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Military Across The World

I want to give back to those that risk their lives everyday so that I may do everything that I do.
I can only imagine what our military families go through each and every day.


My story, As a kid I did not want to join the military because all I knew is that they made you cry and break you down. I wanted nothing to do with that. I was bullied throughout my school career; I certainly did not want to relive any of that. As time went on, I realized how much our military really does for us and I wanted to join because I wanted to help. By the time I decided this I was in my early 30’s and I had only a small window of opportunity. The person I was with was adamant on me not doing such things and at that time I was not capable of standing up and just doing it.

In time I found myself meditating often and found reiki. I met a woman whom I had a session and it changed my world. I knew then that I wanted what she had. I contacted her and in months to come I became a reiki master.

I wanted to give back and now I can.

I especially wanted to help active military and veterans, along with their families because I understand that what they go through isn’t just physical it’s emotional and even spiritual. The things they don’t share, eats them from the inside out and this affects family members as well.

Even though I have not been personally affected by this, I know millions are. I want to help.

I am offering to 3 individuals 3 reiki sessions for 3 weeks consecutively. Must be active, veteran, or immediate family member.

If you would like to be considered, please visit my website www.budderflie.com and contact page. Fill out the form and in the message space, please provide what is going on that you would like to receive reiki. Also please let me know how you would prefer to be contacted, via email, text or phone call. If out of country I will email, or we can zoom or skype. Also, if you are chosen, please let me know if I can announce your name online that you have been chosen. If anonymous then I will use your zip code. Upon being chosen I will ask for military ID.

I will choose 3 people at the end of this month. May 31st, 2019.

If you are not chosen, don’t worry I would like to see how this goes and do this again, monthly.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

Blog, Metaphysical, New Beginnings, Thoughts, Uncategorized

Healing

About a week ago I was working, I am a server at a restaurant with seating upstairs as well as down. It was a Friday night and in the middle of a dinner rush. I was working upstairs and had to consistently go up and down for food and other things.

I was about to make a trip downstairs with a bus bucket full of dirty plates and glasses. I began my trek down the stairs with both hands full and side stepping so that I may see the stairs. My foot got too close to the edge half way down and as if in slow motion I started to fall. I let go of the bus bucket entirely to assure my safety and fell backwards. My foot slipped off the edge so my entire right side of my body was sliding down the stairs.

It was a real loud crash with all the dishes and glasses breaking at the base of the stairs and a thud thud thud as the side of my body kept sliding on the staircase. I laid there for a few moments in shock and looked at this little girl whose eyes were wide and mouth gaping open. She was scared, I was in pure shock. We stared at each other for what felt like eternity when my coworker asked me if I was ok. I stood up, unsure if my body was ok or not and continued as if nothing was wrong. I didn’t know what else to do.

Later that evening I made it home and checked out my body. I started to feel the pain, no bruising yet but I felt it coming. The next morning I was barely able to move. I iced my entire right side, and rubbed lemongrass all over my bruises and ate pineapples to assist my body with the bruising from the inside out.

The following day I was to return to work, I decided I was not going to make it. I was still in such pain. I was able to get my shift covered and went to Flote. Where, as I have mentioned before, I go and float in 1000lbs of epsom salt for an hour. I was still in pain but I felt that it was going to reveal how helpful that was later in the day.

I went home to be greeted by my best friend and for the first time in a long time, I had reiki done to me. It was so nice to be the recipient. I continued to ice for the remainder of the day and finished off my pineapples.

The next day I was going to go back to work regardless of what I was feeling; and after all the healing modalities I worked with since it happened, paid off. I was able to work pain free, as long as no one brushed up against my right side. I made sure to stay out of the way.

Multiple things about how and why this occurred. The right side of the body is your masculine side and your right side is your feminine side. Being that my entire right side had been laid out and bruised up, led me to believe that I am not in balance. I had been working on my feminine side, as in, feeding my inner goddess but seemed to have neglected the masculine side. Bringing them in balance involves me looking into what is going on, on an emotional level and in some cases subconsciously.

In my case, I learned for myself that I was lacking strength, not physical but emotional. Dominance and personal power, being assertive. For me this reflects all relationships I’ve had with men in the past and I’m not talking just about romantic relationships but ALL. I needed to build my strength and courage and release all past relations with men where I had been put down or taken advantage of.

I shared this information with a few of my close friends and Leslie replied back. “You need to get grounded. and you need to go back, way back, childhood, past lives. release, clear and heal the past….go deep Jen, deep into the past. There is something you are avoiding. You have to see it, heal it, clear it. Then you will be able to move forward. It’s dark…body wrenching tears…”

Who wants to go back and figure that out???? I certainly did not want to do such things. Especially the fact that its body wrenching tears. I told her, I will but today is not the day. lol. I honestly took it in and let it go. I would have liked to have said yes lets do this now and figure this out but I didn’t. I needed to heal my body first.

So I left it at that. My birthday was coming up and my best friend and I were going to PEI to get away and that’s when I was going to do it. Because that trip was going to be all about relaxing and healing for the both of us.

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Metaphysical, New Beginnings

New Town New Beginnings

I just kind of got settled in my old home town of York Maine. I flew into Boston on Saturday and I will be here till September.

I have settling in and in doing so I wanted to look around for like minded people. So I went on Meetup.com where I had found most of my like minded friends in California. I found a local meetup in Portsmouth, NH for a sound and reiki healing meditation. I had no expectations walking into it.

There ended up being 3 reiki masters including myself, we went around the room to about 15 or so people. We each did reiki on someone, I happen to work on 4 women. It was a mix of men and women.

It was great, I enjoyed helping these women. At the close of the meetup, I went to each of the women that I performed reiki on and told them what I felt and saw. One woman cried as she hugged me in gratitude. I was able to meet each of their spirit guides and share them with the ladies, individually of course.

My spiritual coach/ friend/ teacher/ guide and I did the ceremony last Wednesday before I left California to start on my new journey, she looked at me and said you are about to start your journey over there as a teacher. You are no longer a student. And she is right, everything that I am doing or saying is affecting the ones close to me. For the greatest and highest good.

I am truly blessed to be on this new journey and very excited to meet new people. This is no longer a chapter in a book, this is definitely a sequel.

Love, Light and Healing

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And so it is…

So I have thinking a lot about blogging being that I haven’t done much with it. To me blogging is more of an impersonal journal and if you are comfortable perhaps even more personal.

People can read what you write or not at all. Either way it’s a new idea to journaling. Although I still enjoy the old fashioned ink to paper. However, I also like the idea that I can share what experiences I grow through on my new journey. In fact, I have been inspired once again from my dear friend, Krysta.

I have decided to start officially blogging about my journey, starting back in January of 2015. Where I was reborn. The journey involves lots of self healing, mediating, books, and like minded people I have met since my new journey began.

There were so many pivotal moments I have encountered and tragic losses. The unknowing

Rebirth is going to be the beginning and I look forward to sharing it with whom ever decides to read it. There will be amazing resources that I will share on how to and books that have shaped my new life for the better.

We all have a story, I would like to share mine

Love, Light, and Healing