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A Time For Healing

April 27, 2020

As you know I am in Bali. I haven’t been doing too much because everything is closed down, tourist wise. My purpose of this trip was to visit six particular places and feel the energy vibes as they are sort of like vortex’s here in Bali; supposedly like Sedona Arizona. Universe clearly has other plans for me…

I have been getting all wrapped up in everyone else’s shenanigans and haven’t been focusing on mine. Sure I meditate and work out and eat better than I ever have before. I am doing much self care but I came here for the energy. I have been staying in and not going out very much except for the weekends. I have visited some new beautiful places but haven’t been sitting and feeling the energy as much as I would like.

A friend of mine, Kim, asked me if I have seen any healers yet. When I first got here I went straight to the mountains and it was heaven on earth. When I came down from the mountains I was to go to Cambodia and that got cancelled. I was ok with that, I had to be. But then I started thinking of my Visa and how I could extend my visa during this crisis. Everyone wanted me to come home, ok not everyone, just family. I understood why but my heart and soul said otherwise.

From that point till now, I had been not listening to my highest self. I have been listening to my intuition but that’s why we have amazing people in our lives to remind us why we are here. Thank you Kim for reminding me of what I needed to do.

I found a Balinese healer named Cokorda Rai. I was doing some research and his name popped up a few times. They say he does not do appointments and he opens his doors at 9. People line up to see him and supposedly he only sees people for 2-5 minutes and moves on to the next. They said to get there early. I was so super excited.

As most of you know I am a Reiki master and understand how energy moves and works through the body. I immediately contacted my driver Rai and set it up with him to pick me up and take me there. Apparently, Rai lives 5 mins away from him in Ubud. I am in Seyminak which is about 1 hour away.

We made plans for him to pick me up at 8 am. I was so excited, Kim had sent me that morning a link to Gaia TV- 6th Floor: Expanding Possibility. It was 30 mins of amazing awareness. I watched it and knew I was on the right path. Ever more excited I attempted to go to sleep.

I don’t think I slept but for 4 hours, do to much excitement. I got up and got ready and met Rai outside for 8am. We were off.

When we pull in to the compound, there is only one woman doing morning offerings. Rai spoke with the young woman and showed us to an area. We walk up and sat down on the cement while we waited.

Cokorda Rai’s Healing Space

She came back out and asked me questions about my health and where I’ve been, she had told me to go wash my hands and wait. I did as told and nervous because Rai wasn’t even sure that he would do any healings because of corona. The young lady came back out and said we just have to make sure because my father is very old. I said absolutely.

Another woman helped Cokorda out to where we were sitting and helped him sit. Just the sight of him I felt overwhelmed with joy and gratitude. This amazing man whom I have never met is going to tell me whatever I need to know in this very moment and assist me in releasing it. Whether it’s actually him and his mudras or he is just a conduit, either way, WOW…

He calls me forward. I stand before him, he speaks ever so softly and he asks for my name. He asked me what I have a problem with, I told him nothing, that I was going to see what you thought. He told me to sit with my back against him and in front of him. So I did. He touch all over my head, shoulders and arms. He said in my right ear, pain. Left ear good. Right ear pain, no happiness. (thinking back as I write this maybe I was mistaking happiness for gratitude. I am very grateful for every moment I’m in but maybe not happy. Regardless it’s all been released and is gone now.)

He then told me to lay down on the ground. So I moved to the floor where I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. He moved his hands all over my body in motions as to unstick energy. Then he sits me up and shows me how to move. He guides me to do it myself and we sat there doing it together. He then whispers in my ear, love is coming, be patient.

We do several more rounds of releasing energy. When we were finished, he looks at me and says every time you look in the mirror, laugh and scoop up your laughter and eat it. You stay happy. I said easy, I can do that…I honestly loved the idea of that. So we practiced.

When finished he sits back down on his chair and asks me to come over. You come back again, love is on it’s way…

I stook up and thanked him for his service and Rai and I walked away. As we were walking Rai looked at me in disbelief. He said he never sits with people for that long, maybe 2-5 mins. You sat with him for 10-20 mins. I don’t recall because there was no such thing in those moments.

Rai then turned to me again and said you have good karma, they aren’t even open because of everything. But he was willing to see you. I had to sit for a minute before getting in the car because of the way my body felt and for the sheer fact of overwhelming gratitude.

The best way to describe the way my body felt was like my insides were vibrating at a very high level starting from my solar plexus and throughout the day went all the way up through my crown chakra. I felt light headed, dizzy, clear. It was the feeling I had after having my first Reiki session with my friend Cathy.

