As I sit back and let nature takes its course, I find myself living in gratitude. September came and went with whirlwinds of “what am I’m going to do?”, to an amazing new opportunity. It’s mid October and I am now moving to Florida for the next 4 months to check it out and make extra money for my upcoming trip. My sister called and offered me a chance to check out Florida. Not only will that be awesome but I can continue to build a stronger bond with her. We are 12 years apart. So we didn’t really grow up with each other and never really saw each other that often throughout the years. Although living with her full time isn’t the ideal situation, it’s temporary. Which makes us both feel excited. The full moon october 13th was super ideal for me to release everything that no longer serves my greatest and highest good. I had a theta healing session in which we cleared out so much that was weighing me down. It was awesome. I wasn’t planning this but my date to leave is october 27th which also happens to be the new moon. New moons are all about new beginnings and putting out intentions and goals. I am super stoked! I will be driving to Florida from maine and taking my time. Visiting with my chickadee (granma) for several days, then to my aunt and uncles in South Carolina, whom I haven’t seen in over 2 decades. Then off to Jacksonville where I will see a good friend of mine whom I also haven’t seen in 2 decades. Then to my godfathers in central Florida. Then to my new home. I am really excited for this adventure. Who knows where it’ll take me and I’m grateful for not knowing. A new beginning to a brand new book. All old books are finished, closed and packed away.
I had quite the adventure today as this was my first hiking adventure since Sedona last September. I recorded myself several times to document this but all I could seem to focus on was the MOSQUITOS!!!!
Mind you I have never put myself in front of the camera intending to post, this was just for me, initially. Then I decided that I am going to put myself out there just because. So here I am.
As we near the end of February, if it wasn’t enough for my back to go out, to acquire severe whiplash and heal from them both immediately as the next is to begin, my car starts to test me. Hahahahaha…
Today I feel great physically, 100%. I decide to run one errand outside of town about 40 mins away when I find myself down memory lane; In Arkansas.
Arkansas- I was driving cross country moving from California to Maine and I find myself in the beautiful mountains of Arkansas, Ouachita National Forest. I wanted to go hiking after meandering through Sedona and Chaco Canyon. As I drive into the forest my 2hrs deep, off the beaten path, my car starts to hiccup. 4 hours later somehow (without navigation because my phone’s decided not to work my entire trip) I make it to my hotel where I can sit and think about what is going on. I met a man who said it was a fuel injector. Long story and $400 later, I make it home.
Needless to say, today has been a long day. Great news however, I made 3 new friends, Chris (told me that it is not fuel injector, but a mass air thingy. Basically he told me I could clean it myself and see how that works before bringing it in), Troy from Napa Auto Parts in Eliot Maine (super friendly and allowed me to work on my car in the parking lot and even called places locally to get me in for an oil change. Because as I was cleaning out the mass air flow sensor I noticed I was due for an oil change.), which leads me to Dan over at Pleasant Street Garage. What a nice solid man. All 3 of these men not only assisted me with my vehicle in way or another, they made me feel better about my situation.
I do understand that everything happens for a reason, I really do, but my oh my. When you depend on your vehicle as much as you do to run awesomely to then not…Your stress level sky rockets, no doubt. It’s very nerve-racking, like, OMG get me off this road and someone fix it for free immediately! HAHAHAHAHA
Slow down and relax…
Park your vehicle, take a hot shower, have a very large glass of wine and binge watch your fav tv show…
Not gonna lie, grateful today is about to end and I can start over tomorrow. Who knows, my car might be fine after its makeover from today!
So grateful for today and learning how to just relax and breathe into it. Which I owe to yoga and floating, breathing that is. Deep breathing.
I got this…whatever the outcome, I got this!
Love, Light and Healing
This month has been very interesting so far…
Ever feel like it’s just one thing after another? Well, this month has been like that for me and its only been 14 days.
Feb 2 I had an art show at a holistic expo. I met a woman named Rebecca Packard. Wasn’t exactly sure what she did as far as her services go. But this is what she does…
Rebecca Packard- Certified Body Code & Emotion Code Practitioner.
Whatever that means, right?!
Well, I wanted to know. She asked me what I wanted cleared, blockages wise. I said abundance. We can all use that, just saying. Anyways, I allow her into my energy field and I started to ask her questions. She was in her zone and started saying words out loud. I felt the need to write them down. By the end it was a rather large list I had written and she looks at me and says, you are released and cleared of that list you wrote down. I look at the list and was like, ok, I’m going with it. She explained how I keep myself safe from allowing those things happen to me again and that was that.
