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A Time For Healing

April 27, 2020

As you know I am in Bali. I haven’t been doing too much because everything is closed down, tourist wise. My purpose of this trip was to visit six particular places and feel the energy vibes as they are sort of like vortex’s here in Bali; supposedly like Sedona Arizona. Universe clearly has other plans for me…

I have been getting all wrapped up in everyone else’s shenanigans and haven’t been focusing on mine. Sure I meditate and work out and eat better than I ever have before. I am doing much self care but I came here for the energy. I have been staying in and not going out very much except for the weekends. I have visited some new beautiful places but haven’t been sitting and feeling the energy as much as I would like.

A friend of mine, Kim, asked me if I have seen any healers yet. When I first got here I went straight to the mountains and it was heaven on earth. When I came down from the mountains I was to go to Cambodia and that got cancelled. I was ok with that, I had to be. But then I started thinking of my Visa and how I could extend my visa during this crisis. Everyone wanted me to come home, ok not everyone, just family. I understood why but my heart and soul said otherwise.

From that point till now, I had been not listening to my highest self. I have been listening to my intuition but that’s why we have amazing people in our lives to remind us why we are here. Thank you Kim for reminding me of what I needed to do.

I found a Balinese healer named Cokorda Rai. I was doing some research and his name popped up a few times. They say he does not do appointments and he opens his doors at 9. People line up to see him and supposedly he only sees people for 2-5 minutes and moves on to the next. They said to get there early. I was so super excited.

As most of you know I am a Reiki master and understand how energy moves and works through the body. I immediately contacted my driver Rai and set it up with him to pick me up and take me there. Apparently, Rai lives 5 mins away from him in Ubud. I am in Seyminak which is about 1 hour away.

We made plans for him to pick me up at 8 am. I was so excited, Kim had sent me that morning a link to Gaia TV- 6th Floor: Expanding Possibility. It was 30 mins of amazing awareness. I watched it and knew I was on the right path. Ever more excited I attempted to go to sleep.

I don’t think I slept but for 4 hours, do to much excitement. I got up and got ready and met Rai outside for 8am. We were off.

When we pull in to the compound, there is only one woman doing morning offerings. Rai spoke with the young woman and showed us to an area. We walk up and sat down on the cement while we waited.

Cokorda Rai’s Healing Space

She came back out and asked me questions about my health and where I’ve been, she had told me to go wash my hands and wait. I did as told and nervous because Rai wasn’t even sure that he would do any healings because of corona. The young lady came back out and said we just have to make sure because my father is very old. I said absolutely.

Another woman helped Cokorda out to where we were sitting and helped him sit. Just the sight of him I felt overwhelmed with joy and gratitude. This amazing man whom I have never met is going to tell me whatever I need to know in this very moment and assist me in releasing it. Whether it’s actually him and his mudras or he is just a conduit, either way, WOW…

He calls me forward. I stand before him, he speaks ever so softly and he asks for my name. He asked me what I have a problem with, I told him nothing, that I was going to see what you thought. He told me to sit with my back against him and in front of him. So I did. He touch all over my head, shoulders and arms. He said in my right ear, pain. Left ear good. Right ear pain, no happiness. (thinking back as I write this maybe I was mistaking happiness for gratitude. I am very grateful for every moment I’m in but maybe not happy. Regardless it’s all been released and is gone now.)

He then told me to lay down on the ground. So I moved to the floor where I wasn’t sure what was going to happen. He moved his hands all over my body in motions as to unstick energy. Then he sits me up and shows me how to move. He guides me to do it myself and we sat there doing it together. He then whispers in my ear, love is coming, be patient.

We do several more rounds of releasing energy. When we were finished, he looks at me and says every time you look in the mirror, laugh and scoop up your laughter and eat it. You stay happy. I said easy, I can do that…I honestly loved the idea of that. So we practiced.

When finished he sits back down on his chair and asks me to come over. You come back again, love is on it’s way…

I stook up and thanked him for his service and Rai and I walked away. As we were walking Rai looked at me in disbelief. He said he never sits with people for that long, maybe 2-5 mins. You sat with him for 10-20 mins. I don’t recall because there was no such thing in those moments.

Rai then turned to me again and said you have good karma, they aren’t even open because of everything. But he was willing to see you. I had to sit for a minute before getting in the car because of the way my body felt and for the sheer fact of overwhelming gratitude.

