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Transition

I have been here in Florida for just about a month now. The first week was busy trying to prepare my new room and get comfy. Going out and buying things I didn’t know I needed till I got here. Exhausted from travel and wiped out from moving everything around my room 15 hundred times, I felt cozy enough to say I am done with my room.

The following week I went out to find a job and got one by the end of the week. I was ready to start working. I had spent most of my travel money and was ready to start bringing in some fresh new money. I started training the following week and had to work mornings. Mind you I was working at another restaurant at 11am, here I am working at 10:15am. An hour is a difference. So now I need to figure out timing without stress in the morning.

When I official started working it was right before Thanksgiving, I have yet to find a routine or any sort of consistency in my day to day life. Due to moving to a place I’ve never even seen or been to, moving in with my sister and her boyfriend, starting a new job, not knowing anyone besides my sister, my body started to react.

I have been bloated since after thanksgiving, I have been breaking out in hives on my face and my sleep has been greatly affected. All that boils down to is fear and resistance.

I have been through these emotions numerous times and I subconsciously know what to do. However in a state of panic from not sleeping well, thinking clearly has been quite challenging.

Since this new moon and the beginning of December, I have been able to slow down and sit with self. Before bed, I practiced deep breathing exercises and listened to binaural beats on youtube for releasing. That has helped with my sleep along with sleeping with my carnelian crystal sphere, which promotes de-bloating in your sacral chakra.

During the day I have been meditating on releasing old ideas and surrendering. I need to flow down stream and stop resisting. I have been resisting the change and transition and the only reason I can think of is fear. Am I going to make it down here? Am I going to make enough money? Can I afford to live in this type of area? There are so many things to do and place to go…

I am blocking myself and it’s uncomfortable, but I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I have been talking to self about why this is so different than everywhere else, when I realized it’s because I say I am only here till march 1st. Then I’m off on the trip of a lifetime. So now I have given myself, subconsciously a deadline to which, what if I fail….

No matter what life throws at us, as long as you try, there is no failing. You only die once and you live everyday…right?! So one foot in front of the other and let it all go….

Release and relax, these are all lessons that I need to grow through at this time. Quite honestly, all week I have been sleeping through the night. Sometimes I can figure out what is going on with me right away and heal it and then there are times when I am challenged with what is really going on.

This is all part of transitioning into a new book of my life and I am totally grateful for these uncomfortable moments; because I can learn from them and be done with them. It is just making me a stronger, more intuitive and a braver being.

Taking my power back, releasing resistance. Allowing the transition...
Feeling Confident and stepping back into my power
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The Last Day

Day 5 of our adventure

Our last full day in PEI, Charlottetown. We had decided that this was going to be the day of doing nothing. After our wild adventure yesterday in search of Anne of Green Gables and our appointment with Nora Cummins (ThetaHealing Practitioner), we really needed to rest.

We slept in and relaxed. We were both very quite and exhausted, emotionally, physically and spiritually. We joined up for breakfast and the rain and wind were coming down pretty good, so we didn’t feel guilty for staying in.

At one point I heard the rain stop, I have been wanting to go to this one little shop downtown so I asked if Krysta wanted to go. We both dressed warmly and meandered down a few blocks. Nora from the day before had suggested we both take sea salt baths. At the store we made it to, they had some. We both bought a bag and slowly made our way back to the Inn. We stopped here and there and had lunch and started back to relax back at the Inn.

Krysta wanted to nap so I brought my laptop and such down to the dining area and set up shop so she can rest in peace. As I sat downstairs, I noticed people coming and going and we would strike up conversations they would leave and I would go back to writing my blogs. At one point this gentleman walked in and was trying to find out the wi-fi code. We started talking and he and his wife took their young children out of school for a year so they could travel. They were from Australia and got here 2 days later. They were exhausted, he told me about some of theirs travels as to where they had been. One place he said was Bali.

Bali is on my list, between now and next April I will be going there. So when he said that I started asking him questions. He gave me some info as to where and whom they stayed with and whatnot. So I am now equipped with more information for when I buy my plane ticket. Very excited about that…

I stepped away from my computer for a few minutes and Krysta came down and wrote a note saying she is going to take her sea salt bath. When she had come back down we both worked on some things and then we decided to have a deeper conversation which were needed and deep. The day before working with Nora, things came up for me that I have been ignoring and subconsciously wishing would just disappear. They struck such a cord with me that I became instantly vulnerable and for the first time cried in front of a complete stranger. Like convulsing crying.

So when Krysta and I started talking I was in the middle of saying something and it happened again, convulsing crying. I was glad to be able to release such emotions and let them go. Last night too, my friend found out her uncle passed on. So she was feeling that as well. This day and last night were very heavy.

And without even knowing it, Krysta mentioned she just wanted fried foods. So we looked up a place around the corner and made our way to a pub. For some good old fashion bar food. Mind you, I haven’t eaten fried foods in months, I kinda forgot about that. So we go and order these apps and everything was fantastic until later that evening.

We get back to the Inn, Krysta is getting ready for bed, I still need my bath so I start it up. I sat in there trying to stay in it for 45 mins. I had to get out after 20 mins, I was well over heated and super wobbly. I get ready for bed and crawl in, just to be woken up at some peculiar hour because my stomach was in a tizzy.

I go to the bathroom sweating and with a killer migraine. I lay on the floor on the tile where its much cooler. My stomach didn’t like that. So I sat in front of the toilet thinking oh my god, if I throw up my head is going to pop off. I needed to find an elastic for my hair. I stood up and almost fell over and found one right next to Excedrin migraine pills…I am so awesome I thought. I felt like I was going to have to wake up Krysta to go to the store and buy me some in the middle of the night.

I make my way back to the bathroom where I bow my head to the porcelain goddess and realize I am going to have to do this myself. This is not something I enjoy doing, ever, but at this moment I had too. I stuck my fingers down and up it all came. All I kept thinking was, I really need to be better for my drive tomorrow. We had to drive home from Canada in the morning and it was going to be about 9 hours long or more.

I finally managed to crawl back in bed, I took 2 pills and begged the angels for relief. Next thing I know it’s 630 am. I pop 2 more and go back to sleep. I finally got up and although I wasn’t 100% I still felt good, slightly airy but coherent.

Lesson learned, again, with fried foods. I forgot I hadn’t eaten fried foods in a long time and then I way over ate. So since I have been home, no fried foods.

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Birthday Weekend

Day 1 of our adventure…

My best friend kept asking me what I wanted to do for my birthday at least a month in advance. All I knew is that I wanted to get out of town, but where. After lots of pondering, we decided to go to PEI, Prince Edward Island. I had never been, or least don’t recall ever going even as a child and she has once as a child.

We decided we would leave on Wednesday and return on Sunday. My intentions for this trip was to relax and chill. No major plans besides romping on the grounds where Anne of Green Gables was filmed.

Our journey began around 9 am on Wednesday morning, we took off with excitement and joy. Our first stop was breakfast, neither one of us really eat breakfast like many do. So we decided to stop at the “Maine Diner” in Wells and have breakfast burritos. YUMMMM

Off we went, We decided to take the scenic route to the first hotel in Saint Andrews, Canada. Lots of weird roads and creepy broken down houses mixed with beautiful scenery and interesting things to find on the side of the road. Like a stuffed unicorn in someones yard near the road propped up by a tree stump.

Our travels took us some time but we were just super excited to cross the border into Canada. Just to find out that we still had 2 more hours to go, or at least thats what it felt like, lol! The journey was beautiful but I was ready to just sit and relax, eat and jump into the Jacuzzi.

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Still February?

As we near the end of February, if it wasn’t enough for my back to go out, to acquire severe whiplash and heal from them both immediately as the next is to begin, my car starts to test me. Hahahahaha…

Today I feel great physically,  100%. I decide to run one errand outside of town about 40 mins away when I find myself down memory lane; In Arkansas.

Arkansas- I was driving cross country moving from California to Maine and I find myself in the beautiful mountains of Arkansas, Ouachita National Forest. I wanted to go hiking after meandering through Sedona and Chaco Canyon. As I drive into the forest my 2hrs deep, off the beaten path, my car starts to hiccup. 4 hours later somehow (without navigation because my phone’s decided not to work my entire trip) I make it to my hotel where I can sit and think about what is going on. I met a man who said it was a fuel injector. Long story and $400 later, I make it home.

Needless to say, today has been a long day. Great news however, I made 3 new friends, Chris (told me that it is not fuel injector, but a mass air thingy. Basically he told me I could clean it myself and see how that works before bringing it in), Troy from Napa Auto Parts in Eliot Maine (super friendly and allowed me to work on my car in the parking lot and even called places locally to get me in for an oil change. Because as I was cleaning out the mass air flow sensor I noticed I was due for an oil change.), which leads me to Dan over at Pleasant Street Garage. What a nice solid man. All 3 of these men not only assisted me with my vehicle in way or another, they made me feel better about my situation.

I do understand that everything happens for a reason, I really do, but my oh my. When you depend on your vehicle as much as you do to run awesomely to then not…Your stress level sky rockets, no doubt. It’s very nerve-racking, like, OMG get me off this road and someone fix it for free immediately! HAHAHAHAHA

Slow down and relax…

Park your vehicle, take a hot shower, have a very large glass of wine and binge watch your fav tv show…

AHHHHHHHHHH

Not gonna lie, grateful today is about to end and I can start over tomorrow. Who knows, my car might be fine after its makeover from today!

So grateful for today and learning how to just relax and breathe into it. Which I owe to yoga and floating, breathing that is. Deep breathing.

I got this…whatever the outcome, I got this!

Love, Light and Healing

Budderflie