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Awareness

Just recently I had been working online doing graphic design. While in the past I chose to only do it for the fun of it and I chose who I worked with so that I can ensure the funness of it all. I had been working for this company for 5 months. It was for a new boutique hotel and they required many things. Sure I have no problem doing these things and some were very challenging but I was open and willing to make it all happen.

I took off a couple of days for New Years Eve and Day. I went outta town without my laptop and realized how exhausted I was and how miserable I was. I hadn’t been able to focus on myself at all. Sure a little self care here and there but nothing like I am used to. It was in that moment, solely because I had 2 days of not working, that I realized that I was no longer having fun and I missed ME.

I told my boyfriend that when I get back I am going to tell them that I am leaving so I can figure out what it is I really need to do. I really don’t like confrontation but it had to be done. Of course the people I work for are so amazing and super supportive so I was feeling guilty for hanging them out to dry but I really needed to focus on self and my future. Not to mention my time was up at the place I was living so I needed to move out as well.

For me, I am one who likes to start things on a Monday and I love when the numbers align. I had come to realize that the beginning of the year started with a full moon and at the end of January was a full moon. I was so excited to come to that realization that I decided that I would leave this position at the end of January and start focusing on me in February. Which gets even better because Feb 1st is a monday! And the full moons for me are about releasing and letting go.

So I claimed February 1st as my New Year and New Years Eve I moved out and went to the beach for a BBQ and a beautiful sunset.

I am typically aware of what goes on in my life and what is happening with me; but during that transit, I couldn’t see anything till I stopped for those couple of days and became aware. I realized I was no longer following my heart’s desires. I was not put on this planet to do graphic design. I do that because it brings me joy until it doesn’t. That’s when I realized I was done and by becoming aware of this I have the power to change it.

My suggestion to you all, next time you feel something just isn’t right, take the time to become aware of why. Become aware of the emotions you feel when you think of what is happening, your attitude towards it, your sleeping and your eating behaviors’. Those are all clues that you are not in alignment with what you are supposed to be doing…which is following your heart. Trust your intuition, it will never steer you wrong.

Awareness is key, it’s the first step to a happier self. Only you have the power to change….

With Love,

Budderflie

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Heal Yourself…

When there is a physical issue with myself, I tend to sit in it and hope it goes away. However, when it doesn’t dissipate after 24 hours I dive into why this is happening to me. There is never any comfort in digging up the past and reliving painful circumstances but if it’s the way to heal, then we must grow through it.

Louise Hay has a book called, Heal Your Body. It is one of the most used books in the metaphysical world. Look up the body part or pain you are having and it will give you what it is affecting and an affirmation to work with. This book I have been meaning to purchase over the years but it wasn’t until I moved to Florida that it was in my face. I finally bought it, just when I needed it the most.

Before I had the book, I would google search “spiritual meaning of…” and it would come up with all kinds of readings and posts from others. I would read more than a few and they would all basically say the same thing. Then I would sit and meditate on it and give myself some reiki love and work on releasing whatever is ailing me.

That is exactly what I did from my last post. Going through all the transitions and being uncomfortable; physically, emotionally, spiritually. I figured out the fears and meditated on them. And to add to the healing and releasing, I go to youtube and find some binaural beats to assist in releasing. Here is an example of what I was listening to when I went to sleep at night.

If your body, mind and spirit are unable to process everything that is involved, like when you meditate on something; you tend to fall asleep and your subconscious does all the heavy lifting. Just as in reiki, when my clients fall asleep during a session, it’s because they will benefit more when they consciousness is resting, it allows the subconscious to work.

This is why I listen to these binaural beats when I sleep at night, I am releasing control and allowing healing to happen through my subconsciousness. And my spirit and soul are super happy.

I wrote this up because I have been so blessed to have learned all of these different techniques over the years and have been realizing that not a lot of people know how to do such things. We all have the power to heal ourselves but it takes trusting in yourself and the willingness to do the work. And it is work. But if you want to lead a fabulous healthy long exciting life then maybe you’ll consider. It’s not an overnight thing, like we all wish it would be but it’s so worth it!

Love Yourself, Love Life, Love Everything….

Love, Light and Healing,

Budderflie

Metaphysical

If its not one thing…

This month has been very interesting so far…

Ever feel like it’s just one thing after another? Well, this month has been like that for me and its only been 14 days.

Feb 2 I had an art show at a holistic expo. I met a woman named Rebecca Packard. Wasn’t exactly sure what she did as far as her services go. But this is what she does…

Rebecca Packard- Certified Body Code & Emotion Code Practitioner.

http://www.rebeccapackard.com

Whatever that means, right?!

Well, I wanted to know. She asked me what I wanted cleared, blockages wise. I said abundance. We can all use that, just saying. Anyways, I allow her into my energy field and I started to ask her questions. She was in her zone and started saying words out loud. I felt the need to write them down. By the end it was a rather large list I had written and she looks at me and says, you are released and cleared of that list you wrote down. I look at the list and was like, ok, I’m going with it. She explained how I keep myself safe from allowing those things happen to me again and that was that.

After leaving her, I physically felt different. We described as emotionally drunk. I literally felt like I was buzzed but had nothing to drink. It was really cool to try something different. I have added her to me support team, as I feel it’s important to have people help the healers.

By the end of the weekend I noticed I had a huge bruise on my left calf. Weird because I don’t recall banging my leg against anything. I let it go as it got blacker and bluer.

Sunday night I checked my emails before bed, I don’t suggest doing that by the way, and I read an acceptance letter from an interview I had on that previous friday, Feb 1st. Thats great that I got the job and all but my soul knows what I need. When my work schedule changed to only working 3 shifts a week. I was grateful. I can have more ME time. My hearts desire said we will not be getting another job so we can do just that, self-care and love. That was back in Dec maybe.

The only reason I went on this interview, as it turns out, was because now that I live with my parents, their belief systems do not match mine. Some of the things would say to me crept into my subconscious mind and next thing you know I’m beginning to think, I have no money, OMG! I need a job, all in a frantic. Rebecca helped clear their belief systems out of me.

So when I read the email before bed, I was so nervous about how I was going to respond. So much so that I woke in the morning and my center lower back was locked. Not like sciatica problems, like disc problems. I could barely move.

Lower back issues have to do with security, finances, stability, fear. Needless to say I had to figure out exactly what was going on and I did. My parents old belief systems and my fear of how to respond. Becoming aware of what your body is telling is huge. When things like this happen, that’s what I try to do immediately so I am not in pain.

So after meditating on it and asking my guides for their assistance my back started to feel better, I did also go to the chiropractor because that always helps!

So right in the end of my healing for my back, my pelvic area begins to hurt, which then became excruciating. I was laid up on the floor where I had been stretching my back for the past week and my mom comes in and says, are you ok? Did it get worse? I told her it has nothing to do with my back, but it certainly was affecting it, for sure.

I texted my friends in California, asking for their help. They both responded, saying that basically I havent truly given myself full attention, it was suggested to feed my goddess. Like if you don’t wear lipstick to work, start. I have been wanting a pedi-cure, so i am going to go get one. Self Love, Self Care, Self Pamper. Wine and dine myself, if you will.

Which makes absolute sense. That all happened yesterday. After we figured that out, my pelvic area started to not hurt so bad.

I woke up this morning feeling great. I went outside to go see about moving my car, from all the ice and snow, I don’t even make it to my car and I slip and fell totally on my back. Thank god I had my hood on because I smacked that pretty good.

I feel that my fall this morning had to do with reminding me what I need to do. Feed my goddess. I woke up feeling great, thinking nothing of going through my morning routine. Not thinking about what yesterdays events taught me. So for me to slip on this ice was a solid reminder that the information rcvd yesterday has solidified into a compact state so that I may internalize it.

I look up everything, someone has been through exactly what I have been through so somewhere out there, there is helpful information. This last one about ice and falling…

http://www.meaningfullife.com

In case you have something you want to look up… I always type in

“spiritual meaning of…”

Usually something that resonates with me comes up.

Love, Light and Healing