The best way to describe the way my body felt was like my insides were vibrating at a very high level starting from my solar plexus and throughout the day went all the way up through my crown chakra. I felt light headed, dizzy, clear. It was the feeling I had after having my first Reiki session with my friend Cathy.

I needed time to feel and reflect. I was hoping there would be a space to do such things but I was with my driver Rai and I was an hour away from home. I wasn’t ready to go home either. Funny, as I sit here writing about it, I can feel the energies within and feel the way I did yesterday.

Rai drove me around, we stopped at a couple of temples and one I got to sit and be with for some time. So I did exactly that. I sat and felt and prayed in front of the temple. Not sure what I was praying for but I felt that, that’s what I needed to do. I took some pictures and we moved on.

The next Temple we stopped at is a famous Temple Batuan (sounds like batwan). I could only see so much as the gates were closed. But I took pictures anyways. It was beautiful and amazing. Just like all of them.

Rai decided we were gonna go check out the waterfall anyways. We knew it was closed but he thought that we might be able to actually see it anyways, even from a distance. So off we were. Sure enough we found it and we drove to as far as we could. Thankfully he is local, so we were able to walk down to where all the restaurants were. In that very moment I was sad that I never got a picture on a swing. When we got to the vista point I took some pictures and Rai called out to me and pointed…There was a wicker seat that is like the swings but stationary. I was totally stoked. I sat there and enjoyed the view in my little wicker seat. Took it all in.

We then decided it was time to head back. It was still morning time. Rai said he was going to take me through Kuta, so I asked him if this little spot in Sanur was on the way. He said sure, I wanted to pick up another sarong (which BTW is pronounced sa-roong). When we pull up to the spot, they were open.

I get out of the vehicle and I honestly have no idea how this happened but my right thumb got stuck in the door. I have no idea, I pulled it out and looked at it…It was getting creepier and creepier by the millisecond. I ran into the cafe and begged for ice. They brought some out and I was almost in tears. I stopped and practiced my breathing, but it didn’t help. I busted out some Reiki while standing there and held my thumb in between my hands. One of the guys was like omg, you need to go see the doctor, he’s next door. I looked at him and gave him a half laugh. Knowing they couldn’t do anything for me.

I then decided to hurry up and look for what I wanted. The young lady came over to help me open them up so I could see all the patterns. I ended up walking away with 2. I got back in the car and we drove home. Rai had no idea what happened. I was still in shock.

I get home and look up what that meant. I mean really I just saw the healer and this happens maybe an hour later???? I have mentioned in past blogs that when I have a situation I usually look it up by typing in, spiritual meaning of…

Right Thumb (The Healer’s Ocean Forum: Minor Chakra Meaning: thumb, right)
Keywords: will power, will to receive something.

Short explanation:
the will to receive something (help, favor, care, recognition, love, money…)
is in a subtle way not allowed to be recognized or expressed

For a more detailed look..check out his link. Pretty on point. Jeez…

So, after reading that and trying to sit with self and assist in the healing of my thumb I realized that I need to be more assertive in my actions and become more aware of these particular aspects…the willingness to receive.

Ok, it’s still early in the day, time to nap on that…

But then a few days later, I stub my left big toe. Oh jeez…the Universe is really yelling at me. That means, sit and be still. It is your ether toe, you spiritual connection. Oh boy…

Ok, so now I have my work cut out for me, no pun intended. Today I sat woke up and watched a facebook live with my friend Cathy. She channels Rosemary. I was inspired by her words and actions so much so that I decided I would try channeling. I let her know what I was going to do and of course I had all the support.

After I texted her I went upstairs and sat upright, put my awesome headphones on and listened to some binaural beats for channeling on youtube. I was in it, I was told that I am not ready (sad face). Instead we talked and I asked some questions and after a while the Divine Consciousness told me to go buy a plant and come back later. I was like, ok.

I went out and found a plant at a place that translates to mighty flora. Flora is the name of my one of my higher aspects of self, pretty cool. Anyways, I ended up buying a Jasmine plant and it has 2 buds on it.

I brought it home and I decided to wait till sunset to meditate again. When I finally did, they told me that when the buds start to bloom I will be ready. Until then, come back every morning and evening. I got so excited so. I feel that my flowers will at least begin to bloom by the next full moon, which is the Flower SuperMoon; May 6th. We shall see.

Love, Light and Healing
xoxo
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Bali Day 16

Today I leave Ubud and head to Saba to meet Aric. Today we are heading to Turtle Island and Uluwatu Temple. First I need to figure out how to leave Ubud as Nyepi Day just ended and mostly everything in town is still closed. In Ubud, Gojeks and other Uber type transportation is frowned upon, so having a driver comes in handy or usually the hotel can help you out. I did try anyways for a Gojek just to see if anyone was around, that was a big fat no. So I contacted Rai whom I have been using and gratefully he only lived 15 mins down the road in Ubud.

Saying goodbye to the new staff, as the staff for the past 2 days left sun up, I was happy to leave this isolation and ready for a new one. As I was walking through the property another snail made his presence known and I said so long to him as well.

I was walking down the alley way where they were doing construction, I stopped and noticed all the bamboo holding everything up, I can’t help but wonder if it’s actually part of the construct of the building or if it’s just temporary. Either way, it was very interesting to see. I made it to the the end of the street and Rai was just pulling up.

It was about 30- 45 min drive to Sanur. There was hardly traffic, we made it there by 930am which allowed me 30 mins to chill and drop off all my belongings.

10 am sharp Arik’s driver came with a friend and we took off immediately on our adventure. It seemed as though the drive took forever, I had no idea where we were vs where we were going. I just knew to go with the flow and have some fun, which is exactly what I did. We finally pull up to this place called Bali Coral Dive and Water Sport.

No one was there except the people working and locals hanging out. We seemed to be the only tourists around, in South Kuta.

Aric was doing all the negotiating with the price and wanting to include his driver Eka and friend Ayu. When everything was finalized we hopped in a boat off shore and cruised around to the other side. Where we were greeted by a woman. We were told it’s an island, but it’s not and that was ok.

We walk in and there are like basins where a few really large turtles stay and looking beyond that in a pond kinda deal were tons of other turtles. First of all, we were the only people there, so we had the whole place to ourselves. We hung out and fed the turtles, she said they release them into the wild and for a month and bring them back (which doesn’t really make sense to me- but what do I know about turtles).

She guides us over to cages on the other side, which were birds, bats, and a muskrat. For those of you who know me, I was mortified for these creatures. I had no idea that it was going to be like this. I don’t believe in cages for animals and especially flying creatures. But I was there and I went along with it, I thanked them all for allowing me to take pictures and I sent them all love and light. It was neat to see these creatures up close and personal, but I felt sad.

We were there for about 30 mins and it was time to go back, the boat ride was like 10 to 15 mins. Aric asked the guy if he could drive and they let him, he was stoked. We get back to shore and realize how hungry we were. We pulled over at a restaurant that was still open, the only one, and had a big lunch. It was so good.

After lunch I was looking both ways to cross the street and realized no one is anywhere. Very rare sight for where we are, but I am sure everyone around the world can identify. We began our drive again towards the Uluwatu Temple. When we finally pulled up to the gate, there were road blocks and guards making sure no one enters. Uluwatu Temple is a Hindu temple which is one of 6 ley lines in Bali.

Uluwatu Temple, the Rainbow Serpent (Great Female Dragon), is the starting point of the ley lines where the energy passes through and is purified. Earth is represented here at the Uluwatu Temple. ~Jodi Louise

As we had to turn around we began driving back to Saba. We tried to find anything open, including Padang Padang Beach, it to was closed. But we were able to stop and check out the view. We saw little monkeys playing in the trees and swinging onto the beach, it was awesome. A picture perfect place, only to be seen from the bridge.

When we left here there was a huge temple that you can see all the way from Canggu. We saw it as we were driving and Eka thought we would like to see it, since we couldn’t see Uluwatu Temple. He took us as close as he could, as the actual temple itself was closed as well. We went a little off roading and came to a clearing next to an abandoned hotel.

After this stop we made it to the grocery store. Eka thought we might want to check out this particular grocery store. We walked in and it was like walking into a version of whole foods, everything all fancy. But they didn’t have a very wide selection of veggies, but the fruit… We walked around looking for everything we may need for the next couple of days before moving again. We ended up spending $34 USD for 2 hamburg patties (huge), pound of bacon (freshly sliced), watermelon, eggs, pocari sweat, lettuce, onions, bananas. dragon fruit, snakeskin fruit, honey, ginger, candy, and smokes. Quite amazing, the place was more for tourists and expats as it was higher priced than the local warungs (which are also little shops and some sell food. I am learning as I go).

