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Transition

I have been here in Florida for just about a month now. The first week was busy trying to prepare my new room and get comfy. Going out and buying things I didn’t know I needed till I got here. Exhausted from travel and wiped out from moving everything around my room 15 hundred times, I felt cozy enough to say I am done with my room.

The following week I went out to find a job and got one by the end of the week. I was ready to start working. I had spent most of my travel money and was ready to start bringing in some fresh new money. I started training the following week and had to work mornings. Mind you I was working at another restaurant at 11am, here I am working at 10:15am. An hour is a difference. So now I need to figure out timing without stress in the morning.

When I official started working it was right before Thanksgiving, I have yet to find a routine or any sort of consistency in my day to day life. Due to moving to a place I’ve never even seen or been to, moving in with my sister and her boyfriend, starting a new job, not knowing anyone besides my sister, my body started to react.

I have been bloated since after thanksgiving, I have been breaking out in hives on my face and my sleep has been greatly affected. All that boils down to is fear and resistance.

I have been through these emotions numerous times and I subconsciously know what to do. However in a state of panic from not sleeping well, thinking clearly has been quite challenging.

Since this new moon and the beginning of December, I have been able to slow down and sit with self. Before bed, I practiced deep breathing exercises and listened to binaural beats on youtube for releasing. That has helped with my sleep along with sleeping with my carnelian crystal sphere, which promotes de-bloating in your sacral chakra.

During the day I have been meditating on releasing old ideas and surrendering. I need to flow down stream and stop resisting. I have been resisting the change and transition and the only reason I can think of is fear. Am I going to make it down here? Am I going to make enough money? Can I afford to live in this type of area? There are so many things to do and place to go…

I am blocking myself and it’s uncomfortable, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I have been talking to self about why this is so different than everywhere else, when I realized it’s because I say I am only here till march 1st. Then I’m off on the trip of a lifetime. So now I have given myself, subconsciously a deadline to which, what if I fail….

No matter what life throws at us, as long as you try, there is no failing. You only die once and you live everyday…right?! So one foot in front of the other and let it all go….

Release and relax, these are all lessons that I need to grow through at this time. Quite honestly, all week I have been sleeping through the night. Sometimes I can figure out what is going on with me right away and heal it and then there are times when I am challenged with what is really going on.

This is all part of transitioning into a new book of my life and I am totally grateful for these uncomfortable moments; because I can learn from them and be done with them. It is just making me a stronger, more intuitive and a braver being.

Taking my power back, releasing resistance. Allowing the transition...
Feeling Confident and stepping back into my power
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Out with the Old and In with the New…

As I sit back and let nature takes its course, I find myself living in gratitude. September came and went with whirlwinds of “what am I’m going to do?”, to an amazing new opportunity. It’s mid October and I am now moving to Florida for the next 4 months to check it out and make extra money for my upcoming trip.  My sister called and offered me a chance to check out Florida. Not only will that be awesome but I can continue to build a stronger bond with her. We are 12 years apart. So we didn’t really grow up with each other and never really saw each other that often throughout the years. Although living with her full time isn’t the ideal situation, it’s temporary. Which makes us both feel excited. The full moon october 13th was super ideal for me to release everything that no longer serves my greatest and highest good. I had a theta healing session in which we cleared out so much that was weighing me down. It was awesome. I wasn’t planning this but my date to leave is october 27th which also happens to be the new moon. New moons are all about new beginnings and putting out intentions and goals. I am super stoked! I will be driving to Florida from maine and taking my time. Visiting with my chickadee (granma) for several days, then to my aunt and uncles in South Carolina, whom I haven’t seen in over 2 decades. Then off to Jacksonville where I will see a good friend of mine whom I also haven’t seen in 2 decades. Then to my godfathers in central Florida. Then to my new home. I am really excited for this adventure. Who knows where it’ll take me and I’m grateful for not knowing. A new beginning to a brand new book. All old books are finished, closed and packed away.

My home in Maine. The view I am leaving behind for the winter. Looking forward to seeing what my new view will look like!
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Birthday Weekend

Day 1 of our adventure…

My best friend kept asking me what I wanted to do for my birthday at least a month in advance. All I knew is that I wanted to get out of town, but where. After lots of pondering, we decided to go to PEI, Prince Edward Island. I had never been, or least don’t recall ever going even as a child and she has once as a child.

We decided we would leave on Wednesday and return on Sunday. My intentions for this trip was to relax and chill. No major plans besides romping on the grounds where Anne of Green Gables was filmed.

Our journey began around 9 am on Wednesday morning, we took off with excitement and joy. Our first stop was breakfast, neither one of us really eat breakfast like many do. So we decided to stop at the “Maine Diner” in Wells and have breakfast burritos. YUMMMM

Off we went, We decided to take the scenic route to the first hotel in Saint Andrews, Canada. Lots of weird roads and creepy broken down houses mixed with beautiful scenery and interesting things to find on the side of the road. Like a stuffed unicorn in someones yard near the road propped up by a tree stump.

Our travels took us some time but we were just super excited to cross the border into Canada. Just to find out that we still had 2 more hours to go, or at least thats what it felt like, lol! The journey was beautiful but I was ready to just sit and relax, eat and jump into the Jacuzzi.

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Feeling Fresh…

Sometime last week I had a facial, my friend mentioned it and we were gonna go together. Didn’t work out. So I scheduled one on my own. I went for an express facial, mind you I haven’t had a facial in over 5 years. I didn’t remember much of what they did but it felt good.

