Being here in Bali has shown me that I need to just do me at all costs. Since the beginning of this amazing adventure I was at the mercy of my own intuition…going on my first solo trip out of country and then this covid thing happened.
As I met new people and began hearing everyone’s concerns and situations I started getting wrapped up in their emotions and decisions.
I had taken a step back and realized that they weren’t mine to take on and so I left the emotions behind and continued on with my intuition.
Around this time August 11th, there has been a wide spread panic about everyone’s visa situation. The Indonesian government announced that everyone here in a free visa/ visa exempt needed to leave by August 10th. That was July 14th. Over the course of those weeks, more people stresses over the visas than anything else. Flights are still being cancelled and so many people have no way of leaving. And if they are like me, we don’t want to leave at all, especially to America at this time.
The last week of July the Indonesian government made a second announcement saying that the deadline has been pushed to August 20. All other visa holders just need to extend their visas with no problems.
I came here on the free visa/ visa exempt so I needed to figure out how to get on the social visa before it was too late. Everyone I spoke to had so many different ideas. I have no clue what I am doing and all I could do was listen to everyone.
Going through an agency is super challenging because who can you really trust. The prices were so high. It’s not cheap to go through an agency but I really needed assistance going through the process. I was going to wait for more information and nothing came. My friends kept saying they are gonna wait…and we were all gonna do it together.
Yesterday was the last day for free visa holders to handle their shenanigans. I finally stepped out of everyones energy surrounding the visa crisis and went last Friday and handled it. I went yesterday to pay for it. Most of my friends didn’t do anything. I was worried about them u til I realized that it’s not mine and let it go.
If they are meant to stay then Bali will keep them, but when Bali is ready for you to move on you will know it. That’s a fact!
So with that being said I am learning my lessons with ease and grace. My lessons in the past have been aggressive and abrasive. Some things you would think I would have learned them already but when it creeps in like this clearly I have not. But I feel that these things were just reminders for me to stay in me and continue to listen to my needs.
I am so blessed to be in this position and the ability to see clearly. Forever grateful to Bali, the island of gods, for accepting me and welcoming me with open arms…
As you know I am in Bali. I haven’t been doing too much because everything is closed down, tourist wise. My purpose of this trip was to visit six particular places and feel the energy vibes as they are sort of like vortex’s here in Bali; supposedly like Sedona Arizona. Universe clearly has other plans for me…
I have been getting all wrapped up in everyone else’s shenanigans and haven’t been focusing on mine. Sure I meditate and work out and eat better than I ever have before. I am doing much self care but I came here for the energy. I have been staying in and not going out very much except for the weekends. I have visited some new beautiful places but haven’t been sitting and feeling the energy as much as I would like.
A friend of mine, Kim, asked me if I have seen any healers yet. When I first got here I went straight to the mountains and it was heaven on earth. When I came down from the mountains I was to go to Cambodia and that got cancelled. I was ok with that, I had to be. But then I started thinking of my Visa and how I could extend my visa during this crisis. Everyone wanted me to come home, ok not everyone, just family. I understood why but my heart and soul said otherwise.
From that point till now, I had been not listening to my highest self. I have been listening to my intuition but that’s why we have amazing people in our lives to remind us why we are here. Thank you Kim for reminding me of what I needed to do.
I found a Balinese healer named Cokorda Rai. I was doing some research and his name popped up a few times. They say he does not do appointments and he opens his doors at 9. People line up to see him and supposedly he only sees people for 2-5 minutes and moves on to the next. They said to get there early. I was so super excited.
As most of you know I am a Reiki master and understand how energy moves and works through the body. I immediately contacted my driver Rai and set it up with him to pick me up and take me there. Apparently, Rai lives 5 mins away from him in Ubud. I am in Seyminak which is about 1 hour away.
We made plans for him to pick me up at 8 am. I was so excited, Kim had sent me that morning a link to Gaia TV- 6th Floor: Expanding Possibility. It was 30 mins of amazing awareness. I watched it and knew I was on the right path. Ever more excited I attempted to go to sleep.