We finally made it back and we were exhausted and hungry, especially after grocery shopping. We sat back and relaxed for a few minutes before getting started in the kitchen cooking. When we finally did, we made this awesome dinner that was so good and all fresh ingredients. I was stoked, for all of you who know me, it brings me zero pleasure in cooking; Then I came to Bali….everything here is good and I enjoy figuring out how to cook new things and I actually eat tons of fruit and don’t mind peeling or cutting or anything. Even the salads here are so much better. Everything is better when you are in Bali.

For the record, I have misspelled Aric’s name thus far. I changed what I could find but I do apologize…lol

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Bali Day 15

I am in pure isolation today, except the staff of 6 and a cat. It’s a beautiful day and everyone left this morning and when I say everyone, it was just 3 couples. The 2 London Ladies, Dicky and his friend and the Romanian guy and his lady friend.

Now I am here enjoying the place all to myself. I have the pool, plenty of food and plenty of water and I am doing my part, isolating. Last night while watching the sunset I asked Universe for a sign that I am supposed to listen to my intuition and stay despite everyone elses ideas and beliefs. I closed my eyes and first a pizza popped up and then a snail.

I have seen a lot of snails since I’ve been here but not at this hotel and certainly no pizza. So today after spending quite a bit of time with self and reflection I went to the pool. I sat poolside to dry off and began writing in my journal again. I had finished a thought and put my pen down and at the same time I heard something behind me. I turned around and my eyes locked onto a snail. It was the first place my eyes landed. Bali is a magical place and for my eyes to see something instantly without scanning, impressive. It was the snail. I laughed and was so grateful, I thanked Universe and went about my business with a smile.

A little while later I move to my porch and kick back out of the sun, scanning my phone after being in the pool. I scrolled maybe 3 people down and saw my friend had made a delicious looking pizza, as that was my other sign; again I laughed and put my phone down. I began to write again.

The staff has to stay overnight again as today was a mandatory stay home day. So with everyone else gone, they started playing music and having a dance party! Then they moved it to the other pool, as there are 2 pools. They were fun.

After enjoying them and kicking it poolside off and on, I decide to take a shower and let my bathing suit dry as I am to go to Arik’s place in the morning, which means I need to pack it all again. So I do exactly that and realize I’m hungry. It’s funny to me how I talk about the food a lot. They are semi small portions here so I eat 3 times a day.

I pack up what I can and go order dinner and while she’s making it I went above my room and sat to watch the sunset. So beautiful. Heaven on Earth. Really, my vision boards don’t lie! Hahahaha.

I was heading back to my room when Sylvia comes to me and says I have a letter. She hands me a note from the London Ladies. I was so happy! I missed them this morning. They left earlier than I anticipated. They were trying to get on a flight home. I really enjoyed their company. When they talked about London, it really made me want to move there; just to check it out. They spoke of the ins and outs of living in and around London. Something to seriously think about. So I got their info and found them on facebook and messaged them, I trust that they are on their way home.

As I sit here writing this the staff is hanging out in the restaurant and listening to music and having dinner together. I love how this culture unites, at least on Bali. I’m not sure about the other islands but it’s so beautiful. I’m sitting outside on at the table on my porch, enjoying their music and listening to them laugh and sing.

Everyone here is so friendly and kind. People honk on the road but it’s not road rage, it’s hey I’m here- watch out. They have 4 religions here and they all unite as one. Christian, Buddhist, Muslim and Hindu. Bali is mostly Hindu with some Muslim, I think they said Jakarta is more Muslim. It’s a beautiful blend of religion.

Here comes another dance party!

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Bali Day 14

I slept in till 730 today and it was amazing! Today is Npeyi Day. No internet and no tv (not that I’ve used one since I’ve been here). I started with breakfast, fried eggs with watermelon juice and toast. It was so hot by 830 that I jumped in the pool and hung poolside for some time. I went above my room and meditated on my situation and wrote another letter about it. The minute I put the pen down, I looked over and there was a feather sticking right out of the ground. Anyone who is in the know, understands that feathers represents angels, when one crosses your path, know they are with you. That was what I needed to see in that very moment. It was perfect.

When a feather crosses your path, know that the angels are with you

I then decided it was time to play catch up with my posts. So I started doing that and then I would take pool breaks in between because it was so hot. By the time noon came around I was hungry so I made myself some noodles and toast, I peeled a cucumber and ate a banana. I was full and happy. I took everything up to the restaurant and washed everything there. I jumped in the pool and then went back to writing.

As I was sitting there, a young man, Dicky, came up and we started talking. He lives here in Bali. His club that he worked at in Denpasar just closed so he is just passing through with a friend. He was living in Jakarta and couldn’t find work because the big companies there don’t hire their own people. The big companies are owned by Chinese and they don’t use people that live in the city. It is so sad. He left because he couldn’t find work and he got into drugs there. So he came here and he has been clean ever since and had a job. His parents live here, and he helps them with their business. Which is cooking, selling food. It seems most families do that as a team. I love that. He is a drummer and loves Wu-Tang and Rancid and many more bands. He is currently working on his first hip hop project, he is in the middle of writing lyrics. He just finished university for tourism and is working on getting his passport so he can go to America and work on a cruise ship in Miami. He is very excited about it. I am super stoked for him too. I told him, don’t spend your money there…save it and bring it home. You can build your restaurant or hotel easily. That’s what he wants to do, and he wants to help his friends out by giving them all jobs in Jakarta. He is also learning how to surf. Super nice, cool cat.

We talked for like an hour and next thing you know it’s 4pm. Dinner time. The kitchen closes at 5 today and this meal was on the house, although I didn’t know it. I ordered the chicken cordon blu. I was slightly skeptical, but I didn’t need to be. It was so good.

I went to go shower and wash my hair; I couldn’t run my fingers through it anymore. The water pressure is so horrible there was no way it was gonna do the trick. I through in some shampoo and said ok all done. Not even gonna bother with conditioner at this time. I sat back down in front of the computer and continued on. I had forgotten that it was a new moon, and no light pollution so when it out dark I wanted to go above my room on the terrace and look at the stars. I invited the London Ladies too.

I went up there and brought my camera. It was so beautiful. Saw some things shoot across the sky and remembered how to take night shots. The only problem is that I need a powerful light to get focus on something. But I did what I could, and I was just so excited to figure it out again.

I stopped taking pictures so I could just enjoy what was before me. I even saw a lot of fireflies which I rarely see anymore in the US. It is truly a fairyland here. Nothing but amazing. Everything is beautiful and right where it’s supposed to be, including me. To see everything with my own eyes, absolutely stunning. No words could truly describe anything I feel or see and for that I am truly blessed.

As I was getting up to go back downstairs, I coughed loudly and a bat was in the tree across from me and I must’ve scared it and it made some noises and flew away. It startled me too. My heart was pounding but then I started laughing and made my way to my room and went to sleepies.

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Bali Day 13

Today I was leaving the bamboo villas. I was happy to do so, yet sad to leave my new friends. A bittersweet event. I was excited to go to a comfortable hotel where I can sit and relax comfortably, go to the bathroom with no one around (hahaha) and sprawl out. I was headed back to Ubud. I booked it the night before and was hesitant on the area, but I wanted to be comfortable with Silent Day.

“Silent Day, known as Nyepi, is a Balinese “Day of Silence” that is commemorated every Isakawarsa according to the Balinese calendar. It is a Hindu celebration mainly celebrated in Bali, Indonesia. Nyepi, a public holiday in Indonesia, is a day of silence, fasting and meditation for the Balinese.” ~Wikipedia

They turn off the internet throughout the country, no one is allowed to leave their homes and no cooking, no lights. Its actually quite fascinating. Hotels and resorts are able to keep their electricity and people are allowed to use the pool and we also have AC. No tv and no internet. Which was fine by me.

I pack up my belongings and get ready to leave. Arik had reserved a spot somewhere that I cannot remember and he booked it for 5 days. He was supposed to stay at the villas for several days but we both agreed on comfortability. So he was leaving as well. We hiked back up to the main road and both got gojeks. His arrived first and off he went. I waited till I got up there to order mine.

When I looked at the price it said 104k. So I ordered. The day before it was 115k. I would have called Rai but just to transfer locations it made sense to just get a gojek. So I ordered. The person who accepted, texted me and asked to make the price go higher. I told him 115k, in which he replied 200k. My first thought was no, but then I said whatever just get out of here. So I agreed. I then realized he was not moving so I cancelled and rebooked. This time I got this nice old man who just came to pick me up and we were off. He didn’t speak much English and I haven’t learned much Balinese so we just drove, I did ask him if it was ok to sit in front seat; he obliged. I just like to see everything and take it all in.

The drive was beautiful, every road looks like we are on back roads. Then we come to major intersections and everyone is just everywhere and trying to go somewhere. They are pros, that is why I am a passenger at this time and I will leave it at that.

We made it to Ubud and I was starving. We pulled up to the hotel on this tiny road and I think I ended up giving him117k, I was going to give him 150k but I couldn’t find it in my wallet and 117 is a great number.

I was welcomed with a fresh lemonade and a lime. Checking in was a breeze. I remembered that they had a restaurant and was so happy to eat something after I dropped everything off. Sylvia walked to my room and I marveled in the space. So open and fresh, spacious and quiet. The bathroom is bigger than Madonna’s first apt in NYC. A/C a big bed I had a kitchen and the pool right outside my door. I even have a little couch with a soft cushion to sit on. I love it.

I threw everything in the room and went to check out the food. I order spring rolls and a salad as it just turned noon. They were both fabulous, I read on the reviews to try the pineapple pancake. So maybe I will do that. I met a lady who was checking out but having a bite before she left. Nice lady, she enjoyed her stay and was heading to a friends house; they were going to go swimming with the dolphins.

I go back to my room and change right into my bathing suit and join these 2 ladies in the pool. The ladies are from London. They came here on holiday and heading back to London on the 26th. One works for emergency child services and the other is an artist, much like me. We create.

I went back to my room and requested refunds for my flights from Air Asia and my also my Cambodian Visa. That took some time and realized, everything is going to be closed for the next 2 days, I’d better get to the grocery store. The hotel offers a free ride into town but you need to find your way back. So I asked for a ride and we only went as far as the main road. I said no the grocery store, he said this is as far as he can go. I said ok and got off and began to walk. Basically going to the grocery store that was down the street from the Gio Vanda House, where I stayed last time I was here. From where I was, that was far. Google maps said a 30 minute walk, but I beg to differ only because it was hot and there were hills.

I finally made it there and wow the streets were quiet, compared to the last time I was here. I thought to myself now I could ride a motorbike, way less people. I walk in to the store and it was busy. I went in for bug spray, fruit, and noodles. I ended up also getting bread, a pastry, honey and ginger. I paid just under 8 bux for everything and I got quite a bit. It filled up my backpack. You can’t walk out of a US grocery store without paying 7 bux just for honey, ok maybe honey and a 1/3 watermelon.

I begin my trek back, I decided instead of getting a ride I would walk all the way back and see everything. As I made my way I thought, why not some wine. So I stopped and bought a bottle of Bali made rose. I got off the main road and this is the road that seemed challenging. I walked about 7 mins or so and came across fruit stand. I stopped and realized I wanted dragon fruit. So I bought 3 and somehow fit it into my bag. Off I went again. I found my road and marched my happy ass back to the hotel.

I was so hot from the walk. I made sure to go before the sun would go down so that I can walk safely back. I had given my laundry to the ladies so all I had were my workout leggings that were black and thick. I got back and changed back into my bathing suit and right back in the water.

The pool was actually quite cold but it was so hot out that it was refreshing and you were fine after being in it for a few minutes. The pool at the bamboo villas was like taking a bath. It was so hot. The only reason you get in is so that when you get out you are nice and cool.

I worked myself up such an appetite that I went back to the restaurant to have dinner. I know you are probably thinking, you just went to the grocery store. But here’s the thing, I didn’t want to use the kitchen to cook anything at night. 1 reason is the bugs; 2 well I was looking for anything to wash the dishes with and there was nothing; 3 there could potentially be an ant situation which is not cool. So I went and had dinner and ordered the chicken satay and the spring rolls again. Yummm.

I had jumped back in the pool and started questioning everything. With everything going on, it’s been a battle of mind and heart. So, I wrote a facebook post…not really for everyone else but for me. I needed to write it out. I also realized it was a new moon so I sat and wrote out things that I am manifesting into my life. And I sat with it for some time.

After my brain being fried over what I feel in my soul and what society is telling me to do I was tired. I had a glass of wine and went to bed.