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Bali Day 6

Waking at 4am this morning was not cool, but in lieu of everything going on in the world I decided to do some research. I found more places closing and decided that I am going to have to stay in Bali! oh darn…

I called home to see what my parents found out, as I delegated some tasks of research. We found the number to the embassy and my dad emailed them in regards to my situation. I shared with my parents my thoughts on everything and let it all go. After all, today is my last day and I want to enjoy every second I have left here.

Passion Fruit, Mangosteen Fruit, Snakeskin Fruit, Rambutan Fruit

I had an appointment at 8am for a reiki session from a dear friend Cathy Abeyta in California. I laid down on the napping bed and we facebook video chat. We went through all the chakras and found out some pretty amazing things. I released so much that was no longer needed. Quite honestly I’m not sure what was released and I don’t need to know. I felt so much lighter, like a feather taken by the wind. It was amazing. So blessed to have had such a shift while here in this magical place. We pulled cards, asking a question about my situation with the visa, Universe has plans for me and I need not worry. She validated everything I knew and was feeling.

Feeling blissful, I reach out to Vipin. We were going to go to the waterfalls for one last hoorah. Even the girls came with us, it was so fun. We trekked down a hidden trail and this time I wore my hiking shoes. Glad I did. Another day in paradise as we approached the waterfall. We were a group 5. We were the only ones there for a few minutes.

Tours started to come in and so did the couple that came to Wavi the day before, my neighbors. We all played in the water, skipped some rocks and watched people take all their instagram photos. Yuni built some of her rock formations and everyone was having a grand time. We were the last to leave this beautiful place and in perfect timing as it started to sprinkle. Which would eventually turn into a down pour.

When we got back Vipin was going to head out to another village to stay for a few nights. So we said our see you laters and went our separate ways.

I went and packed everything I could, I figure I will get up at 5 anyways, and pack the rest. I will be sad to leave here. I found out that everything in this little village is closing too. I will be picked up at 930am and head to Kuta. I was going to Kuta so I would be closer to the airport. But now I am not going to Cambodia so I get to actually start planning my trip; sort of. I have a list of places I was intending on going so when I get to Kuta I can take a look and map it out.

But first thing first, Thursday morning I will go to the immigration office and figure out what is going on; and take it from there. In the meantime, a fellow GLT’r (Girls Love Travel) is in Bali as well. We planned to meet for dinner tomorrow night somewhere. So I will contact her when I get down there and see what we can make happen.

Blessed

I hope wherever you are in this World, I pray that you are safe and kind to others. Everyone has their own version of whats going on and their own feelings towards the events that are taking place.

Be loving and compassionate as you only have this very moment…

Spread Love ~ Not Fear

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Out with the Old and In with the New…

As I sit back and let nature takes its course, I find myself living in gratitude. September came and went with whirlwinds of “what am I’m going to do?”, to an amazing new opportunity. It’s mid October and I am now moving to Florida for the next 4 months to check it out and make extra money for my upcoming trip.  My sister called and offered me a chance to check out Florida. Not only will that be awesome but I can continue to build a stronger bond with her. We are 12 years apart. So we didn’t really grow up with each other and never really saw each other that often throughout the years. Although living with her full time isn’t the ideal situation, it’s temporary. Which makes us both feel excited. The full moon october 13th was super ideal for me to release everything that no longer serves my greatest and highest good. I had a theta healing session in which we cleared out so much that was weighing me down. It was awesome. I wasn’t planning this but my date to leave is october 27th which also happens to be the new moon. New moons are all about new beginnings and putting out intentions and goals. I am super stoked! I will be driving to Florida from maine and taking my time. Visiting with my chickadee (granma) for several days, then to my aunt and uncles in South Carolina, whom I haven’t seen in over 2 decades. Then off to Jacksonville where I will see a good friend of mine whom I also haven’t seen in 2 decades. Then to my godfathers in central Florida. Then to my new home. I am really excited for this adventure. Who knows where it’ll take me and I’m grateful for not knowing. A new beginning to a brand new book. All old books are finished, closed and packed away.