I don’t think I slept but for 4 hours, do to much excitement. I got up and got ready and met Rai outside for 8am. We were off.
When we pull in to the compound, there is only one woman doing morning offerings. Rai spoke with the young woman and showed us to an area. We walk up and sat down on the cement while we waited.
She came back out and asked me questions about my health and where I’ve been, she had told me to go wash my hands and wait. I did as told and nervous because Rai wasn’t even sure that he would do any healings because of corona. The young lady came back out and said we just have to make sure because my father is very old. I said absolutely.
Another woman helped Cokorda out to where we were sitting and helped him sit. Just the sight of him I felt overwhelmed with joy and gratitude. This amazing man whom I have never met is going to tell me whatever I need to know in this very moment and assist me in releasing it. Whether it’s actually him and his mudras or he is just a conduit, either way, WOW…
He calls me forward. I stand before him, he speaks ever so softly and he asks for my name. He asked me what I have a problem with, I told him nothing, that I was going to see what you thought. He told me to sit with my back against him and in front of him. So I did. He touch all over my head, shoulders and arms. He said in my right ear, pain. Left ear good. Right ear pain, no happiness. (thinking back as I write this maybe I was mistaking happiness for gratitude. I am very grateful for every moment I’m in but maybe not happy. Regardless it’s all been released and is gone now.)
He then told me to lay down on the ground. So I moved to the floor where I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. He moved his hands all over my body in motions as to unstick energy. Then he sits me up and shows me how to move. He guides me to do it myself and we sat there doing it together. He then whispers in my ear, love is coming, be patient.
We do several more rounds of releasing energy. When we were finished, he looks at me and says every time you look in the mirror, laugh and scoop up your laughter and eat it. You stay happy. I said easy, I can do that…I honestly loved the idea of that. So we practiced.
When finished he sits back down on his chair and asks me to come over. You come back again, love is on it’s way…
I stook up and thanked him for his service and Rai and I walked away. As we were walking Rai looked at me in disbelief. He said he never sits with people for that long, maybe 2-5 mins. You sat with him for 10-20 mins. I don’t recall because there was no such thing in those moments.
Rai then turned to me again and said you have good karma, they aren’t even open because of everything. But he was willing to see you. I had to sit for a minute before getting in the car because of the way my body felt and for the sheer fact of overwhelming gratitude.
The best way to describe the way my body felt was like my insides were vibrating at a very high level starting from my solar plexus and throughout the day went all the way up through my crown chakra. I felt light headed, dizzy, clear. It was the feeling I had after having my first Reiki session with my friend Cathy.
I needed time to feel and reflect. I was hoping there would be a space to do such things but I was with my driver Rai and I was an hour away from home. I wasn’t ready to go home either. Funny, as I sit here writing about it, I can feel the energies within and feel the way I did yesterday.
Rai drove me around, we stopped at a couple of temples and one I got to sit and be with for some time. So I did exactly that. I sat and felt and prayed in front of the temple. Not sure what I was praying for but I felt that, that’s what I needed to do. I took some pictures and we moved on.
The next Temple we stopped at is a famous Temple Batuan (sounds like batwan). I could only see so much as the gates were closed. But I took pictures anyways. It was beautiful and amazing. Just like all of them.
Rai decided we were gonna go check out the waterfall anyways. We knew it was closed but he thought that we might be able to actually see it anyways, even from a distance. So off we were. Sure enough we found it and we drove to as far as we could. Thankfully he is local, so we were able to walk down to where all the restaurants were. In that very moment I was sad that I never got a picture on a swing. When we got to the vista point I took some pictures and Rai called out to me and pointed…There was a wicker seat that is like the swings but stationary. I was totally stoked. I sat there and enjoyed the view in my little wicker seat. Took it all in.
We then decided it was time to head back. It was still morning time. Rai said he was going to take me through Kuta, so I asked him if this little spot in Sanur was on the way. He said sure, I wanted to pick up another sarong (which BTW is pronounced sa-roong). When we pull up to the spot, they were open.