I needed time to feel and reflect. I was hoping there would be a space to do such things but I was with my driver Rai and I was an hour away from home. I wasn’t ready to go home either. Funny, as I sit here writing about it, I can feel the energies within and feel the way I did yesterday.

Rai drove me around, we stopped at a couple of temples and one I got to sit and be with for some time. So I did exactly that. I sat and felt and prayed in front of the temple. Not sure what I was praying for but I felt that, that’s what I needed to do. I took some pictures and we moved on.

The next Temple we stopped at is a famous Temple Batuan (sounds like batwan). I could only see so much as the gates were closed. But I took pictures anyways. It was beautiful and amazing. Just like all of them.

Rai decided we were gonna go check out the waterfall anyways. We knew it was closed but he thought that we might be able to actually see it anyways, even from a distance. So off we were. Sure enough we found it and we drove to as far as we could. Thankfully he is local, so we were able to walk down to where all the restaurants were. In that very moment I was sad that I never got a picture on a swing. When we got to the vista point I took some pictures and Rai called out to me and pointed…There was a wicker seat that is like the swings but stationary. I was totally stoked. I sat there and enjoyed the view in my little wicker seat. Took it all in.

We then decided it was time to head back. It was still morning time. Rai said he was going to take me through Kuta, so I asked him if this little spot in Sanur was on the way. He said sure, I wanted to pick up another sarong (which BTW is pronounced sa-roong). When we pull up to the spot, they were open.

I get out of the vehicle and I honestly have no idea how this happened but my right thumb got stuck in the door. I have no idea, I pulled it out and looked at it…It was getting creepier and creepier by the millisecond. I ran into the cafe and begged for ice. They brought some out and I was almost in tears. I stopped and practiced my breathing, but it didn’t help. I busted out some Reiki while standing there and held my thumb in between my hands. One of the guys was like omg, you need to go see the doctor, he’s next door. I looked at him and gave him a half laugh. Knowing they couldn’t do anything for me.

I then decided to hurry up and look for what I wanted. The young lady came over to help me open them up so I could see all the patterns. I ended up walking away with 2. I got back in the car and we drove home. Rai had no idea what happened. I was still in shock.

I get home and look up what that meant. I mean really I just saw the healer and this happens maybe an hour later???? I have mentioned in past blogs that when I have a situation I usually look it up by typing in, spiritual meaning of…

Right Thumb (The Healer’s Ocean Forum: Minor Chakra Meaning: thumb, right)
Keywords: will power, will to receive something.

Short explanation:
the will to receive something (help, favor, care, recognition, love, money…)
is in a subtle way not allowed to be recognized or expressed

For a more detailed look..check out his link. Pretty on point. Jeez…

So, after reading that and trying to sit with self and assist in the healing of my thumb I realized that I need to be more assertive in my actions and become more aware of these particular aspects…the willingness to receive.

Ok, it’s still early in the day, time to nap on that…

But then a few days later, I stub my left big toe. Oh jeez…the Universe is really yelling at me. That means, sit and be still. It is your ether toe, you spiritual connection. Oh boy…

Ok, so now I have my work cut out for me, no pun intended. Today I sat woke up and watched a facebook live with my friend Cathy. She channels Rosemary. I was inspired by her words and actions so much so that I decided I would try channeling. I let her know what I was going to do and of course I had all the support.

After I texted her I went upstairs and sat upright, put my awesome headphones on and listened to some binaural beats for channeling on youtube. I was in it, I was told that I am not ready (sad face). Instead we talked and I asked some questions and after a while the Divine Consciousness told me to go buy a plant and come back later. I was like, ok.

I went out and found a plant at a place that translates to mighty flora. Flora is the name of my one of my higher aspects of self, pretty cool. Anyways, I ended up buying a Jasmine plant and it has 2 buds on it.

I brought it home and I decided to wait till sunset to meditate again. When I finally did, they told me that when the buds start to bloom I will be ready. Until then, come back every morning and evening. I got so excited so. I feel that my flowers will at least begin to bloom by the next full moon, which is the Flower SuperMoon; May 6th. We shall see.

Love, Light and Healing
xoxo
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Bali Day 6

Waking at 4am this morning was not cool, but in lieu of everything going on in the world I decided to do some research. I found more places closing and decided that I am going to have to stay in Bali! oh darn…

I called home to see what my parents found out, as I delegated some tasks of research. We found the number to the embassy and my dad emailed them in regards to my situation. I shared with my parents my thoughts on everything and let it all go. After all, today is my last day and I want to enjoy every second I have left here.

Passion Fruit, Mangosteen Fruit, Snakeskin Fruit, Rambutan Fruit

I had an appointment at 8am for a reiki session from a dear friend Cathy Abeyta in California. I laid down on the napping bed and we facebook video chat. We went through all the chakras and found out some pretty amazing things. I released so much that was no longer needed. Quite honestly I’m not sure what was released and I don’t need to know. I felt so much lighter, like a feather taken by the wind. It was amazing. So blessed to have had such a shift while here in this magical place. We pulled cards, asking a question about my situation with the visa, Universe has plans for me and I need not worry. She validated everything I knew and was feeling.

Feeling blissful, I reach out to Vipin. We were going to go to the waterfalls for one last hoorah. Even the girls came with us, it was so fun. We trekked down a hidden trail and this time I wore my hiking shoes. Glad I did. Another day in paradise as we approached the waterfall. We were a group 5. We were the only ones there for a few minutes.

Tours started to come in and so did the couple that came to Wavi the day before, my neighbors. We all played in the water, skipped some rocks and watched people take all their instagram photos. Yuni built some of her rock formations and everyone was having a grand time. We were the last to leave this beautiful place and in perfect timing as it started to sprinkle. Which would eventually turn into a down pour.

When we got back Vipin was going to head out to another village to stay for a few nights. So we said our see you laters and went our separate ways.

I went and packed everything I could, I figure I will get up at 5 anyways, and pack the rest. I will be sad to leave here. I found out that everything in this little village is closing too. I will be picked up at 930am and head to Kuta. I was going to Kuta so I would be closer to the airport. But now I am not going to Cambodia so I get to actually start planning my trip; sort of. I have a list of places I was intending on going so when I get to Kuta I can take a look and map it out.

But first thing first, Thursday morning I will go to the immigration office and figure out what is going on; and take it from there. In the meantime, a fellow GLT’r (Girls Love Travel) is in Bali as well. We planned to meet for dinner tomorrow night somewhere. So I will contact her when I get down there and see what we can make happen.

Blessed

I hope wherever you are in this World, I pray that you are safe and kind to others. Everyone has their own version of whats going on and their own feelings towards the events that are taking place.

Be loving and compassionate as you only have this very moment…

Spread Love ~ Not Fear

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Heal Yourself…

When there is a physical issue with myself, I tend to sit in it and hope it goes away. However, when it doesn’t dissipate after 24 hours I dive into why this is happening to me. There is never any comfort in digging up the past and reliving painful circumstances but if it’s the way to heal, then we must grow through it.

Louise Hay has a book called, Heal Your Body. It is one of the most used books in the metaphysical world. Look up the body part or pain you are having and it will give you what it is affecting and an affirmation to work with. This book I have been meaning to purchase over the years but it wasn’t until I moved to Florida that it was in my face. I finally bought it, just when I needed it the most.

Before I had the book, I would google search “spiritual meaning of…” and it would come up with all kinds of readings and posts from others. I would read more than a few and they would all basically say the same thing. Then I would sit and meditate on it and give myself some reiki love and work on releasing whatever is ailing me.

That is exactly what I did from my last post. Going through all the transitions and being uncomfortable; physically, emotionally, spiritually. I figured out the fears and meditated on them. And to add to the healing and releasing, I go to youtube and find some binaural beats to assist in releasing. Here is an example of what I was listening to when I went to sleep at night.

If your body, mind and spirit are unable to process everything that is involved, like when you meditate on something; you tend to fall asleep and your subconscious does all the heavy lifting. Just as in reiki, when my clients fall asleep during a session, it’s because they will benefit more when they consciousness is resting, it allows the subconscious to work.

This is why I listen to these binaural beats when I sleep at night, I am releasing control and allowing healing to happen through my subconsciousness. And my spirit and soul are super happy.

I wrote this up because I have been so blessed to have learned all of these different techniques over the years and have been realizing that not a lot of people know how to do such things. We all have the power to heal ourselves but it takes trusting in yourself and the willingness to do the work. And it is work. But if you want to lead a fabulous healthy long exciting life then maybe you’ll consider. It’s not an overnight thing, like we all wish it would be but it’s so worth it!

Love Yourself, Love Life, Love Everything….

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Military Across The World

I want to give back to those that risk their lives everyday so that I may do everything that I do.
I can only imagine what our military families go through each and every day.


My story, As a kid I did not want to join the military because all I knew is that they made you cry and break you down. I wanted nothing to do with that. I was bullied throughout my school career; I certainly did not want to relive any of that. As time went on, I realized how much our military really does for us and I wanted to join because I wanted to help. By the time I decided this I was in my early 30’s and I had only a small window of opportunity. The person I was with was adamant on me not doing such things and at that time I was not capable of standing up and just doing it.

In time I found myself meditating often and found reiki. I met a woman whom I had a session and it changed my world. I knew then that I wanted what she had. I contacted her and in months to come I became a reiki master.

I wanted to give back and now I can.

I especially wanted to help active military and veterans, along with their families because I understand that what they go through isn’t just physical it’s emotional and even spiritual. The things they don’t share, eats them from the inside out and this affects family members as well.

Even though I have not been personally affected by this, I know millions are. I want to help.

I am offering to 3 individuals 3 reiki sessions for 3 weeks consecutively. Must be active, veteran, or immediate family member.

If you would like to be considered, please visit my website www.budderflie.com and contact page. Fill out the form and in the message space, please provide what is going on that you would like to receive reiki. Also please let me know how you would prefer to be contacted, via email, text or phone call. If out of country I will email, or we can zoom or skype. Also, if you are chosen, please let me know if I can announce your name online that you have been chosen. If anonymous then I will use your zip code. Upon being chosen I will ask for military ID.

I will choose 3 people at the end of this month. May 31st, 2019.

If you are not chosen, don’t worry I would like to see how this goes and do this again, monthly.

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

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Healing

About a week ago I was working, I am a server at a restaurant with seating upstairs as well as down. It was a Friday night and in the middle of a dinner rush. I was working upstairs and had to consistently go up and down for food and other things.

I was about to make a trip downstairs with a bus bucket full of dirty plates and glasses. I began my trek down the stairs with both hands full and side stepping so that I may see the stairs. My foot got too close to the edge half way down and as if in slow motion I started to fall. I let go of the bus bucket entirely to assure my safety and fell backwards. My foot slipped off the edge so my entire right side of my body was sliding down the stairs.

It was a real loud crash with all the dishes and glasses breaking at the base of the stairs and a thud thud thud as the side of my body kept sliding on the staircase. I laid there for a few moments in shock and looked at this little girl whose eyes were wide and mouth gaping open. She was scared, I was in pure shock. We stared at each other for what felt like eternity when my coworker asked me if I was ok. I stood up, unsure if my body was ok or not and continued as if nothing was wrong. I didn’t know what else to do.

Later that evening I made it home and checked out my body. I started to feel the pain, no bruising yet but I felt it coming. The next morning I was barely able to move. I iced my entire right side, and rubbed lemongrass all over my bruises and ate pineapples to assist my body with the bruising from the inside out.

The following day I was to return to work, I decided I was not going to make it. I was still in such pain. I was able to get my shift covered and went to Flote. Where, as I have mentioned before, I go and float in 1000lbs of epsom salt for an hour. I was still in pain but I felt that it was going to reveal how helpful that was later in the day.

I went home to be greeted by my best friend and for the first time in a long time, I had reiki done to me. It was so nice to be the recipient. I continued to ice for the remainder of the day and finished off my pineapples.

The next day I was going to go back to work regardless of what I was feeling; and after all the healing modalities I worked with since it happened, paid off. I was able to work pain free, as long as no one brushed up against my right side. I made sure to stay out of the way.

Multiple things about how and why this occurred. The right side of the body is your masculine side and your right side is your feminine side. Being that my entire right side had been laid out and bruised up, led me to believe that I am not in balance. I had been working on my feminine side, as in, feeding my inner goddess but seemed to have neglected the masculine side. Bringing them in balance involves me looking into what is going on, on an emotional level and in some cases subconsciously.

In my case, I learned for myself that I was lacking strength, not physical but emotional. Dominance and personal power, being assertive. For me this reflects all relationships I’ve had with men in the past and I’m not talking just about romantic relationships but ALL. I needed to build my strength and courage and release all past relations with men where I had been put down or taken advantage of.

I shared this information with a few of my close friends and Leslie replied back. “You need to get grounded. and you need to go back, way back, childhood, past lives. release, clear and heal the past….go deep Jen, deep into the past. There is something you are avoiding. You have to see it, heal it, clear it. Then you will be able to move forward. It’s dark…body wrenching tears…”

Who wants to go back and figure that out???? I certainly did not want to do such things. Especially the fact that its body wrenching tears. I told her, I will but today is not the day. lol. I honestly took it in and let it go. I would have liked to have said yes lets do this now and figure this out but I didn’t. I needed to heal my body first.

So I left it at that. My birthday was coming up and my best friend and I were going to PEI to get away and that’s when I was going to do it. Because that trip was going to be all about relaxing and healing for the both of us.