My home in Maine. The view I am leaving behind for the winter. Looking forward to seeing what my new view will look like!
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Cactus Ceremony

After some time of not having internet access, I am back. This past Wednesday I participated in a Cactus Ceremony.

The intention for Cactus Ceremony is to open your heart space and allow healing. You are asked to come with your personal intentions on what you would like to heal.

For me, my intention was to heal everything that hasn’t been cleared (energetically) from my past up unto this point. So that I may move forward free and clear, open and ready to receive.

In my life at this time, I was preparing to leave Central California and go back East to see my mom and my step dad (Whom I’ve only started talking to in the past year, after 2 years of not speaking). I have healed all of my childhood wounds that came forward, however there are a several things that have been brought to my attention and in my recent past that needed healing. My intention was to clear that. And I did.

It was a 4 part ceremony. We meditated and spoke of our personal lives and pulled oracle and tarot cards. Every card pulled was on point, more of a confirmation than anything.

 

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Our Alter

 

As it turns out this entire ceremony was based on us trusting, valuing, having confidence, and understanding ourselves. Every card pulled had the word trust in it. We had set an alter and I had placed my shungite Merkabah on the alter and on top of it I placed a little stone with the word trust on it. Not knowing that the entire ceremony would be based on that word alone. Shungite is a beautiful crystal that assists in purification, most importantly for me, emotional balance. I was leaving a place I had come to know and appreciate with amazing people and I was heading to a place where I was not accepted as I child. I am a woman now and I really don’t have many fears, if at all. But nonetheless I was about to embark on a journey of the unknown. Unknowing of the outcome, so this particular crystal found me and I use it daily.

Part of the trusting, is listening to yourself. When something doesn’t sit right with you, why? what is the feeling? The sooner I can recognize the sooner I can adjust it and work on it and it will dissipate. Awareness is the key factor. If you are not aware then there is no way you can trust yourself. Because trusting yourself is listening to yourself. It really is a beautiful thing.

The last segment of the ceremony is, how can I assist the Cactus medicine in it’s healing. I thought about it for a minute and then it just came out, I am going to create a sacred space for myself wherever I go.

If you are in spiritual awareness you KNOW that you are sacred.

Well, after I said that I started thinking that I can use physical items to help me create these sacred spaces. Then, as if lightening struck, I said no I AM SACRED.

I, at that exact moment, UNDERSTOOD that I am sacred. I can say I know forever but do you really understand? I most certainly do. I now totally understand that I am sacred and I am sacred space.

When we were closing ceremony, my friend was taking us through the closing prayer and the minute she said letting go the candle burnt out. It truly was magical. So many synchronistic things were happening all night and the messages were all so loud and clear. It was beautiful.

After we closed ceremony my friend decided she was going to take a shot. I have not had a drink in 10 years. I quit drinking because my best friend said I had a problem and if I didn’t stop I would die. Then she told me she didn’t think I could do it. So I had to prove her wrong. So I stopped and did the whole AA thing.

I drank because I was running away from my problems. I couldn’t handle them without being drunk. I have gone through so much healing that I no longer have anything that I run from.

So when my friend decided to have a drink, I thought about it. I couldn’t even finish my thought before my spirit guides said it’s ok, you can have a drink. It’s about trust, right? I am so used to being put into a category of Alcoholics that society will judge me if I take a drink. That is my human side if thinking, logical, practical, old ideas and beliefs. I have learned throughout the past couple of years that I does not matter what anyone thinks of you and you just do you. Do what makes you happy and makes your heart sing.

So now the crossroads have become, do I not take a drink because society says I can’t? Or do I take a drink because I trust that I am a completely new within myself?

I am doing me and I listen to myself today! I poured 1/2 a shot of Jameson Whiskey. Every time my friend took a shot I would take a sip of my shot. It was so smooth and so nice. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. After all we were celebrating ourselves and everything that is coming. The new Us. I was truly liberating.

I was able to take a drink because I am not running from emotions or trying to hide and not confront emotions. I can have just one drink if I so choose. I am not the scared little girl anymore, I have grown into a beautiful, soulful woman. I love my life.