I get out of the vehicle and I honestly have no idea how this happened but my right thumb got stuck in the door. I have no idea, I pulled it out and looked at it…It was getting creepier and creepier by the millisecond. I ran into the cafe and begged for ice. They brought some out and I was almost in tears. I stopped and practiced my breathing, but it didn’t help. I busted out some Reiki while standing there and held my thumb in between my hands. One of the guys was like omg, you need to go see the doctor, he’s next door. I looked at him and gave him a half laugh. Knowing they couldn’t do anything for me.
I then decided to hurry up and look for what I wanted. The young lady came over to help me open them up so I could see all the patterns. I ended up walking away with 2. I got back in the car and we drove home. Rai had no idea what happened. I was still in shock.
I get home and look up what that meant. I mean really I just saw the healer and this happens maybe an hour later???? I have mentioned in past blogs that when I have a situation I usually look it up by typing in, spiritual meaning of…
Short explanation: the will to receive something (help, favor, care, recognition, love, money…) is in a subtle way not allowed to be recognized or expressed
For a more detailed look..check out his link. Pretty on point. Jeez…
So, after reading that and trying to sit with self and assist in the healing of my thumb I realized that I need to be more assertive in my actions and become more aware of these particular aspects…the willingness to receive.
Ok, it’s still early in the day, time to nap on that…
But then a few days later, I stub my left big toe. Oh jeez…the Universe is really yelling at me. That means, sit and be still. It is your ether toe, you spiritual connection. Oh boy…
Ok, so now I have my work cut out for me, no pun intended. Today I sat woke up and watched a facebook live with my friend Cathy. She channels Rosemary. I was inspired by her words and actions so much so that I decided I would try channeling. I let her know what I was going to do and of course I had all the support.
After I texted her I went upstairs and sat upright, put my awesome headphones on and listened to some binaural beats for channeling on youtube. I was in it, I was told that I am not ready (sad face). Instead we talked and I asked some questions and after a while the Divine Consciousness told me to go buy a plant and come back later. I was like, ok.
I went out and found a plant at a place that translates to mighty flora. Flora is the name of my one of my higher aspects of self, pretty cool. Anyways, I ended up buying a Jasmine plant and it has 2 buds on it.
I brought it home and I decided to wait till sunset to meditate again. When I finally did, they told me that when the buds start to bloom I will be ready. Until then, come back every morning and evening. I got so excited so. I feel that my flowers will at least begin to bloom by the next full moon, which is the Flower SuperMoon; May 6th. We shall see.
So I have discovered that Bali is an island of mystery, really about karma. There’s a lot more than just karma but I’ve noticed more about the karma aspects with my roommates since living with them. Any time one of my roommates says something, they get hit with karma. Not always but when they joke around something tends to happen, which tends to happen more often than not. It’s quite funny actually.
Example: Aric was making fun of one of our friends, because her bike had a crack on it and he made fun of her and her driving skills. She turned and looked at him and said no someone hit me there. Aric then took a step back and burned his leg right on the exhaust of his own bike. Karma.
This has been happening all around me. I cannot keep up these guys but these were the 2 most recent examples.
So yesterday we were going to go for a ride and see if we could find any vistas near Uluwatu. One of the girls, Putri mentioned a beach, she said no promises but we can check.
So we cruise that way and we rode down a very windy road till we came to a dead end; which was the beach entrance. There was a sign that says beach closed and the pathway was semi blocked. I didn’t want to go down there, because I’m in another country and all the beaches are closed. I don’t want to run into any problems, but I am with a couple of locals gratefully. When we pulled up to the dead end, I noticed a couple of ladies chilling on a cement wall next to their scooters (they were clearly not from Bali). Charly says this is like straight from a horror movie and we all kinda laughed. Aric says, if this is a horror movie than you are the first to go and then me and then Jen. lol. We all laughed.
Putri suggested that we hide our bikes behind that car, pointing further away. No one can see the sign but it says private parking. As we all started moving our bikes behind the car, the girls that we saw on the wall started yelling at us. They had already driven to the paved part of the road. Aric walked over to them as Putri spoke to a man behind a gate yelling to her. So much happening all at the same time.
Aric comes back and Putri comes back and Aric said that the 2 girls, their tires were slashed; both front and back. Putri says that the man doesn’t want us parking on his property. The minute Aric spoke I was on my bike and backed it out. They were trying to figure out where else to park and walk down. I said no way man, I do not want to be a part of your horror story that is unfolding.
Seriously, they put it out there in the universe and it showed up the way it did…so grateful that we didn’t go down to the beach. The slashed tires would have been ours. When we got back to the main road we passed the ladies at a bike shop, trying to get their tires fixed.
I keep telling them (my roommates- Aric and Charly) be careful what you put out into the universe, she is listening to every word…
It is April 1st, Midnight and I woke up refreshed and energized. Ready for an intense morning (good intense). So grateful for my guides and angels for waking me up with ease and grace.
I usually require an hour of waking up before I am entirely ready to roll out. So I did my morning thing and next thing you know it’s 1:15am. Eka was going to be here by then but he ddin’t arrive till just about 2am. Which totally meant I could’ve slept longer but it’s all good because my angels were by my side.
There were 5 of us; Eka, Ayu, Ervina, Arik and I rolling out. The drive was long, Eka drove all morning. It took us about an hour and a half. We got there somewhere around 3:30am. Everyone kept going in and out of sleep except for Eka and I. I wanted to see everything in darkness and I did. When we were coming up to the mountains you could see the valley and the silhouettes of the mountains in the back ground. It was so beautiful.
We somehow meet our guide on the side of the road in the dark after listening to Jennifer Lopez on repeat for about 45 mins. We follow him to drop off his bike and he hops in the car with us and we continued to some point where we finally parked. We all got out slowly and got our shit together. Our guide Budi gave us all flashlights and we began.
OMG!!! We turn to the road we are supposed to hike up and it is literally at a 85% or more upgrade! I started breathing through my nose and walking very slowly. Arik and Budi were way far ahead of all of us. The girls were struggling, but apparently more than I, Ervina was hung over I come to find out and she is hiking at 4am straight up a hill. Yep that was intense. Every time we would crawl to what seemed like flat road, it was only for 2 steps before it went to a 90% upgrade.
Many breathing breaks were taken and my legs felt like they were going to fall off, but we all kept going. Not really sure how long it was before we made it to the top. Arik and I talked about it after saying that if we saw the road in the daylight we probably wouldn’t have wanted to do it; but because we couldn’t see it except with the flashlight, I felt it made it much easier, if that’s even possible. That was so super challenging.
When made it to the final hill and I stopped for a second and sprinted up. I am not sure where the energy came from but I did and when I got up there all you could see were the stars and the villages’ lights down below. We weren’t actually on Mt Batur as it is a tourist attraction and it was closed but we went to another location to where you can see it clearly and on the other side which I had no idea but was the ocean.
The stars were incredible and the night view were epic.
As the sun began to come up everything became even more beautiful and amazing. It was breathtaking. Heaven on Earth. Looking out watching the clouds roll over the ocean that looked like glass, wow. The view was incredible. Straight from Heaven…
Oh the fun we had up there.
I have this fear of ledges but while here in Bali I feel as if my fears have dissipated (excpet for the lake stuff)- lol. It’s a strange thing. I have this thing about ledges, not to be confused of heights. I have no fears around heights but ledges I absolutely do. I almost fell off the grand canyon as a kid, I’ve been pushed off a ledge I was sitting on about 6 feet up and fell on my back and couldn’t breathe. I went to face my fears in Spain and I was standing on the ledge with everyone else and was looking out when the tour guide came up to me and fake pushed me towards my death; I was looking out over a the city from a castle and it was a giant drop to nowhere land. So here I am in Bali and I climb up this ladder and sit on a ledge with zero fear. I even let my feet dangle. It was so beautiful. Back home I wouldn’t even walk towards the ledge of a waterfall in fear of falling. Maybe when I go back I can try that again.
We stayed for a bit longer and took more beautiful and fun pictures before we decided to trek back down. Everyone was ready for coffee, but me; lol. As we began our trek down we were actually now able to see everything we passed along the way up. We came to a little cross in the road and there were a couple of warungs. They picked one and ordered coffee. She made 5 cups of coffee but I think she had to make one at a time. We were there for a while., which was fine because now that it was morning, everyone was moving about and they were everywhere. Coming and going on the motorbikes from every direction.
Everyone enjoyed their coffee and it was time to descend from this place. Getting ready to witness the actual road in daylight.
Seriously, just look at those roads!! Anyways, we finally made it to the bottom and everyone was grateful. We crawled back into the car and dropped off Budi back at his bike. We all decided it would be a great idea to go to the hot springs. Being that were are here and it was open. We went. No one brought a bathing suit so we all just went in our underwear and it was so perfect for after what we endured all morning with our legs.
We get out of the car and it was 50k each for Arik and I. So we paid and we all got in. It wasn’t what I had in mind at all but that’s why I try to hold no expectations. We all undressed down to our scivies and jumped in. The big middle one was warm, not hot but there were 3 pools entirely so we checked all of the out. There was a small local family showering in the showers when we got here and by the time we were all ready to get in the water the family had left. We had the entire place to ourselves. It was kinda nice, but it’s been like that everywhere we’ve gone since Arik and I have joined forces.
We began to dry off and I had to finally pee. Here it was, I went into the bathroom to scope out the scene. It seemed like a toilet but there was no flusher, no toilet paper, no hose to rinse off, no garbage. So I walked back out and grabbed my toilet paper, handled it and threw away the tissue in the trash near the showers. I tried very much to not touch anything. lol.
So we finish up and shower and get back in the car. Arik is now driving for the first time with the stick shift on the left not right. He was having a blast, they asked me if I wanted to but I said no. Too many people and other vehicles, I just wanted to see what we all missed while driving here. Arik pulled over at a restaurant he thought might be open and switched drivers, So Eka was back to driving.
As we were driving through the little villages I kept seeing spider webs. When we pulled into the busy part of the village where everything is neck in neck I looked up and saw all the spider webs; but this time there were handfuls of those big huge spiders and they were everywhere. I almost rolled up the window in fear of one jumping in, but I knew better- they were on the other side of the web. They would have to crawl around to the other side and jump. oooohhhh gross. I ended up seeing one as big as my 2 hands together, including the legs! That shit was gnarly. I told everyone there that there is no way I could live in these villages. I didn’t get any pictures but they were the same spiders as the video in my previous blog.
By now we are all starving. We found a place that was open as many places are not. We pull in and walk up. The view was of Mt Batur and it was stunning.
We sat down and everyone but me had some weird looking fish that was farmed right down below in the Lake Batur. I ordered chix satay and rice with vegetables. What came out was not what I thought. The rice was spicy so I ordered white rice and that little thing next to the egg was the pc of chicken. A different cut and not how I have been served satay thus far, but I ate it anyways. It was fine, just kinda bland and boring. Everyone else was having fun with their fish… ehh. lol
Now I have no clue what time it is, but I am pretty sure it’s still morning like 9am or something. We pack it in once again and now everyone is tired after eating and relaxing in the hot springs. But we apparently are still on quest. Our destination was a temple in Ubud.
But first we had to get out of here. Our drive was long as more people were out driving and everyone fell asleep except me and Eka who was driving. I helped keep him awake as best as I could.
We finally get to the temple and it is closed down to tourists. We were told we could walk to the temple gates but not allowed to enter. So we walked. It was nice to get out of the car for a bit. Puri Tirta Empul Temple. People come here to be purified and wash away the old. These were the only pictures I could get without going in. Still very beautiful.
We left here and headed home. It had been the longest day ever. It was somewhere between 330- 5pm by the time we got back. I jumped in the pool to lower my body tempertautre and Arik decided to order some food now and probably eat it for dinner. I satyed awake till it came and went in for a nap. I was going to save mine for later.
I slept about 2 hours and woke up, didn’t really want to get up but I figured if I didn’t then I would wake up at midnight again. So I got up ate my food hung out for about an hour or so and went right back to bed.
