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Spring Awakening

February is finally over. Let me just recap this past month for you from my own experiences. Feb 1st (a Friday) I went on an interview that wasn’t my idea, nor my soul’s idea. However, living with your parents for the first time in decades, their idealisms began to seep into my subconscious; making me believe that I needed another job and that I should go get one.

Over the weekend I came to the realization that it wasn’t mine. The interview, the idea was not mine. Monday or Tuesday I replied to their offer of acceptance and turned them down. The next morning I wake up with a locked back.

The following week, almost 99% healed, I slip on the ice and end up with whiplash for the next week. As a matter of fact, it was Valentines Day. I slowly heal from that and by the following week I am 100% better just to begin having car issues.

Literally a week to that day happened to be Friday the 1st, March. My car died. Oh my what a month.

February was a month of deep inner reflection. I honestly feel that it was for releasing my past and everything that no longer serves me now. Thoughts, beliefs, anything that had low vibrating energies were released, forcefully. lol.

Gratitude for becoming aware of all of these things allowed me to step into the light and see things, again, in a new light. In a more loving and compassionate way, with gentleness and ease.

Today marks a mercury retrograde. March 2nd, I declared that this retrograde is going to come and go with ease and grace. I am going to be shining inside and out, radiating positivity and nothing can get me down.

I just created a vision board last night. When I create vision boards, my intentions are to create, what inspires me and subconsciously everything that ends up on my boards is everything I need to hear, see or understand. This particular vision board is all about awakenings and standing in the light, being authentically me. Starting fresh, renewed, Spring awakening!

vision board
Spring Awakening 2019

And spring is literally around the corner. Having my vehicle die when it did, made me realize that I had been holding onto California for what it represented. I had been living in California on and off for my entire life. This most recent venture was for 7 years. The only other ID I’ve had was NH when I got my drivers license. I’ve lived in many states and only ID’d myself in 2. That changed in January when I became an official Maine state resident. And I never changed over my vehicle info, I was going to wait till the tags ran out but my car died before that happened.

me and my car
Just outside of Chaco Canyon New Mexico. September 2018

So looking back, subconsciously, I didn’t want to want to lose that part of me; the California identity. I already changed my ID and to change my car over it would feel permanent and my identity lost.

It took me till just now to realize this…Thank you for allowing me to spill and let it roll. That’s a huge revelation and gratitude is all I have. Wow…

Now is the time to let go. I release, and so it is. Gone

I am 100% ready for my new life and new energy.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

Blog, Metaphysical, New Beginnings, Thoughts, Uncategorized

Still February?

As we near the end of February, if it wasn’t enough for my back to go out, to acquire severe whiplash and heal from them both immediately as the next is to begin, my car starts to test me. Hahahahaha…

Today I feel great physically,  100%. I decide to run one errand outside of town about 40 mins away when I find myself down memory lane; In Arkansas.

Arkansas- I was driving cross country moving from California to Maine and I find myself in the beautiful mountains of Arkansas, Ouachita National Forest. I wanted to go hiking after meandering through Sedona and Chaco Canyon. As I drive into the forest my 2hrs deep, off the beaten path, my car starts to hiccup. 4 hours later somehow (without navigation because my phone’s decided not to work my entire trip) I make it to my hotel where I can sit and think about what is going on. I met a man who said it was a fuel injector. Long story and $400 later, I make it home.

Needless to say, today has been a long day. Great news however, I made 3 new friends, Chris (told me that it is not fuel injector, but a mass air thingy. Basically he told me I could clean it myself and see how that works before bringing it in), Troy from Napa Auto Parts in Eliot Maine (super friendly and allowed me to work on my car in the parking lot and even called places locally to get me in for an oil change. Because as I was cleaning out the mass air flow sensor I noticed I was due for an oil change.), which leads me to Dan over at Pleasant Street Garage. What a nice solid man. All 3 of these men not only assisted me with my vehicle in way or another, they made me feel better about my situation.

I do understand that everything happens for a reason, I really do, but my oh my. When you depend on your vehicle as much as you do to run awesomely to then not…Your stress level sky rockets, no doubt. It’s very nerve-racking, like, OMG get me off this road and someone fix it for free immediately! HAHAHAHAHA

Slow down and relax…

Park your vehicle, take a hot shower, have a very large glass of wine and binge watch your fav tv show…

AHHHHHHHHHH

Not gonna lie, grateful today is about to end and I can start over tomorrow. Who knows, my car might be fine after its makeover from today!

So grateful for today and learning how to just relax and breathe into it. Which I owe to yoga and floating, breathing that is. Deep breathing.

I got this…whatever the outcome, I got this!

Love, Light and Healing

Budderflie