After leaving, yet again, another place I’ve called home for the past year, I had to say so long. I left my some friends that I will surely miss. Not to mention my mum’s pup. This was the last time I will ever see him again, in waking life.
Mr. Colby, is getting ready to leave this world and move on to another life. It’s sad to watch someone you love wither away. Knowing that he isn’t in pain, is a blessing. I pray that he just falls asleep peacefully.
My friend, Miss Margret and I had a connection. She is an 82 year old German lady, who loves going to yoga, loves her garden and has a wonderful group of friends whom she has dinner with 3x’s a week. Everyday I would go to her house before work and we would have a nice visit. We would sit outside and talk about what’s bothering us, what’s making us happy; sharing stories of the past and present. It’s been a wonderful venture. And now I told her I would send her selfies everyday before work and call her. We gave hugs and put our hands in prayer and we bow, she says “Namaste”, I say “Namastgo”. We both laugh and hug and I was off.
I really don’t believe in saying goodbye, because that just feels so final. And sometimes it is.
I am so grateful for the people that have come in and out of my life. There is always a reason and a lesson that comes with everyone encounter. I am blessed to understand this and I am capable of seeing both with each encounter. Although it’s often later than sooner, but that’s because there’s a lesson.
I wish everyone I have encountered, via any form of communication, the best and know that I have much gratitude for you.
Today my mom and I had an appointment at the Singing Bowl. I personally have not had the opportunity to be bathed in sound for an hour with crystal bowls. I have my own and use them but this time I got to lay back and be immersed in sound. It was heavenly.
I am into all kinds of different healing modalities. I am open to most things, let me put this way; I have not come across something that I wasn’t willing to try. My mom isn’t versed in the metaphysical world. I try explaining some things and she shrugs, because she doesn’t understand what I am talking about.
She is working on opening her mind and spirit, little by little. She has been resistant to many things I offer to share with her. She saw her friend had runes and wanted a set of her own. I just happen to buy some on a trip and never really used them, so I gifted them to her for Christmas last year. She uses them occasionally. I’ve offered Reiki for her and she says she isn’t ready. I give Reiki to her pup all the time.
so now of course, I am leaving, she is wanting to experience things differently and with me. She found this lady and was so excited about it she scheduled the appointment for the sound bath.
We drove an hour and a half to Cornish Maine, a small quaint town. We go inside and it smells heavenly. She welcomes us in and offers us a rose and holy basil water that was simply divine. My mom lays on the massage table and I take a spot on the floor. She begins with the drum and a prayer. Then we move into our personal journey as she plays all the bowls.
Each bowl is a different note. Typically for a sound bath, people have bowls that coincide with each chakra. Each chakra has a different note.
First Chakra, Root, the color is red and the vibration it gives is Note C
Second Chakra, Sacral, Orange, Note D
Third Chakra, Solar Plexus, Yellow, Note E
Fourth Chakra, Heart, Green, Note F
Fifth Chakra, Throat, Blue, Note G
Sixth Chakra, Third Eye, Indigo, Note A
Seventh Chakra, Crown, Violet, Note B
Everything is vibration and when the bowls are ringing, you can feel it’s vibration. As I sit here writing this my body is still physically vibrating. Not as much as I was directly after but I can still feel it. They say that you will feel the effects well up to 72 hours.
We laid there for an hour of high vibrations as she played each one and then simultaneously. It was awesome. She brought us back from our restful space with the drum at the end and a closing prayer. The minute she struck the drum, my body physically vibrated; because it was a different sound than than the crystal bowls. It was a much deeper vibration. In that moment I was wondering if I was in a body of water when she struck her drum in that moment, what would my vibration look like in the water.
My mom said she saw a white outline of light leave her body. Which is impressive, the fact that she was open enough to allow such things to release from her is so awesome. I am really proud of her. She is opening up. The lady pulled 1 tarot card for the each of us before we arrived. I didn’t look at the actual card till after. Mine said “Walking Away” the number on the card was 27. My mind was blown.
I am moving on the 27th, which was not planned due to the numbers or the moon. It just so happens that it will be the new moon that day and the number 2, 7 and 9 are my numbers in numerology. 2+7=9 and I have a double 1 (11) and 7 tattooed on my wrists.
On our way there I had just purchased Louise Hay’s “You can Heal your Life”. So we were listening to it on the way there. I figured what a great way for her to hear someone so well known in the metaphysical world in my car on the way to have a sound bath.
We were very hungry afterwards and had a nice late lunch early dinner. We were hungry before the session but starving after. I find that after I do any kind of healing work, I am usually VERY hungry after.
Our drive home consisted of pure joy, in my opinion. I had a great day with my mom and enjoyed the healing that today was. So much gratitude.
As I sit back and let nature takes its course, I find myself living in gratitude.
September came and went with whirlwinds of “what am I’m going to do?”, to an amazing new opportunity.
It’s mid October and I am now moving to Florida for the next 4 months to check it out and make extra money for my upcoming trip.
My sister called and offered me a chance to check out Florida. Not only will that be awesome but I can continue to build a stronger bond with her. We are 12 years apart. So we didn’t really grow up with each other and never really saw each other that often throughout the years.
Although living with her full time isn’t the ideal situation, it’s temporary. Which makes us both feel excited.
The full moon october 13th was super ideal for me to release everything that no longer serves my greatest and highest good. I had a theta healing session in which we cleared out so much that was weighing me down. It was awesome.
I wasn’t planning this but my date to leave is october 27th which also happens to be the new moon. New moons are all about new beginnings and putting out intentions and goals. I am super stoked!
I will be driving to Florida from maine and taking my time. Visiting with my chickadee (granma) for several days, then to my aunt and uncles in South Carolina, whom I haven’t seen in over 2 decades. Then off to Jacksonville where I will see a good friend of mine whom I also haven’t seen in 2 decades. Then to my godfathers in central Florida. Then to my new home.
I am really excited for this adventure. Who knows where it’ll take me and I’m grateful for not knowing.
A new beginning to a brand new book. All old books are finished, closed and packed away.
I want to give back to those that risk their lives everyday so that I may do everything that I do. I can only imagine what our military families go through each and every day.
My story, As a kid I did not want to join the military because all I knew is that they made you cry and break you down. I wanted nothing to do with that. I was bullied throughout my school career; I certainly did not want to relive any of that. As time went on, I realized how much our military really does for us and I wanted to join because I wanted to help. By the time I decided this I was in my early 30’s and I had only a small window of opportunity. The person I was with was adamant on me not doing such things and at that time I was not capable of standing up and just doing it.
In time I found myself meditating often and found reiki. I met a woman whom I had a session and it changed my world. I knew then that I wanted what she had. I contacted her and in months to come I became a reiki master.
I wanted to give back and now I can.
I especially wanted to help active military and veterans, along with their families because I understand that what they go through isn’t just physical it’s emotional and even spiritual. The things they don’t share, eats them from the inside out and this affects family members as well.
Even though I have not been personally affected by this, I know millions are. I want to help.
I am offering to 3 individuals 3 reiki sessions for 3 weeks consecutively. Must be active, veteran, or immediate family member.
If you would like to be considered, please visit my website www.budderflie.com and contact page. Fill out the form and in the message space, please provide what is going on that you would like to receive reiki. Also please let me know how you would prefer to be contacted, via email, text or phone call. If out of country I will email, or we can zoom or skype. Also, if you are chosen, please let me know if I can announce your name online that you have been chosen. If anonymous then I will use your zip code. Upon being chosen I will ask for military ID.
I will choose 3 people at the end of this month. May 31st,
If you are not chosen, don’t worry I would like to see how
this goes and do this again, monthly.
February is finally over. Let me just recap this past month for you from my own experiences. Feb 1st (a Friday) I went on an interview that wasn’t my idea, nor my soul’s idea. However, living with your parents for the first time in decades, their idealisms began to seep into my subconscious; making me believe that I needed another job and that I should go get one.
Over the weekend I came to the realization that it wasn’t mine. The interview, the idea was not mine. Monday or Tuesday I replied to their offer of acceptance and turned them down. The next morning I wake up with a locked back.
The following week, almost 99% healed, I slip on the ice and end up with whiplash for the next week. As a matter of fact, it was Valentines Day. I slowly heal from that and by the following week I am 100% better just to begin having car issues.
Literally a week to that day happened to be Friday the 1st, March. My car died. Oh my what a month.
February was a month of deep inner reflection. I honestly feel that it was for releasing my past and everything that no longer serves me now. Thoughts, beliefs, anything that had low vibrating energies were released, forcefully. lol.
Gratitude for becoming aware of all of these things allowed me to step into the light and see things, again, in a new light. In a more loving and compassionate way, with gentleness and ease.
Today marks a mercury retrograde. March 2nd, I declared that this retrograde is going to come and go with ease and grace. I am going to be shining inside and out, radiating positivity and nothing can get me down.
I just created a vision board last night. When I create vision boards, my intentions are to create, what inspires me and subconsciously everything that ends up on my boards is everything I need to hear, see or understand. This particular vision board is all about awakenings and standing in the light, being authentically me. Starting fresh, renewed, Spring awakening!
And spring is literally around the corner. Having my vehicle die when it did, made me realize that I had been holding onto California for what it represented. I had been living in California on and off for my entire life. This most recent venture was for 7 years. The only other ID I’ve had was NH when I got my drivers license. I’ve lived in many states and only ID’d myself in 2. That changed in January when I became an official Maine state resident. And I never changed over my vehicle info, I was going to wait till the tags ran out but my car died before that happened.
So looking back, subconsciously, I didn’t want to want to lose that part of me; the California identity. I already changed my ID and to change my car over it would feel permanent and my identity lost.
It took me till just now to realize this…Thank you for allowing me to spill and let it roll. That’s a huge revelation and gratitude is all I have. Wow…
Now is the time to let go. I release, and so it is. Gone