Today marks the day I got on the motor bike here. This morning, we woke up and relaxed for a bit. There’s no pool here so staying as cool as possible in doors, but it was time to check out the beach. I would’ve gone to the beach for sunrise but i didn’t know how to get there and I certainly didn’t want to go by myself in the dark. We got ready to go on an adventure and started our quest to the beach.
As we walked passed a few warungs and rice fields and jungle territory, we happen to come across this HUGE spider having breakfast…
It was already so hot outside but we trekked on. We passed a rice field and a man seemed to be plowing the field in this old kind of manual tractor. It was neat to watch as we stopped to take a picture in the blistering sun. The farmer was nothing but smiles…
We meandered down the street and eventually came to a dirt walkway to the beach. It led us straight to the river outlet. As we approached there was several people sitting around conversing in Balinese, so we just smiled and said hello. They smiled and watched us walk to the edge of the bank. The area was wooded an had cement cylinder banks along the river. We stepped up and looked out. There was no beach, just an outlet to the water, muddy water. There was no way we were going in the water from where we were.
We turned around and walked back the path in which we came from. We decided to take right at the fork where we didn’t go before and follow that to see if that led us to somewhere different. Of course it did, same area, no beach but more open view. In order to get there, however, we had to walk through a hotel. The hotel was closed much like every hotel in Bali, but there were people inside and it seemed like they were doing some construction of some kind. So my curiosity drew me further inside till I made it in the foyer; or the open space of a living space.
There was staff hanging out having lunch as it seemed and they all scattered when we walked in. A man approached us and I asked if we could walk through and see the place. It was beautiful, apparently a few different owners, from Holland and India. Everything seemed so luxurious. He allowed us to walk through to the ocean front of the property. I stood at the edge of the property looking out onto the water. I wish I could say it was beautiful but I couldn’t. In fact, as I stood there i looked down where the river meets the ocean and there lie a dead dog rolling in and out with the waves. It was so sad. I stepped back immediately and sent the poor thing love and light.
I understand that the body is just a capsule and the soul has already left but it is still dis-heartening to see such things. As we began walking back the way we came, the gentleman showed us the master room. They were so nice, fortress like. Of course everything was under construction, but there were 6 rooms and he said some people rent out the whole place for a week at $900 USD. That was appealing to Aric, him and his friends travel frequently.
We walked out of there, not without a business card for after the Covid era, and made our way through the heat back to the pad. We decided it was nap time, being so hot, my body’s temperature was pretty high. So resting was a great idea, besides I’m an avid napper.
When we got up it was time to rent a motor bike. If I am to learn how to ride in the streets in Bali, here was the place to learn. We ordered a motor bike and it arrived an hour later. We got ready and off we were.
Not gonna lie, it was a little weird at first, as it’s been a long while. I followed Aric and we moved about on the back roads for a bit. We went to a few beaches and parked and stood there looking out among all the locals.
We stopped by another turtle sanctuary but it was closed but there were paths all around so we decided to to follow them. The one passed the turtle sanctuary led to the beach. We passed by a beautiful temple with banyan trees all around.
Then it was time to go through major intersections. Gratefully the lights were working so we followed suit. We stopped at the mini mart for some goodies and sat down for a bit. When we were ready to go again, Aric told me that he will follow me, I wasn’t ready at that moment to ride down the main road yet, so we trekked on the back roads for a bit longer.
The sun was going down soon and it was time to try the main road. I followed Aric to the busy street, almost like a route 1 in New England but the cars go faster. Nothing to look at for locals. So I follow Aric, we stayed to the left and everything was fine and dandy until a whole slew of cars come out of nowhere behind me. hahahaha.
I did fine, it was just like they weren’t there and then they were. So anyways, there’s no where to turn around for several km. Aric sees the opportunity and takes it, I follow suit. Because you are driving on the opposite side of the road, it made the turn we took seem challenging. But I did it and raced across the intersection and back towards the pad we go. Bugs and dry eyes. Yummm…hahaha. We both had some serious bug action on the way back, made me not want to ride in the dark if I don’t have to. I mean HUGE bugs…
When we made it back we made fried rice and had dinner. Sat outside for a few and a little grasshopper joined the party. Just in time before we called it a night.