After leaving her, I physically felt different. We described as emotionally drunk. I literally felt like I was buzzed but had nothing to drink. It was really cool to try something different. I have added her to me support team, as I feel it’s important to have people help the healers.
By the end of the weekend I noticed I had a huge bruise on my left calf. Weird because I don’t recall banging my leg against anything. I let it go as it got blacker and bluer.
Sunday night I checked my emails before bed, I don’t suggest doing that by the way, and I read an acceptance letter from an interview I had on that previous friday, Feb 1st. Thats great that I got the job and all but my soul knows what I need. When my work schedule changed to only working 3 shifts a week. I was grateful. I can have more ME time. My hearts desire said we will not be getting another job so we can do just that, self-care and love. That was back in Dec maybe.
The only reason I went on this interview, as it turns out, was because now that I live with my parents, their belief systems do not match mine. Some of the things would say to me crept into my subconscious mind and next thing you know I’m beginning to think, I have no money, OMG! I need a job, all in a frantic. Rebecca helped clear their belief systems out of me.
So when I read the email before bed, I was so nervous about how I was going to respond. So much so that I woke in the morning and my center lower back was locked. Not like sciatica problems, like disc problems. I could barely move.
Lower back issues have to do with security, finances, stability, fear. Needless to say I had to figure out exactly what was going on and I did. My parents old belief systems and my fear of how to respond. Becoming aware of what your body is telling is huge. When things like this happen, that’s what I try to do immediately so I am not in pain.
So after meditating on it and asking my guides for their assistance my back started to feel better, I did also go to the chiropractor because that always helps!
So right in the end of my healing for my back, my pelvic area begins to hurt, which then became excruciating. I was laid up on the floor where I had been stretching my back for the past week and my mom comes in and says, are you ok? Did it get worse? I told her it has nothing to do with my back, but it certainly was affecting it, for sure.
I texted my friends in California, asking for their help. They both responded, saying that basically I havent truly given myself full attention, it was suggested to feed my goddess. Like if you don’t wear lipstick to work, start. I have been wanting a pedi-cure, so i am going to go get one. Self Love, Self Care, Self Pamper. Wine and dine myself, if you will.
Which makes absolute sense. That all happened yesterday. After we figured that out, my pelvic area started to not hurt so bad.
I woke up this morning feeling great. I went outside to go see about moving my car, from all the ice and snow, I don’t even make it to my car and I slip and fell totally on my back. Thank god I had my hood on because I smacked that pretty good.
I feel that my fall this morning had to do with reminding me what I need to do. Feed my goddess. I woke up feeling great, thinking nothing of going through my morning routine. Not thinking about what yesterdays events taught me. So for me to slip on this ice was a solid reminder that the information rcvd yesterday has solidified into a compact state so that I may internalize it.
I look up everything, someone has been through exactly what I have been through so somewhere out there, there is helpful information. This last one about ice and falling…
In case you have something you want to look up… I always type in
“spiritual meaning of…”
Usually something that resonates with me comes up.
Love, Light and Healing
I just kind of got settled in my old home town of York Maine. I flew into Boston on Saturday and I will be here till September.
I have settling in and in doing so I wanted to look around for like minded people. So I went on Meetup.com where I had found most of my like minded friends in California. I found a local meetup in Portsmouth, NH for a sound and reiki healing meditation. I had no expectations walking into it.
There ended up being 3 reiki masters including myself, we went around the room to about 15 or so people. We each did reiki on someone, I happen to work on 4 women. It was a mix of men and women.
It was great, I enjoyed helping these women. At the close of the meetup, I went to each of the women that I performed reiki on and told them what I felt and saw. One woman cried as she hugged me in gratitude. I was able to meet each of their spirit guides and share them with the ladies, individually of course.
My spiritual coach/ friend/ teacher/ guide and I did the ceremony last Wednesday before I left California to start on my new journey, she looked at me and said you are about to start your journey over there as a teacher. You are no longer a student. And she is right, everything that I am doing or saying is affecting the ones close to me. For the greatest and highest good.
I am truly blessed to be on this new journey and very excited to meet new people. This is no longer a chapter in a book, this is definitely a sequel.
Love, Light and Healing