I have been tanning because I am in New England and there is no warmth from the sun and I just moved here from California. So tanning makes me feel really good. But after tanning a few days and several years of old skin, I was due for a facial. I could feel it.

I went to GLOW, here in York Maine. Amazing place. Everyone who works there is amazing and super friendly and kind. I went in and met Darcy. She gave me an express facial for 30 minutes which I feel was more like 45 mins. So as she is doing her thing I ask her a bunch of questions.
https://glowbodywork.com/

“What can I do in between facials and how often should do people get facials?” She offered several suggestions. Apparently people get facials anywhere from twice a month to every change of season. She suggested I use a fruit enzyme mask and something pumpkin. I didn’t remember what she said exactly. I asked her where I can purchase such things, she said any natural health food store. There happens to be one in Kittery, called Rising Tide Natural foods. Cute little shop. While I was in there perusing for my pumpkin stuff and enzyme mask I found amazing Rose Oil from NOW. Wow that stuff smells exactly like roses. I have been on the hunt for an inexpensive rose oil for years. This is it…it’s called rose absolute. YUMMM
(https://www.iherb.com/pr/Now-Foods-Essential-Oils-Rose-Absolute-1-fl-oz-30-ml/936?gclid=CjwKCAjw-ZvlBRBbEiwANw9UWmtAeLQTWEqoSmfxGhoCsHZW-NUqi-VsvT-HbpaOMMRPevLSApZ_nRoCwM8QAvD_BwE&gclsrc=aw.ds )

After finding that, I found the isle with all the skin care items. I found the fruit enzyme but they were sold out. Must be good, I thought to myself. Then I saw on the side that they had pumpkin face cream. BOOM! They had something pumpkin, just as prescribed by Darcy. They had a tester out and I tried it. My face was in heaven. However I wanted to buy them both at the same time so I can use them simultaneously.
(https://www.mychelle.com/products/pumpkin-renew-cream?variant=5506530148386&gclid=CjwKCAjw-ZvlBRBbEiwANw9UWip4WbN-GOCVxHo-4OO_4ZE3SEdxlzqT6AkjfdxT7qNxjadBEGz-MxoCcxMQAvD_BwE )

I went back after the 4 days the lady said the enzyme mask would be there and it still wasn’t there. I had gone to TJ Maxx and Marshals to search for something similar and didn’t find anything, but I still bought a mask anyways. So several days later I go back to the natural food store and there still didn’t have the enzyme mask, so I bought the pumpkin cream. I figured I had a mask so might as well. I picked it up and took it to the counter. The dude rang it up and said aloud, $29.89. I made one of those you have got to be kidding me faces and said “whoa!” I never looked at the price. I looked down and said, “my face LOVES it, I must honor my face!”.

So I bought it happy joyous and free. My face is super happy and every time I put it on my face thanks me. Self Care…That’s what that’s about. Real Talk.

Moral of the story is, whenever my body wants or needs something, I will listen and take good care of her. Because we only have one body in this lifetime to have. And I am only getting younger!!!

Boo Yeah!

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Spring Awakening

February is finally over. Let me just recap this past month for you from my own experiences. Feb 1st (a Friday) I went on an interview that wasn’t my idea, nor my soul’s idea. However, living with your parents for the first time in decades, their idealisms began to seep into my subconscious; making me believe that I needed another job and that I should go get one.

Over the weekend I came to the realization that it wasn’t mine. The interview, the idea was not mine. Monday or Tuesday I replied to their offer of acceptance and turned them down. The next morning I wake up with a locked back.

The following week, almost 99% healed, I slip on the ice and end up with whiplash for the next week. As a matter of fact, it was Valentines Day. I slowly heal from that and by the following week I am 100% better just to begin having car issues.

Literally a week to that day happened to be Friday the 1st, March. My car died. Oh my what a month.

February was a month of deep inner reflection. I honestly feel that it was for releasing my past and everything that no longer serves me now. Thoughts, beliefs, anything that had low vibrating energies were released, forcefully. lol.

Gratitude for becoming aware of all of these things allowed me to step into the light and see things, again, in a new light. In a more loving and compassionate way, with gentleness and ease.

Today marks a mercury retrograde. March 2nd, I declared that this retrograde is going to come and go with ease and grace. I am going to be shining inside and out, radiating positivity and nothing can get me down.

I just created a vision board last night. When I create vision boards, my intentions are to create, what inspires me and subconsciously everything that ends up on my boards is everything I need to hear, see or understand. This particular vision board is all about awakenings and standing in the light, being authentically me. Starting fresh, renewed, Spring awakening!

vision board
Spring Awakening 2019

And spring is literally around the corner. Having my vehicle die when it did, made me realize that I had been holding onto California for what it represented. I had been living in California on and off for my entire life. This most recent venture was for 7 years. The only other ID I’ve had was NH when I got my drivers license. I’ve lived in many states and only ID’d myself in 2. That changed in January when I became an official Maine state resident. And I never changed over my vehicle info, I was going to wait till the tags ran out but my car died before that happened.

me and my car
Just outside of Chaco Canyon New Mexico. September 2018

So looking back, subconsciously, I didn’t want to want to lose that part of me; the California identity. I already changed my ID and to change my car over it would feel permanent and my identity lost.

It took me till just now to realize this…Thank you for allowing me to spill and let it roll. That’s a huge revelation and gratitude is all I have. Wow…

Now is the time to let go. I release, and so it is. Gone

I am 100% ready for my new life and new energy.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie