got home immediately looked it up. You take a water taxi on the intracoastal and through some of the canals in Fort Laurderdale, FL and visit million dollar homes with art throughout the entire home. This year it ran from January 23-26th.

Tickets ranged from 115 (with tax) all the way to thousands. The coolest thing about this show was that not only the art was for sale but the homes were too. And all the artists, or most, were right there as well.

As soon as I found out about this I instantly knew it would bring my super amounts of joy and happiness. I LOVE art, in all forms. Art to me is inspiring and self preserving, it tells a story of an individual that is unique to that one being. I love it!

So I bought my ticket for Friday and my boat was departing at 2pm. When I arrived at the dock I seemed to be the first one there, I was so excited I got there an hour early just to be safe. It was amazing to see all these huge yachts that are singly owned that resembled mini cruise ships. There was one, no one could stop talking about, called Aurora. Owned by billionaire Andrey Molchanov from Russia. Quite impressive. His yacht costs over 100 million. https://www.superyachtfan.com/superyacht_aurora.html

As we departed from the dock in our little water taxi, we had a mini tour of the canals and all the rich and famous who lives in the homes along the way. Quite fascinating.

All Excited…

Here is where you can view the homes that we visited… https://www.artftlauderdale.com/2020-homes–pavilions.html

The fist one, The Royal Plaza, was grande! Both in size and architecture. It was the largest house that was show casing. We had 45 minutes in each location and for this particular one, I feel you needed more time. But All the artists were there and I was able to talk to some and learn more about their pieces and themselves. It was funtastic!

The second house we visited was Lucille Drive. The house was smaller but still amazing. I personally felt this was my favorite. The art in this house was up my alley. I was in heaven!

I felt so much love walking through these homes with everyone’s love of art and appreciation. It was magical.

The 3rd and last house on our journey was called Solar Isle Drive. Cute house on the water seemed very open and spacious. The art there was all artists from the Bahamas. Supposedly the first time they all came together under one roof outside the Bahamas.

The art was light and airy and beautiful like the home it was showcased in.

All in all it was an incredible day. I loved every second of it and I had so many feelings flowing through as I meandered around. It was so amazing to get to talk to all the artists, they were just as excited as I was and we fed off of each others energy… It was great.

If you are ever in Florida, near Fort Lauderdale in January, I highly recommend going to this event. One of the best art shows I have ever been too, hands down.

Having a funtastic day!
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Defining Moments…

The most defining moment in my life that I can recall at this time is when I found my voice and stood up for myself. There are only 2 situations that I can recall that were the most profound.

There had been only one time previous that I can recall that I stood up for myself before I had this defining moment. I was working at a restaurant in New York and I was minding my own business. A new guy began working and he was kind of a bully. Every time I was at the computer he would touch the screen and order things and send them while I am trying to place the customers order. This had been going on for just over a week. Finally one day I couldn’t take it anymore. I decided at the end of the shift I was going to confront him. I walked into the back of the house and I saw my friend in the locker rooom area and then turned the corner and saw this guy clocking out.

I approached him with ease and grace and said, hey I just want you to know that I don’t appreciate you fucking with me.

He looks at me half smiling and half like omg, then says I was just joking around.

I told him, I don’t know you from a hole in the wall, you cannot joke with me like that because I don’t know you. Please stop. Are we good?

The look in his eyes, he was scared. He nodded and took off, fast.

I clocked out and my friend in the locker room heard everything and she started clapping and laughing. She looked at me with a huge smile and then we both started laughing. I walked back out to the dining area and the guy and I were walking towards each other and not on purpose. The moment he looked up from the floor and saw me, he took a quick turn and ran outta there.

Over the course of the week I hadn’t seen him anymore. He apparently quit. This seemed to be the first time I remember standing up for myself.

The next most defining moment was when I was breaking up with my ex. I had been manipulated and trapped. There was a point of awakening and I called it quits.

I came home from work at midnight, I knew I would be tired and calm. We went to the backyard and had the discussion. My ex asked if I was ready to work on us. My heart was pounding and my nerves were vibrating. My soul was screaming for me to speak my truth as I stuttered and focused on breathing. Finally it came out…. No, I’m done. I’m tired of trying.

In that moment, I realized my life was about to change dramatically. But my soul sang and my shoulders relaxed. In my head I kept saying, holy shit did I just say that… It was a major step into my authentic self. We had been together for just under 7 years I think.

My soul never felt so alive. I stayed the night and left the next day.

From that moment on, I would discover the Budderflie I am meant to be.

Everyday is a little different but I am 98% authentically myself daily. I say 98% because I am human and sometimes I get sucked into other peoples bullshit. But then I come out and breathe me back in. Trusting in self and believing in self are 2 key components to being authentically you, in my opinion.

I have so much gratitude for all my guides throughout these years. They have all helped me become the person I am meant to be. Thank you for your support in helping me find my voice and believing in me. Lots of love….

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie