Blog, Metaphysical, Thoughts

Practice becomes Second Nature

You ever feel like you have just talked to someone and you feel how they are feeling? That is part of being an empath.

“An Empath┬áis a person who can psychically tune in to the emotional experience of a person, place or animal.”

http://www.empathguide.com/

My dad and I are extremely close, we have lived many lives together and we live on a parallel timeline in this life. Since my suicide attempt and my spiritual growth has sky rocketed since, I have been practicing grounding before I talk to him. Due to the fact that he is Italian and has lots of emotions and happens to be growing through a lot of things.

As of late, things in my world and my dads have been changing, the difference is I understand how to clear, cleanse and ground. My dad is working towards that but he doesn’t know how to clear his mind.

I have been noticing that I have not been clearing, cleansing or grounding before I talk to my dad even over the phone. This is a huge lesson for me because I have been getting wrapped up in his whirlwind. After our chats I have been having to clear, cleanse and ground myself. However it would be way more beneficial to do that before I get on the phone or see him.

So I my mission is to practice clearing, cleansing and grounding on a dime. Quick and simple.

How I normally do it, is close my eyes, breathe out my heart space and drop roots into mother earths heart center. That simple. There’s no reason I can’t do that on a drop of a dime.

As I like to say, “Handle it!”

Just practice and soon it will become second nature. Just like everything we do…

Love, Light and Healing xoxo

Blog, New Beginnings, Thoughts

New Day New Chapter

Today marks a new chapter for me. Even the generic horoscopes say it is time for Taurus’s to begin a new chapter. Yesterday was my last yard sale and I learned to let go of everything. I jumped in the pool and cleansed my soul of the past and lessons learned.

Today my friend and I, both Taurus’s, did some self pampering. We went out and bought ourselves some very much needed, new flip flops. She got 4 pair and I 5! I was so excited because I was going to put those bad boys on right after we got a mani/pedi!

I have not had a manicure or pedicure for at least 5 years! Today we indulged, much deserved and needed for my new chapter.

Phase 1- Own IT! Embrace your beauty, be confident, be bold, be YOU!

Phase 2- Live IT! Don’t just feel it on the inside, share it with the World! Don’t hide behind clothes that don’t fit or makeup and hats. Rock that body, Don’t hide it!

Phase 2 is what I am currently working on…I let go of most of my old clothing that didn’t fit me and I will be living in my workout clothes and shorts until I go back East where I will go shopping tax free. Which gives me time to figure out my new style! Which I kind of already have but I’m being patient. No need to rush anything. As I need it, I will get it. Hence, my desperately needed new flip flops.

I already don’t wear make-up so that’s easy and I stopped wearing hats because I lived in hats for the past 6 years, while being in someone else’s reality. I dressed like a boy in unattractive men’s clothing and rarely felt like the woman I am. That part of me is gone, I am not that “girl” anymore.

I am a Woman!

I love myself…I am embracing myself

That’s real talk!

Love, Light and Healing

xoxo

Photo Credit: Me, Jennifer Downey

 

Blog, New Beginnings, Thoughts

Completion

Today marks the end of my lessons in letting go. As a Taurus, I hold possessiveness to my belongs. Don’t touch my things, how dare you use my stuff and so on. If you are a Taurus or know a Taurus, you totally know what I mean.

I am in the middle of a major change in my life, which is 100% unknown. However I am moving out of my second apartment in a year after a break up and travelling back East for the summer to work.

While moving out of my ex’s home, I didn’t have time to go through everything, so I took everything. I made probably 5-6 trips total within several days for a couple of hours at a time, only when I was allowed to go over there.

When I moved into the new place, I basically moved into a bedroom but I had a backyard I could store things into. Mind you I love yard sales, so I was able to let go of things that no longer served me.

I stayed at this place of residence for just about 6 months before I had to move out. Due to unhealthy living circumstances, extremely toxic. I really never left my bedroom except to use the restroom and smoke, I always ate out.

I had 4 yard sales before I left. I was moving in with a friend who has her living space exactly the way she likes it. No clutter. No storage. Moving into another bedroom. I was totally ok with that as I was learning how to let go.

I packed my room to the best of my ability, I had space in the hall closet and the bathroom to store some small things. I had no space for all of my art and projects that truly brought me joy. I had to let go of so much. But I found friends that would allow me store my creative works at their houses. Blessed! I choose not to live without joy!

So now after 5 months of living at my friends house, I have been called to go somewhere else. I have been preparing my plate since February, what am I going to do, where am I going, how am I going to get there and so forth.

I have had the chance to slowly go through all of my personal items and slowly release all of my personal belongings including the emotional attachments. This has been the most liberating experience of letting go.

Letting go of personal things that have meaning and emotional ties is not something that comes so easily to the Taurus woman. But I did it.

Today I had my final yard sale. I didn’t sell everything but I was emotionally strong enough to bag and box it up to donate it. Today was really muggy and warm, rarely did the sun peak out and my ex and my roommate came to the yard sale at the end to say hi and deliver something to my friend I was having the yard sale with. It was very awkward for me to be selling things that “WE” had together and she bought. Very weird. But I did ok.

As I was boxing and bagging everything up, every box I picked up had a ton of pincher bugs in them. So weird. But my friend told me that they represent major change and that made so much sense.

I pull cards for myself occasionally and for the past several pulls, they have been talking about completion. My horoscope specifically talked about the end of a cycle on Saturday, meaning today.

This yard sale was my completion, letting go of absolutely everything I could. I then decided I couldn’t handle the heat and everything was picked up, so I was the first of the season to jump into my friends pool. It was freezing yet super refreshing.

Later this evening I was called to pull oracle cards, one in which said Water. It’s meaning, Cleansing yourself of the old for a new beginning. WTF

So awesome. What a day. Surrounded by people I love all day and blessed to have these people in my lives.

Thank you Leslie, Michael, Crystal, and especially my Dad. I look forward to this new chapter, my personal journey.

Love, Light and Healing

xoxo

Blog, Thoughts

Stranger things

I’ve been so programmed my entire life up until a couple of years ago. I have always believed that when you break up with someone thats it you are done. Never talk again and go your seperate ways.

My last relationship was the longest I had ever been in and was with a woman, my first. We did break up on good terms but I still felt there was no reason to continue a friendship whatsoever.

We had unfinished business to take care of, like the dogs, bank accounts and so forth. So when we finished with all of that months later. She askrd if we could still ne friends.

It was very hard for me and I didnt know how to react so I didn’t and just said if I feel uncomfortable I will let you know.

From that point on I never called her. She texted me and sometimes I would text back. Since our breakup she has gone through a lot. (Not my business to tell) She felt she can still talk to me without feeling judged. And she is right. Doesn’t mean that I don’t think that what she went through was weird but nonetheless who am I to judge, so I don’t.

I hold boundaries with her because I know how to do that today. Example, she asked me to come over to her house and take pictures of things she’s going to sell. I told her that I dont feel comfortable going over there and that I wouldn’t. Small things like that. I mean, we were together for 6 years. That’s a long time to be in someone’s life.

The point is, being who I am meant to be, I am capable of anything. Even being friends with an ex and having good boundaries around our friendship. That’s growth.

Never have I been in a relationship and been ok with talking to them or meeting up with them after a breakup. Old ideas and belief systems that had been engrained in me.

I’ve changed, my perceptions have changed, my belief systems have changed, out with the old Jennifer and welcoming the new improved and loving Jennifer.

So blessed to be ME!

Love Light and Healing!

Blog, Thoughts

Earth Day

Today I had an art show in the mountains. I had my car packed the night before and I was to drive 45 mins to my destination to set up. I wake up at 5am, mind you I never wake up that early unless absolutely necessary. I am half way there and realized I left 2 things behind. BOOOOO…

I forgot the poles I use to hang my dreamcatchers on. Laughing at the situation I turn around, knowing that I wasn’t supposed to get there early, due to forgetting to pack those in. I get back and put them in my car and I begin my drive all over again.

I get up there and I cannot for the life of me find where it is I am supposed to be. I pull over numerous amounts of times just keep turning around! Finally I see a sign, it was so small I missed it multiple times. All I can do is laugh. I so badly wanted to be upset and irritated, but every time I tried, all that kept coming back to me was there is a good reason for you not to be early.

I finally find where I am supposed to be and get all set up. It was a beautiful day, sunshine filled the sky and the skies were blue. There was live music and entertainment, all kinds of people everywhere. It was actually quite slow for me and I was so tired but by the end I sold a peace-catcher, 3 magnets and an infinity scarf. So grateful. I was able to close up shop and head back into town.

As I descended from the mountains around 230pm, I get notice that my lady friends are at the winery at a country music festival. I drive straight there my car still packed with all my goodies, in the same clothes, wiped out and ready to have some more fun in the sun!

So blessed to have had a wonderfully beautiful day. More sun, more music, more outdoors and with amazing people! No other way to spend Earth Day!

Love, Light and Healing